#connor edit

I walked around my room, gathering my clothes. As I was getting ready, my gaze fell onto my badge. My weapon was lying right next to it. It made me think back to the last time, I used it. It was a few weeks ago, when the android protests increased. I was glad that they managed to win back their independence. It made my job much easier, since the whole division for Deviancy became useless, which meant that my Partner Hank and me got some weeks of only light work in front of us. Much to Hank's likings, I might add. That man really needed a break, after all he went through. But to be honest, not only him.

I stopped staring at my badge and finally picked  it up, shoving it in my pocket. I grabbed my weapon and put it under my belt, hidden behind my coat. It was still chilly outside, so it was easy not to be so noticeable.

I grabbed my purse and finallly left my apartment, now on my way to the nearest coffe shop. I found it, a cupple weeks ago, when I tried to show Connor some perks of being a human.

I cursed under my breath. I thought, thaat maybe, just maybe I could be able to go for one day without thinking about him, but it seemed impossible.

I knew I shouldn't think about him again, but still, I let my mind wander to him again, as I got in line for my coffee.

Everything was going smooth, until it wasn't. Hank, Connor and I visited the Eden club today. And just like I said, it started good, but then things got out of hand. And while I ended up with a black eye from fighting the Android's, Conner was left confused, while Hank was angry. I felt like, after starting to trust Connor, this trust now started to slowly crumble again. 

So, as we visited the bridge, Hank and I used to come to, when I was still a rookie, things got even worst.

"Hank, knock it off!!", I yelled. He was pointing his gun at Connor. And oh boy, the Android didn't make it any better, provoking Hank further and further. 

"Whatever", Hank finally said and walked away. I watched as he walked back to his car and drove away.

"What was that all about!?"; I asked and turned back to Connor. The android looked at me, confused as hell.

"I am still trying to figure him out", he whispered and turned around, looking at the water.

I sighed and walked over to him, leaning against the railing.

"You need to stop provoking him, he has been through a lot. You have no idea, what a few words can do to a man!", I explained to Connor.

"Don't I?", he asked.

I chuckled and patted his shoulder:"You simply lack the experience"

"Experience?", he asked,"I am the most advanced android Cyberlife has to offer at the moment, I was built for this Job"

"I am not talking about the job, Connor.", I smiled sadly,"I mean life"

"Do you imply, that I don't know what he is going through, because I am no human?", Connor whispered, he was staring directly into my eyes. He almost seemed shocked.

"No Connor", I smiled,"For me, there is no difference between Android and human. What I mean is, that even though you are extremely skilled at your job, you don't have any life experience. You've only been activated a few months ago, your're still a child, trying to find it's place in the world."

"I have a place"; he stated blantly,"The DPD, and cyberlife"

"That's not, what I meant", I said and grabbed his hand,"I am sure you will understand soon. I will help you find your place"

I watched as Connor's LED started flickering yellow, while he inspected our interwined hands. 

"Do you really see no diference between Human and android?", Connor asked, his eyes suddenly avoiding me.

"No", I mumbled,"I don't care aout the colour of your blood, you're just as human, as I am and you deserve to be treated respectfully and not like you're objects"

I must've been mistaken, but I thought I saw his LED flash red, before he pulled my closer by my hand and softly kissed my head. I was too stunned to speak, as he leaned back.

"Thank you, Y/N, Your help means a lot to me. I hope that we can continue like this.", Connor stated.

"Of course, Connor. ", I smiled,"I am glad, we are friends"

"Friends", he repeated.

"Ma'm, your coffee is ready"

I snapped back out of my thoughts and looked at the man in front of me. I smiled at him and handed him the money before grabbing my coffee and leaving.

I slowly sipped my coffee, as I wandered around the streets. Signs of the protest's were still very visible. But we would built it up again, I was sure of it.

I made my way to the mall, looking if I could buy anything. But that dind't help. My mind was still with Connor and what happened next, after we got closer. My heart ached at the memory. After all that happened, I didn't even remember why I was so willing to get into a relationship with him. I should've known that he was only using me, that he was faking it all, to help our investgation. I still didn't know why he had to do this to me exactly, but after he became a deviant, we only saw eah other again one time and that was when we helped Hank get away from the fake Connor. 

That was the last time, I saw him. And even though, I still can't forgive him for what he did, I still hoped that he was alright, that he was alive and fine. 

"Well well, what do we have here?"

I instantly recognzed his voice and turned around:"Gavin, my lovely friend and colleague"

He smiled and I walked over to him, giving the man a welcome hug.

"Wanna go to work together?", he asked.

I smiled:"Sure thing"

We started to make our way to the police departement, indulging in a light conversation while we were walking. As we finally reached our destination, I said my goodbyes to Gavin and made my way over to my desk. Hank wasn't here yet, as usual. I sat down and got ready for paperwork, as I heard an all too familiar voice.

I peaked over my PC and I couldn't believe my eyes. Right there, talking to the comissioner, was none other that Connor himself.

"You've gotta be kidding me", I mumbled to myself and slumbed back down in my chair, hiding behind my monitor. He was right there, walking around, like nothing ever happened. Like he never betrayed me.

"It wil be nice to have you back, Connor. We can really use all the help we can get.", I heard the Commissioner say.

"Every help, my ass.", I mumbled to myself, as I got up. I wasn't planning on talking to Connor today or even encountering him again, so I made my way over to Gavin.

"Already missing me?", He grinned, as he saw me walking over to his desk. 

I smiled at him:"Always. Do you mind getting a coffee with me?Outside?"

Gavin looked at me, a confused expresssion on his face, but then his eyes wandered around my head and he nodded.

"Don't worry, I'll keep the tin can away from you.", he smiled and held out his arm for me.

I gently interwined my arm with his and smiled:"Thank you."

Together, we made our way out of the Police Station. Unbeknownst to the both of us,Connor had been watching us the entire time, analysing every single action of both, Gavin and me. He excused himself from his talk with the Commissioner and silently followed the two of us.

"What exactly happened between you two, if I may ask?", Gavin mumbled, as he sipped his coffee. 

"It's a long story", I answered, looking down, too ashamed of what happened between Connor and me,"But what you must know is, that I thought his feelings were real, but apparantly he was just faking it alll to help our stupid investigation."

"Oh",Gavin mouthed,"That plastic prick"

"Yeah", I sniffled,"I guess, it doesn't matter what the colour of your blood is, you can be an asshole anyways"

"I am truly sorry for what happended to you, Y/N", Gavin stated and stopped walking. He put both his hands on top of my shoulders,"And honestly, if he was only using you, he didn't deserve you anyway, you deserve better!"

I chuckled at his words:"That's what I keep telling myself, but I guess it's just all lies to make up for the fact, that I still have feelings for him"

"You do!?"

Gavin and I turned around in surprise, as I heard the voice of the man I least wanted to see right now.

"Have you been following us?!", Gavin barked,"For how long, you freak!?"

He was about to charge at Connor, but I stopped him:"Don't!"

Gavin hesitated for a second, but finally stepped back.

"Can we talk?", Connor asked.

"You plastic prick...", Gavin mumbled again. He was ready to beat the shit out of Connor, but I stopped him again. 

"You will talk", I whispered and looked at Connor,"I will listen and then we'll see if I have something to say to you"

"Thank you", Connor mumbled. He looked at me for a second, before sheepishly glancing at Gavin.

"I think, we'll be alright here, Gavin", I said to him. He looked at me and his features softened, his face was now full of concern.

"Are you sure?", he asked. I nodded:"I will be alright"

He only nodded at me before making his way back to the Police Station. But not before bumping into Connor's shoulder while walking past him. 

I looked after him, before turning towards Connor:"So, what do you have to say?"

He gulped heavily.

"Do you wanna walk a bit?", he asked first. I only nodded and we started walking.

"I don't really know how to start", Connor mumbled.

"Just...tell me how you feel", I said.

"I feel...pain, regret, hatred for what I did to you.", he mumbled. I didn't say anything and motioned for him to continue.

"After we...parted, I felt so lost. Like a part of myself had left with you. I didn't know what it was at first. But then, I went to Jericho and I became a deviant and only then I truly understood what I felt."

"What did you feel, Connor?", I asked quietly.

"I was lost within the darkness, but then I found you", he mumbled, cloing his eyes. I hesitated for a second, before grabbing his hand. He slowly opened his eyes.

"The only thing I need in this world, Y/N, it's you. I didn't realize it sooner, because I... lacked the experience, life experience.", Connor said.I chuckled at his reference. I felt him pull me closer by my hands. 

"But now I know, that everything I feel, the reason I became a deviant, it is because of you. Because I found you and I realized that I would never fall unless it's you I fall into"

"I believe you", I whispered,"But what you did Connor. It's gonna take time to heal"

He only nodded:"I realize that I made mistakes, that I cannot repair, I can only try to make up for them."

"You can indeed do that", I mouthed and looked up. He was only inches away from me.

"Connor?", I asked sheepishly.

"Yes?"

"How about you start with kissing me?", I mumbled.

I watched as a smile formed on his lips, before he leaned down, connectiong our lips. It felt just like I rememberd it, but it was still different. It felt more...human. I didn't sense the coldness of his lips or his friging fingers on my hips, all I could feel were his emotions. Love, Hunger...Devotion, but also pain and regret. It was something I had never felt before.

"You still matter to me", Connor breathed against my lips, "Very much"

"Thank you, Connor", I smiled,"For not giving up on us"

"I see, you two are talking again"

We turned around, as I heard the voice of none other then Lieutenant Hank Anderson himself.

"Hy Hank", I mumbled and greeted the old man with a smile.

"Lieutenant", Connor said.

Hank smiled and put a hand on each of our shoulders,"It's good you two are talking again, because we have been teamed up again."

I looked at him perplexed:"But we don't need a devision for deviancy anymore"

"No", Hank answered,"But murderers still very much exist, so let's get to work"

"Yes Lieutenant", Connor said.

"Still the obedient little machine, huh Connor?", Hank teased.

"I-", Connor stuttered.

"I'm just messing with you, son", Hank chuckled,"it's nice to have you back"

Connor smiled and looked down at me:"Nice to be back, Sir."

"So,", I smiled,"Let's get to work"