A lot of things have changed, so I make a new introduction.
Age: 18 | born on 5th April 2007
- LSN autism 🧩♾️ (read the blue text please⬇️)
- infantile eye nystagmus 👁 [a condition which lets my eyes wiggle 24/7 automatically. I'm nearly visually impaired due to it.]
Gender: binary transmale 🏳️⚧️♂️ (out since September 2018 , name legally changed since March 2025)
Other queer stuff: I'm (completely) aroace 🏳️🌈
I live at a care home for mentally ill people since 4th April 2025. Before that I have lived in a care home for intellectual disableds for around one year but it wasn't a long term solution for my federal state because I'm not intellectual disabled. I was at a sheltered workplace from December 2022 to the day I moved out of my former care home but I was just there to have care takers while day the last year so it was more like a day center for me. Now I'm at a day center.
My goal is to develop better life skills, self-control skills, and a better mental health in the next months to be fit for semi independent living as soon as possible. I feel not so good at the new care home, but I hope it's a motivation for me to get fit for semi independent living.
Why are there post on my account where I said I would be MSN ?
Because I really thought I would be MSN. Due to a good meant behaviour of my mom when I lived with her (she didn't motivate me to independence. She didn't forbid me to do things independently but if I wanted she just did it for me helped me.) and due to really thinking, it would be helpful for me to reduce stress due to letting people help me with some ADLS and letting most IADLs be completed for me I development like an MSN autistic person. I don't know if I really was really MSN autistic at some point in my life, but probably I'm it not anymore since more than 1-2 years.
I'm honest. I was already thinking if I'm really MSN in the last year, but I was to scared of a changing label because of restricted thinking. This also made me scared of symptom improvement.
But now I overcome my fear and say that I'm LSN autistic. If I'm L , M, or H LSN, is unclear for me. I need to try which IADLs work and which do not, but I think it's unlikely that I'm L-LSN.
I will mark post about gaining independence and working on myself with the hashtag #soldierboyswaytoindependence
I'm LSN but I will never talk bad about the higher support needs autism community. There are a lot of people who really are MSN , MSN-HSN or HSN. I will talk about my symptom improvements due to medication and using strategies and I also will talk about gaining independence but to the people who read this hold in mind that there are so much autistic people who never can learn the things I learn.
My connection to the topic military 🪖
I have a special connection to the topic military. It gives me energy , motivation and hope. I feel like my soul was made to be in the body of a soldier. I know I never will be able to be a soldier, but this belief gives me motivation, hope, and energy, so it's helpful. I listen to military music because engaging with the topic military is helpful for me and because it's calming for me because it's a slow kind of music that mostly doesn't get suddenly faster or louder. I call myself in my head things like Soldierboy, Solboy, or Soldatenjunge, which ist basically the German version of Soldierboy.
- I'm interested in the topics disability ♿️ and military 🪖 but I also have a good general knowledge in most areas.
(I need to be careful with engaging with the topic disability to not fall back into restricted thinking.)
- I have a plushie pig as my comfort item. It's called Nilschwein 🐷.. The name comes from the german words Nilpferd (hippo) and Schwein (pig) because Nilschwein is a pig that looks a bit like a hippo.
- I wear eardefenders with built in Bluetooth nearly my whole wake time but often only on one ear because it reduces sensory input but I also hear my environment.
- I use Fidgettoys and mental health apps
