#compartmentalization?

have you ever realized that sometimes your body reacts to things without you really knowing what you're feeling you start shaking while telling a story because you're upset and it makes logical sense to be upset but at that moment inside you feel nothing your lips turn up at the corners when someone says something sweet but there are no feelings to go along with that action it happens all the time I really don't know how I feel or what I feel I'm just very numb a lot I mean not every single time but often it's so normal for me that I just now realized how weird it is