#comicalmoodcomic

I fucking hate having bpd! And ofc the only reason they didn’t notice is bc I didn’t SAY my feelings to them, in ANY regard. But Is that gonna stop me from being bitter and angry? Absolutely not, because I have bpd and I’m an abusive shitty person, obviously. Ugh.

I swear it feels like I’m having mental breakdowns every other week as of late :/ I split twice in the past few months (Raz and cyrus) and had another breakdown a lil while ago that I think may have caused us to split again but we got no idea who the hell it is so that’s on the fence. Guess a pandemic will do that to you eh?

Anyways, it’s hard to tell who I am sometimes. Most of the time its only me, Kevin, posting online. But I’m open to the idea of letting some of my alters post. I’ve also mauled over and considered the backlash of being open about being a system with my artwork. But I’m tired of having to hide myself and who I am for the sake of keeping others comfortable. I’m mentally ill, I’m traumatized, and I’m damn well gunna talk about it.

Hey look at this! A comic with me Not Being a Rabbit? That’s right folx! Definitely not going to be a full time thing, but this is inspired by a comic my boyfriend @chaotic-healing (the other boyfriend) made about me, so I made one about my partners. It’s 6:30am and I’m EXTREMELY mushy and gay for them right now.

I feel like I don’t deserve it. But god damn am I thankful for it.

I feel like I’m going nowhere in my transition, and I hate it. I need something to change, I feel like if it doesn’t I won’t last much longer...

Fuckin stupid ass body sucks. I want my fit AMAB body, thanks. The amount of sheer fuckin’ dysphoria I get since I’m a fuckin cis guy in this body fuckin’ sucks. Least we got a binder, I guess. -Raz

Anyways, till further notice, comics will be traditional cause it’s quicker to make em like that, and I rather be able to consistently upload since this, at the end of the day, is suppose to be a diary and I need to be able to get my feelings out.