Not feeling very great, can't lie. I'm not going to air all of my laundry or anything but I am completely off alcohol. I really had to sit down and think to myself "What good does drinking this shit bring in my life?" and I couldn't come up with an answer. Not even "Everything is more fun when we drink." or "drinking makes me relax" because that's BS too. Drinking makes me anxious and weird and mean and hurtful, and I only feel like shit the next day.
Whatever, not like I didn't know that already. But not drinking last week has really reminded me of how much better I feel and am when I'm not drinking and shit.
Idk, like I mentioned I'm feeling pretty strange, I looked up the symptoms I have and they actually are coming from not drinking alcohol. Like when you drink your stomach makes more enzymes to aide with the digesting of the alcohol (or something like that lol) and now that I'm not drinking everyday those enzymes are irritating my stomach and guts and stuff. And that's causing bloating and stuff.
It's pretty cool though, idk it's interesting to see the effects that alcohol, and quitting alcohol, have on the body. I also read that people who daily drink don't realize the effects and changes happening to their bodies unless they quit.
I haven't worked out this week yet, no reason in particular other than I haven't been feeling that great but also I have no excuse lol. I will today though, I felt good after my workout and I remember that my bloating went down quite a bit when I did that. So I'll be getting into that, I also want to do jump roping and stuff... I know, I sound like an overly excited kid which isn't far from how I feel. I'm just so ready and excited to kick out these bad habits for good ones.
This is going to sound very grim but like I said I'm wanting to be honest and open, for my own sake. I just feel like if I were to pass tonight I wouldn't be able to look back at my life and say that I'm proud of the way that I've treated myself and others. And it's not good enough to just acknowledge that and then do nothing about it. It's time for me to make a change, be the change. And for me personally that starts with not continuing to cloud my mind and spirit with poisons such as alcohol and mindlessness. I'm tired of being idle and doing nothing for me or the people around me, I'm blessed to wake up everyday it's time I stop taking advantage of this.
Sorry it's a lot, but just keep following me guys. I'll show you, and hopefully I can inspire others to change their lives as well but I'm going to be great. By the Grace Of God everything will be different.
