#concentration problems

I think maybe one of my least favorite things about having ADHD is explaining to someone why I function the way I do and that it is because of my ADHD because I feel like I’m just blaming it on ADHD instead of trying hard enough. But like, it’s not that simple. As I’m writing this, I’m mainly thinking about hyperfocusing on something when I have more important things to do and I just can’t stop hyperfocusing even though I know I need to ughhh

So the other day I was talking to my mom, and my housemates were blasting music in the living room. Like my mom could hear it over the phone. Loud and clear. And she kept sighing and I was like “mom what’s wrong?” and she goes “it’s hard to concentrate on what you’re saying with the music and I’m getting tired of the loudness”. And I was like omg that’s the closest analogy I can think of to how it feels to be me trying to focus... like there’s music (with words) blasting, and people talking, and background noise, etc. Except obviously there’s not actual music blasting in my head, it’s all just thoughts and noise in my head and ahhhh. Anyways. There. In case anyone wants to understand (to some degree) what it’s like for me trying to focus.