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Hi everyone, I hope you’ve been enjoying the beginning of the new year as much as I have. 2022 was one of the hardest years I’ve gone through, but I’m glad to be here in to see it through and to see how much better my life has gotten.

School wise I’m finally in my last semester of college and I’m graduating in May this year! It’s been a long journey and it’s almost over I look back at all my progress in awe of the woman I am today. I’ve exceeded every expectation that I set for myself and others who thought I wouldn’t have amounted to much. I have successfully maintained my 3.0 GPA while keeping up with my personal life, having a PR internship, now starting a social media internship, and managing my oh-so-lovely blog. But to tell you the honest truth, I am burnt out. College was the first experience I ever had to work as hard to get to the places where I need to be, typically I’m used to just showing my personality and getting through life that easy but college definitely challenged me to look more into myself, look deeply into my character and take something out of it. To see the change in me, becoming more academically driven rather than settling for being mediocre was eye-opening, for all my years, I’ve been told I have this untapped potential and that I’m not giving myself a chance and now I finally understand what they were talking about. I’ve learned to follow through with my commitments and not get intimidated by hard work but more importantly if I wanted something I’d have to work 10 times harder for it.

One thing I can say about college I can’t say about any of my other educational ventures is that I actually learned something every year while in college, whether that had been about my relationships, personally, or academically there has been something that I learned in every realm. College was an experience that was unique and pushed a lot of my boundaries, I don’t think I would’ve known myself as well as I do now. College taught me a different type of responsibility when it comes to my working habits, if I wanted to be better I had to do better and make myself known. With me majoring in communications and wanting to be in front of a camera broadcasting to people, I’d get absolutely nowhere had I not changed my mindset. Before I used to just think things just come to me without having to work hard but now I understand the power of manifestation and hard work and that’s proven to work for me time and time again.

As I end my last college semester, it dawns on me that the real world is not so far away. For many, the real world started when they graduated high school but for me, I just started living in the reality that I’m not a child anymore and that thought alone… scares the sh*t out of me. Breaking into the workforce has been a challenge to everyone across America but trying to find a job that directly had something to do with journalism was not an easy task. From crying every day, countless applications that were ignored, to thinking I was never going to get a job I went through the wringer. During the beginning of my fall semester, I did eventually get it internship at a PR agency, that is how I eventually found out the hard way that I would never do PR ever again in my life. In a way, that kind of woke me up to how the workforce is. Not everyone is kind, see’s value, or respects you. While battling internally with those issues, I still kept up with the work that they threw at me. The internship not being my ideal experience made me work harder and in the long run, it showed me how resilient I was. I ended the internship with absolutely nothing (no pay no credits) and to say I wasn’t miserable would be an understatement however there’s always something better waiting for me.

In December 2022, it was the last week of the semester and I was still fulfilling my last couple of workdays as a PR intern. I was miserable, but I learned how to move around them so they wouldn’t have much to say about me or to me. While I was a PR intern, I was looking for new internships, juggling if I might go to grad, school, and thinking, should I just let myself rest for the last semester? All of these ranges of emotions, and I ended up sending out multiple applications for different internships, whether that be PR, editorial, or social media. I sent out an application to a well-known media company and on the day of getting an interview within the week. I didn’t think much of it. I was excited, but I didn’t think I was gonna go far. The interview came and it was amazing, I didn’t even feel like I was going through a real interview if I’d like I was having a conversation with a friend. Still, with the interview being amazing, I thought that I had no chance of working in this company. A week goes by and I haven’t heard anything from this media company and I’m already thinking that they’ve found a better candidate, I’ll just cut my losses, and I’ll just take it with a grain of salt. After pulling an all-nighter for an essay that I had to write, I finally woke up at 5 PM on a Friday. I checked my notifications and I didn’t see an email up, so I scrolled further, and I got some things from the media company, saying that I received the social media internship position! A wave of genuine happiness hit me, and I knew life was getting better. My mom always says good things will find you and be patient, So seeing what I wanted manifest itself and come into my life when it did was fulfilling.

As I go through these next couple of months with my graduation in the very near future, I’m excited to see what’s to come. Slowly but surely all the goals that I’ve set in my life are coming to fruition and I can’t wait to see where life takes me back. I know that I’m on track to being something great in this world and that helps me sleep better at night.

We’ve only been in 2023 for a month, and I’ve already started the next chapter of my life. This month has been more fulfilling in my last two years, and I intend on keeping this energy. I will no longer be entertaining things that don’t fulfill me in life as I get older. I wanna be around people who want to be better versions of themselves, and I wanna see a better version of myself when I’m around those people. It’s been a long journey, bettering myself and learning how to become a better person while also being kind to myself. This has been a learning opportunity these last couple of years, and I think I’ve learned all that I needed to. I’m still very much a work in progress, but my progress shall be noted.

I wish a very positive and healthy 2023 to all of my followers. And I claim every bit of good energy that is around me and I spread that onto you guys. I’m very optimistic for 2023 and I want to share my optimism with you guys. We are going to 2023 and accomplish and overcome everything that’s in store for us.

Happy New Years My Loves💓

P.S Wouldn’t be a new years post without a photo dump🥰😹

Have a good year my loves💓