I can’t sleep so I thought I would share my experience at Comicpalooza in Houston last weekend!

SO story starts a few months ago. (wasn’t sure if I was gonna tell many people this part but hey whats the harm) I painted Cameron Monaghan’s twitter icon and posted it on instagram, TOTALLY not expecting Cameron to ask me for a high-res photo of it! I said of course and now it is his NEW twitter icon. I was/am very surprised, happy and honored :) SKIP FORWARD and there’s a comic convention in my town. I wanted to go but money is tight. Then last minute I found out Cameron would be there as a guest. So into the corner I went to cry quietly. BUT my friend was gracious to buy tickets for him and I to go to the con on Sunday!! And my dad even pitched in so I would have enough money to not only get a photo-op with Cameron but also an autograph. So off I went, late Saturday night to pull together my Bee cosplay!

The morning was pouring rain, I was worried I wouldn’t be able to go. The news was predicting flooding. (and oh god the floodings did come.... AFTER the con ;) lucky lucky me~) So we went and straight away I went to purchase my photo-op and autograph tickets. 100$ later and I was waiting in line for a photo. Was like the 5th person in line, haha. He is so TALL! and I am so SHORT! It’s too cute, and it’s the only thing of the photo I like... aside from his handsome face, of course. :)) They were pumping people out of there so fast all I could say was “hey!” and the took the picture and boom, I was outta there. After they snapped the photo he looked down at me and said “Hey, I like your bee!” (on my sweater) Too cute. oh god.

I had a few hours to kill before autographs started so we walked around the con and bought awesomely priced comics and I even got stopped a few times for pictures which was neat :) (I am very proud of my bee cosplay. I have been told by people before that I pretty much AM bee. so yay :))

So the night before the con I thought “What do I want Cameron to sign?” I know they give out a free photo of the actor for them to sign for you but ugh, everyone does that, and I wanted mine to be special for me. SO. I had to decide if I should bring my drawing of him I did. It’s certainly my favorite drawing I have done and I am proud of it. I can actually LOOK at it without being disgusted and seeing all my errors. But I thought “would that be weird?” but decided fuck it, Im bringing it, and he is gonna sign it! And I thought while I was at it, I would also bring my painting. Go big or go home, bitches.

I was also very up close in the line for autographs. There weren’t many people in line behind me at all, which was good for me! Wouldn’t have to push people through as fast. My hands were numb and shaky and I felt so dumb being so nervous but god. How can I NOT be nervous meeting the literal sun. He’s so handsome! And I’m so... not handsome? I felt like I shouldn’t have even been in his vicinity. There were so many pretty, beautiful skinny girls in line, I felt like I didn’t belong. Like during the photo, girl after skinny beautiful girl went in there and then there I was. Plus size nervous girl with self harm scars all over her arms. Would he be grossed out? Our height difference was adorable but I still ended up feeling like a disgusting giant next to him, but not for height reasons.

I wish I could remember all these details better, I wish I actually LOOKED at him more but I was so god damned shy. Out of all the times to be shy!!! >:C I laid out the painting and the drawing on the table and he saw the painting first and said “Woah cool!” and I said “this is for you, you can keep it. it’s your twitter icon thing...” and he said “Really? Awww thank you, that’s so cool! .... Wait that was you?!” and he said he was gonna come around the tables and give me a hug ... so he did. >u< I can barely even remember it well. My brain won’t let me remember it too clearly or else my heart may explode. He really liked the drawing too and he signed it for me <3 I am gonna frame it and hang it in my workspace so I can look back at it and be motivated and more confident in my art. I guess you can say I left the booth a very happy woman <3

He’s such a nice and chill person, I wish I could talk to him more. He went to Johnson Space Center here in Houston for tour while he was here. My dad actually works for NASA. In my head I’m like “hehehe awe yee, if he ever comes back to Houston I know I could hook him up and show him some pretty kick ass space stuff.” but let’s be real, that’s just fantasy and would never actually happen. But everyone else who left that booth probably felt feeling the same way. What would make me special enough to get that chance, above anyone else? ... Oh right, nothing. So looking back at the whole experience, I had a great time and I was so so happy I could go and meet the person who inspires me artistically and who also inspired me to test the waters with theater and acting. But at the same time it all feels so bittersweet. I had a pretty bad crash emotionally after the whole thing but I already blurbed about that here: http://greenmosaics.tumblr.com/post/119921346606/depression-blurb