I've been wondering, does Spit have any trauma? Sorry if this is a strange ask!!! Love ur oc!
of course declan has trauma: i think most military folk do. some examples of his trauma arent super unique or as traumatic as other ocs, but its what he goes through.
he deals with a lot of guilt. a lot. hes been in charge of many soldiers when they died, and even had to mercy kill some: just so they dont have to suffer.
in an earlier writing piece, we saw that declan has dug up his friend / brother in arms grave to steal his dog tag. it was an attempt to "keep his legacy alive" and he feels terrible everyday he sees it. of course, its always in his pocket, so...
he projects, terrified of being forgotten by the world and not making an impact. its almost exhausting to him, trying to do everything he can to stand out and leave his mark.
not only does he exhaust his mind, but his body is constantly tired as well. to avoid thinking of all hes done wrong, he abuses adrenaline and forces himself to always be moving and not think of the grief.
though, something always engraved in his mind is the image of his leg. on one of his classified ops, demon core, his right leg had been burned with chemicals. he saw his own bones, had to deal with the surgery, and the physical therapy. its hard for him to top that pain.