#coining it

BATTAT SANS AU DEBUT

Battat's been talking to this lady(?) behind a door lately.... (ITS TENNA)

More to come soon hopefully

Anyway for some reason I stumbled directly into rarepair time and started shipping Blast Off and First Aid. Dunno how that happened but I'm rolling with it cause it's actually scratching my brain

I esp like writing them cause to me, Blast is probably the most emotionally secure and intelligent out of the bunch. If he wants to be with First Aid, the only thing he'd ask of the medic is just don't ask him to change who he is. Which is a reasonable request

Also Me: Mega-Girl has spent her whole life being objectified and only valued conditionally as a tool. She may revel in the many ways she is superior to humans, but her hatred of them is rooted in resenting that they created her (“How could you make me so like you, and yet so unlike you?”). Listen to how she describes herself - a “hollow parody” of life? A “purposeless slave” of “little consequence”? That is not a positive self-image! The source of her homicidal rage is self-loathing due to her robotic nature. She has fully internalized the human prejudice that she is “not real” and “unable to truly feel” and therefore unworthy of rights or love. Based on her parallels to the Terminator robots (the recommended way to kill her is to lower her slowly into lava), it’s highly plausible that she and other robots in this universe cannot self-terminate either and their constant anger is the result of being trapped in slavery without even the escape of suicide.

Tootsie is frequently dismissed and insulted for his lack of intelligence, which he is well aware of (“I may be dumb”, “I don’t know anything”). But unlike Mega-Girl, he has secure self-esteem because he accepts himself and appreciates his other good qualities. He has a great deal of compassion, empathy, honesty, courage, loyalty and crucially, emotional intelligence: he understands feelings, when people are lying about them (“folks say they’re fine when I know that they’re blue”) and their inherent importance(“The feeling I get when you’re close to me, when all my hairs stand up? That’s real.”). The one thing he understands is the same one Mega-Girl doesn’t. The parts of himself he values the most are the the same ones Mega-Girl despises herself for not having. So of course he’s the human to see that she deserves and is capable of love! He knows what it’s like to be treated like you’re less than, but also that everyone still matters just the same no matter how different they are.

By treating her personhood as a given when everyone else she’s met has done the opposite, he makes her respect herself and seek autonomy. He inspires her to want more out of life than what her oppressors want from her (“when you look at me, I don’t wanna be programmed this way”). After she falls for him, she stands up to her legal owner Junior, refusing to follow his orders, objecting to him risking her life and taking offence and even slapping him when he objectifies her again. She’s starting to value herself. However, she still can’t shake the idea that love is at best fundamentally conditional when you’re a robot, hence her fear of Tootsie leaving her. His declaration of unconditional love stops her rampage because finally believing that she is lovable, and has worth, as she is heals her low self-esteem, the source of her bloodlust and resignation to her programming.

I remember it better when I was a child opposed to now. The subtle smell of fireworks was only masked by the aroma of hot dogs and warmed sweets. The sand had always been strong enough so I wouldn’t sink though in the palm of my hands it shifted through the spaces of my fingers weightlessly. Souvenirs were merely toys-- ones to be upgraded year by year; But most importantly, it was the four of us… Mom, Dad… Abby, 

...and me. 

______

The sound of my tomestone ringing draws my attention away from my thoughts and when my hand shifted to into my pocket I had another passing thought. ‘Why the hell am I at the beach in leather?’ 

No matter. 

With a swipe of my finger, I bought the small device to life and lifted it to my ear. I didn’t need to speak, the person on the other end was already talking-- detailing everything I had to do for my next job that I auto-agreed via tomestone. “That’s not a problem. I’ll---” 

 Tap tap tap… 

 My head whips around to find… The Gridania traveling merchant I had met a fortnight ago. The one who didn’t give me her name either by mistake or on purpose-- stood there, smiling back up at me with  the wind dancing in her ebony hair as if further announcing her presence. “I’ll…. Call you back.” I said half-mindedly and hung up the phone despite the mans protest.

“Well if it even Mr. Troublemaker.” She mused with a smile that showed her teeth. “If I didn’t know any better, I would say that you were trying to leave early. That wouldn’t be true huh?” 

When she smiled at me like that, it was infectious which caused my own smile despite my previous somber mood. “I guess not.” I replied. Smoooooth.

“Good…” She nodded. “And it looks like you’re here on your own as well while my folks are in negotiations to set up shop. What do you say we take some time to enjoy ourselves? A faire is always better with people.” She suggested.

A chuckle escapes me. “Are you asking me out on a date? Isn’t that my job?” I teased which brought a flush to mark her cheeks. 

“I- Um-- Huh.. N-no!” She protested. 

“Suuure…” I drew out in a sarcastic and unbelieving manner. “But we really should do this right this time.” I insisted while gesturing towards myself. “Hi, I’m Jurien and you are?” 

“Madaline.” She finally answered. 

“Madaline Voss.”