#concentration statement

So in AP, we have to do twelve Breadths (the free for all stuff I posted earlier this year) and twelve Concentration pieces (which is like a series, and I'm currently working on this semester. We are also required a concentration statement (which is pretty much a summary), so here's that!

 My concentration depicts the connection between a boy and his spiritual partner, a tree, throughout a lifetime. The challenge of the concentration is not only how to depict the tree and the boy in twelve distinct pieces, but also to insert plant based imagery into the artworks. There will be a large sense of unity, space, and increasing pattern in the environment and movement within the figure. Colors transition from a cool winter, to pastel colors for spring, to vibrant summer colors, and finally to earthen tones and warm colors in autumn, which repeats through all twelve.  

for my concentration, i will be focusing on portraits that capture instances of hidden emotion from a range of interesting angles and perspectives.

My Concentration represents "Various Stages of Depression". Originally, I started with the idea, "A Beautiful Mind" which was inspired by the story of John Forbes Nash Jr., a brilliant professor who struggled with his diagnosis of a mental disorder, schizophrenia. When picking my concentration, I wanted to put my own representation of how I think the internal battle of someone battling with themselves in their minds because I was able to identify  However, as me pieces were produces, the common mood the seemed to share was depressing and somber, which I feel came out because it was during this time I had hit my lowest point in my own psychological state when dealing with depression.

I pick a concentration, and then I can't think of anything because my topics are so broad and stupid. If someone tells me to draw something, I'll draw something. If someone tells me to paint something, I'll paint it. 

All I have is half a sketchbook filled with crappy doodles and homework assignments, and pages that only contain song lyrics and quotes and nothing else. 

No matter how dark my world feels, I can't seriously express it. I'm not like my friends who can make statements with their art or show their amazing imaginations with their art. I'm stuck.

I guess I like drawing buildings and interiors. I wish I could do that as a concentration. I just don't know how to word it. And I don't know if I can change my concentration anymore.