#cloclworkpoodle

// HAVE YOU EVER

6 - Dated someone twice: Nope 7 - Been cheated on: Not to my knowledge. 8 - Kissed someone and regretted it: In a way, but I try not to linger on regretting things.  Things happen, then you move forward from there. 9 - Lost someone special: Yes 10 - Been depressed: Yes 11 - Been drunk: Meeeeee?  Never.

THREE FAVORITE COLOURS: Green, purple, annnnd....?  I never get this far.  I guess maroon.

// IN THE LAST YEAR, YOU HAVE 15 - Made a new friend: Yes! 16 - Fallen out of love: Nope 17 - Laughed until you cried: Only way to do it--ha! 18 - Met someone who changed you: Of course. 
19 - Found out who your true friends are: Hmmm...nothing too earth-shattering.  I err on the side of not trusting people. 20 - Found out someone was talking about you: Hahahaha yes, for whatever it’s worth. 
21 - Kissed anyone you follow/follows you: Hahaha actually I have kissed both of the people who follow me whom I know in real life.

// GENERAL 22 - How many people do you know in real life that you follow/follows you on tumblr: I think it’s down to 2 now.  Used to be like 5. 24 - Do you have any pets: Only in my dreams. 25 - Do you want to change your name: I actually used to change my name all the time, but I’ve come to terms with it.  It occurs to me that most of the people I’m close to now probably don’t even know that I went by a different name all throughout middle and most of high school. 26 - What did you do for your last birthday: Tried to lottery a show, failed, then had a delicious burger and fries with a friend. 
27 - What time did you wake up today: I finally willed myself out of bed at like noon. 28 - What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching Steven Universe with my roomie!  She left to catch a flight at 2:15, and asked me to make sure she was awake, so I figured I should just stay up instead of, for example, taking NyQuil and becoming a useless lump. 29 - Name something you CANNOT wait for: I’ve finally reached my two glorious days off, so that’s awesome!  I’m excited forrrrrrr my next paycheck, returning a favour by visiting a friend and seeing one of his shows, going on more exciting adventures with my roomie, annnnnnd this show I’m doing ending and moving onto a new one--HA! 30 - Last time you saw your mother: In May. 31 - What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: At the moment I’m feeling kind of down about my vision problems again, but I’d do well to remember that it’s an integral part of who I am.  I’m sure in particular that I wouldn’t be nearly as accepting and understanding a friend as I’ve learned to be if I didn’t have something about me that people have a hard time accepting and understanding, so in the end I shouldn’t wish to change it. 32 - What are you listening to right now: Nothing. 33 - Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I know a couple. 34 - What’s getting on your nerves right now: Nothing at the moment. 35 - Most visited website: tumblr and youtube, probably 36 - Blood type: Don’t actually know. 37 - Nickname: Some people call me by my last name, and my roommate calls me “Amby”, which seems to have spread to a few other people. 39 - Zodiac sign: Aries 40 - Pronouns: she/her 41 - Elementary: I used to count my elementary school years in friends, because I only ever had one at a time.  I learned to read before the majority of my classmates, so I spent a lot of time doing that.

I remember being baffled by the concept of liking boys and chasing them around.  I specifically remember the first day someone explained it to me.  It was this girl named Austin, and I was like, ‘hey, what are you guys doing, can I join?’ and she was like, ‘We like Brady now.  We’re chasing him.’  It was weird...I wonder, did any of them actually like this person?  Or had someone just arbitrarily decided that this was what the girls should be doing, and the rest had followed suit?  Because to me, it just felt like a thing someone told me to do, and I wanted to feel like part of something, so I half-heartedly tried to do the thing.

Teachers occasionally took it upon themselves to try to help with my vision problem, but in retrospect it feels haphazard and inconsistent at best.  Sometimes there was something new to try every day, sometimes weeks and months passed with no mention of anything, then they’d pick up the proverbial torch again.  Mostly I just walked up to the board if I couldn’t see something, wrote down whatever it was, then went back to my seat, no questions asked.

Once in 4th grade, there was a substitute teacher who straight-up made fun of my vision.  I literally just told her I needed to move my desk up by the board for the exercises the teacher put on the overhead projector (in my day we had to walk to school UPHILL in the SNOW BOTH WAYS and SHOES hadn’t been INVENTED yet), and this probably 60+ woman kept making completely unnecessary comments about how I needed glasses and what was wrong with me?


42 - High school: High school was actually pretty great for me.  I found some activities and people that genuinely appealed to me, and I liked the small freedom that choosing what my schedule looked like offered me.  I wouldn’t say I ever really focused much on my schoolwork...the quality of the teachers ranged from best ever to worst ever, and I sort of prioritized accordingly.  I stopped taking advanced classes in a couple of subjects, and the disparity in work was sort of laughable.  In my regular history class, the only thing we ever had to do was a worksheet with fill-in-the-blank answers taken directly from the book.

I was in the top 2% of my class with no discernible effort on my part, and I was even the only non-athlete named to this Top 10 Students thing in the yearbook.

43 - College: College had its highest highs and lowest lows for me, but I can’t imagine having done it any other way.  I emerged from school as ready to be a real person and to take on the world as I think I really could have been, and that’s certainly what’s most important to me, at least. 44 - Hair colour: I’m a natural platinum blonde, but I dye it red because it looks better on stage. 45 - Long or short: It’s currently the longest it’s been since I was a kid. 46 - Height: 5″2 47 - Do you have a crush on someone: I’ve got it bad, unfortunately  :-P 48 - What do you like about yourself: Most things. 49 - This question got lost so most people are putting a random fact so here’s one: When you start playing guitar, your fingers hurt like a bitch, and then they go kind of numb and tingly, and it is insanely fun to touch everything with your weird painful tingly numb fingertips. 50 - Tattoos: Not my bag. 
51 - Righty or lefty: Righty, but my mom is left-handed, so I do some random things the left-handed way. 52 - First surgery: The only “surgery” I’ve had was to get my wisdom teeth removed a couple of years ago. 53 - First piercing: None. 54 - First best friend: It’s funny, I think the people I thought were my best friends when I was a kid didn’t think of me as their best friends, so those don’t count.  I’d say my first real best friend was in middle school. 55 - First sport you enjoyed: I’ve never had much success with sports--no hand-eye coordination.  I like running, though, and I like doing the Insanity workouts. 56 - First vacation: The first one I remember was Disneyland when I was 4.

// RIGHT NOW
 59 - Eating: I just had my new favourite breakfast item--a slice of apple bread topped with hummus and avocado slices. 60 - Drinking: Coffee! 61 - I’m about to: Clean out my drafts! 62 - Listening to: Still nothing, but maybe I’ll put on Pandora and see where the winds take me! 63 - Waiting for: I am very contented to do nothing today! 64 - Want kids: Hahaha I was just yelling at my roommate about this last night.  She was showing me videos of the kids she babysits and I was like AAAAAAAAAAAAAGH IT TOOK ME TWENTY-FIVE YEARS BUT MY OVARIES ARE STARTING TO BETRAY ME I THINK KIDS ARE CUTE NOW AAAAAAAAAAAAGH 65 - Get married: YOU get married.  Don’t tell me what to DO. 66 - Career: Living the dream!

// WHICH IS BETTER
 67 - Lips or eyes: I’m more drawn to the look of a person’s eyes than their lips. 68 - Hugs or kisses: Hahaha definitely depends on the person. 69 - Shorter or taller: I prefer taller, but that’s not difficult to accomplish with me. 70 - Older or younger: Not something that matters very much to me. 71 - Romantic or spontaneous: I find spontaneity to be thrillingly romantic. 72 - Nice stomach or nice arms: Hahaha I’m very into either of those things. 73 - Sensitive or loud: If someone is too loud too often, I tend to find it overwhelming...but the same goes for too sensitive, I guess. 74 - Hook-up or relationship: Obviously depends on the person/situation. 75 - Trouble maker or hesitate: I am a hesitant and conflict-avoidant person with a huge troublemaker streak, so it sort of balances out in the end--ha!

// HAVE YOU EVER 76 - Kissed a stranger: Oh yes. 77 - Drank hard liquor: Who, meeeee? 78 - Lost glasses/contacts: Don’t wear them.  When I was made to wear glasses, I misplaced them all the time, but never permanently. 79 - Sex on first date: Hahahaha I always joke that apparently it doesn’t even take me one date, but to clarify, I don’t generally believe in not doing something you want to do for some societal-construct-related reason. 80 - Broke someone’s heart: I think it’s safe to say yes. 81 - Had your own heart broken: A few times. 82 - Been arrested: Nope. 83 - Turned someone down: Yup. 84 - Cried when someone died: Yup. 
85 - Fallen for a friend: Hahaha oh yes.