⇥ @codecracked : " it’s just scary to open up like that. to say how you really feel. especially to people you care about the most. ”
“ i just … i don’t want them to think i can’t do this. i mean , this was my plan and if i tell them i’m scared , none of them will go through with it. ” she saw the way steve looked at her when she prompted the sacrificial plan to the group. how quick he was ready to interject and shut it down. and maybe , in a way , she wanted him to. and if she voiced her worry , it would be scraped in an instant. leaving everyone back to square one as vecna got closer –– stronger.
perhaps that’s why she sought out robin later that day. why was it so much easier to talk to robin about this than any of the others when she was one of the ones max knew the least about ? she’d only talked to what , a handful of times if even that ? but somehow max felt more relaxed with her. maybe it was because they hadn’t known each other long. like , she didn’t feel the overwhelming need to keep on the mask of confidence on when around her. it wasn’t like when they first met max was calm , cool , and collected to begin with. the chaos at the mall –– billy –– it stripped her raw and left a shell in it’s wake. but robin , she never tried to fix her , she was just there. she was robin. and even now , that didn’t waver. “ you all are taking this risk because of me. and if anything happens to you guys i … ”















