#confusinglove

How are you? It’s been months since your workplace opened and I found my favorite place to-go to. I initially went there just because I liked the interior and the location. I like the food and drinks. I like the music. I like the ambiance. I don’t even have a plan to find a crush there. However, as time passed and I grew to like your friend/co-worker, I added him to my list of “happy crushes.”…

It’s really true eh, no? That you’ll come across someone with whom you want to take all the risks. Even my friends told me that it’s now love instead of a crush. And I continue to deny it because I know that in the end I will lose. But I finally lose because he’s now avoiding me.  But why did I end up losing in the end? I don’t even like him in the first place. I like his friend but when he…

My heart is beating so fast while I am with you.

My body temperature become hot.

My mind is full of question about you.

I can’t looking at you without thinking what are you thinking about me.

I didn’t realise that I keep smiling while I am with you.

I keep waiting for your message every single time.

Non-stop thinking about you.

But I also not happy when you reply me late.

I confuse myself.

I wonder if you are serious about me or not.

I keep questioning myself if you are just playing me or not.

Somehow I fee you just find me when you bored.

Am I just your toy?

You made me confess about my feeling to you.

But you end up never shown any serious gesture towards me.

Am I becoming blind on looking for someone like you???

Now I can’t tell how I feel.

Missing you, happy, wonder, angry, worry and even want to hug you.

I just want to run, just to see if you would chase me. Then if you do ill be just right walk through back, with bond of tiny smile pieces. Comin back through to ask will you ask me to be your forever? If you are planning to brake this broken jar, you wouldn’t ever. Cause this heart is still filled. Choices burns between replace it or brake it. I stand to be loved by your kind, but still loving for my kind. Say it bae, will you brake the walls or make another walls?