#cloudedmind

That one week when i drew out a nightwing family

| clouded mind | ☁️🌫 #cloudedmind #rooftop #foggy #adulting #adultlife #pastelpink #vscocam #vsco (at Chips, Manchester)

There comes a point where all of the pain and anger and loneliness you hold in starts to change you. It changes you into something you never meant to be, someone you don’t recognize; but you don’t know how to let it go. #cloudedmind #toomuchgoingon #imissyoumom #thingswouldbesodifferent #lost #snapchat #selfie #dontevenknowanymore

Tonight, as you waved good bye, I asked myself why? I’ve known you for so long, how could I be so blind? Truth be told, I can’t get you out of my mind Knowing someone so kind, I wish you could be mine.

Me and B aren't on good terms either because he's obviously still going on with this blackmail and maybe I shouldn't care as much but I do. How could you not hate me but you'll post my private photos online for everyone to see all because I said something you didn't/dont like? He's so child minded. He feels like everything deserves a reaction and to be honest it doesn't. He's always finding some excuse to get out of spending time with his kids because Lord knows his money and work comes first; not like he spends the money on his children anyway. I do that and much more. I'm getting fed up with him and I really just wanna take my kids and leave. Why does he get a chance to see them if he doesn't even help with them. It makes me sad that his son walks around asking for him and I can't exactly say anything because idk myself. One minute he's all about them then the next it's like he doesn't even wanna be bothered. He makes false promises and he never calls to talk to them. He's missing everything in their lives. And since he's making so ordinary to miss things, keeping him out seems to be the right thing to do. On top of many other things, I know I wasn't gonna take this blackmailing of the pictures thing serious but I need to protect myself, my kids and my security. I have a job and is in the process of getting another. The fact that he's using this to silence me from him hearing the truth about himself angers the hell out of me. So it's obvious that I need to figure out what I'm gonna do and look into getting this information wrote down so that if he decides to post my pictures without my consent I have backup and can take immediate action to do any and everything nesseccary to make sure he pays for his vicious actions. Father of my kids or not, you will pay for this one.

#darkdays #cloudedmind #hiding #cantbearsed #hadenough #isittimetohibernateyet

How does one stop themselves?