#cobvwebbed

lovwe vwe gotta talk.

acanthusgalanty Yeah..

lovwe yeah. so like. vwhats up.

acanthusgalanty That's a little lame...I don't even know what's down, or side to side anymore. I thought I did 8ut apparently it's all in my head.

lovwe vwhat are you thinking?

acanthusgalanty I...m not needed around here anymore. You guys have 8etter people to spend time with and easily hangout with and talk to. Letting my crew shove me 8ack onto tum8lr was a mistake 8ecause I just feel worse. I hardly feel like I know what's going on anymore. Nd that's my fault.

lovwe vwell. first of all im going to be blunt here.

lovwe i vwasnt social before 2ol got closer to other people because i thought i had all that i needed, but that vwasnt good for me. im not the kind of person to havwe three friends and call it a day. it vwas just you, me, 2ol, and bonnie. nobody liked bonnie for reasons, and demi nevwer showved up evwer. that vwasnt good for me. havwing such a little circle of friends. so i expanded.

i picked up nepi, and the first thing you said about him vwas that he vwas going to take your place just because of the vway he acted around me. and i didnt understand vwhy you said that because i barely talked to him evwer.

so i thought about it. and i came to an understanding. i didnt understand that either but i knewv vwhy at least.

and i said that i didnt vwant to make that happen again. so i didnt talk about nepi. or kan. or felide. but the issue vwas that they vwere my only topics. because i vwas doing fun things vwith them. and i didnt vwant you to feel bad from hearing about it. so i just didnt do it. not a smart idea. not a good idea. not talking vwas vworse than talking. so. yeah. my bad. im sorry for being an idiot. i dont knowv vwhy you feel replaced, still though. nobody put anybody else in your position. kans in a completely different place. if you vwant to hear about it. theres context.

acanthusgalanty I didn't care if nepi was your friend crona.... I felt threatened 8ecause he was acting like he was your 8est friend and not me. And even then it was just a slight threaten. I was a 8it more confident at that time.... And I don't exactly want to hear a8out kankri. I already know he's 2ols diamond. And yall 8oth call him your stars.

lovwe its not just for 2ol though im trying to say hes invwolvwed vwith both of us.

acanthusgalanty I figured. What's he to you then.

lovwe vwere dating.

acanthusgalanty Alright.

lovwe and i still. dont understand.

acanthusgalanty It's stupid, so it doesn't matter.

lovwe if i dont knowv vwhats happening i cant understand and try to help.

acanthusgalanty I didn't know you were all dating him. I just saw the post of you 8oth giving him My nickname. And then over night you all got matching icons.

lovwe in my defense. im three hundred svweeps old and my memory is not good from being in the bubbles for a hundred or so of those svweeps. and i didnt knowv.

acanthusgalanty Yeah. 2ol mentioned you 8oth forgot. apparently he thought he had 8een calling refering to me as a rose for whatever reason. which i dont see how that even fits into the whole sky thing that i thought we had going. 8ut its fine. kankri means more to 8oth of you. so he's your stars now.

lovwe dont start.

acanthusgalanty ...

lovwe really. being bitter ovwer it isnt going to get either of us anyvwhere? especially vwhen you say shit like that. you mean a lot to us. kankri does too. do you lovwe us like you lovwe demi. no, you dont. people lovwe people in different vways, but that doesnt devwalue the lovwe.

acanthusgalanty I wouldn't fucking know would i.

I grew up with Demitrus. He's completely different. he's all i knew, aside from my crew and there was a hard line of difference 8etween that. You and 2ol were my First ever friends in i dont know how many sweeps. And while sure, I put Demi first a8ove all else, i understood that with you and 2ol. that you were each others firsts. And I THOUGHT what we had was more than just what it apparently is. And I didn't expect you 8oth to forgot the nickname You 8oth gave to me. Had I known that you and 2ol were fucking dating him then I pro8a8ly wouldn't have 8een as upset. annoyed pro8a8ly sure

8ut i dont' fucking know for sure how i would have acted. All i knew, which is apparently wrong, at the that my two friends, my 8est friend and his mate who i thought i was close to. didn't want me around any more. You 8oth used to call me the stars. and we talked for AGES a8out getting matching icons and for whatever reason, we never did. 8ut then, To Me, out of the 8lue, here comes Kankri. and now He's your stars. and Now all three of You have matching icons. i didn't know what the hell was goign on. All i saw was what i thought was my position in your little triangle of freindship 8eing given to someone else. And whether that's actually that truth or not, my hurt feelings are still reall.

lovwe im not saying im a communication saint or anything. but at least you already knowv vwhy nothing about kan left my mouth.

acanthusgalanty this is getting no where.

lovwe no. vwere getting somevwhere. i told you vwhy i didnt talk about kan. vwhy didnt you talk to either of us if it vwas affecting you so much.

acanthusgalanty 8ecause I was scared? 8ecause i didn't know how? 8ecause i'm a fucking adult who doesn't know how to handle Friendships properly and its fucking humiliating. 8cause i already felt replaced, and how was i supposed to feel at all comforta8le with 8ringing that up to the people I felt had a8andoned me?

Especially after how you reacted when i said i felt a little threatened 8y nepi? You were so upset with me feeling threatened that you gave me the cold shoulder to the point where I just left 8ecuase i didn'tk now whtat to do.

lovwe i felt like you didnt trust me to be friend faithful.

like i could easily call nepi a bitch vwith no context and hed knowv i meant it out of lovwe. but i cant.

i felt like you pinned it on me for LETTING him act that vway. thats just his fucking personality. he does it to complete strangers. ivwe seen him propose marriage to a stranger because he thought there vwere benefits.

acanthusgalanty I thought i had apologized after you got upset and explained it to me. i do remem8er you telling me that you had only just started talking to him after i said he made me feel unsure. i didn't know you felt like i was accusing you of anything... 8esides i don't know him, i only ever 8ragged at him once a8out getting to see 2ol 8efore him and that was it.

8esides... at that time i feel like i had 8een more annoyed that he had made 2ol feel like he wasn't good enough.

lovwe and i didnt knowv that.

acanthusgalanty yea... all i can remem8er is that nepi made him feel like a 8ad s/o.

and thats why he wanted to come in and hold your hand ::::/

lovwe okay. i still dont remember it but okay.

i understand. i think the entire lesson from this is that vwe havwe bad communication issues.

acanthusgalanty i've always had 8ad communication issues...

lovwe yeah me too and nowv its combined and twvice as bad.

acanthusgalanty ...im sorry that i ended up making you feel like i didn't trust you 8ack with all that nepi noise. it wasn't my intentions.

lovwe sorry if i made you feel like you vwere replaceable by being garbage at personal problem solvwing. i didnt mean it.

acanthusgalanty we're 8oth pretty gra8ge at this huh..

lovwe vwell you knowv vwhat they say. idiots attract or something.

acanthusgalanty Oh mygod. that's 'opposites attract'.

lovwe same thing.

acanthusgalanty you think you could forgive me for 8eing a completely insecure wriggler a8out all this...

lovwe yeah. you think you can forgivwe me for being stupid about vwords?

acanthusgalanty yeah.

lovwe best friends?