June 2019. Progress

What a month it's been so far, and we're only 17 days in. I haven't had time to discuss this yet, but on June 1st I finally came out to my mother and my brother, after years of being too afraid to do it. I was petrified but I had wonderful people to support me (full disclosure: it went well, they both knew already, I cried a lot and my brother hugged me a lot, my mother was fineee).

To Claire, Charlyn, Mabel, thank you for calming me down and giving me the love and support I needed. I am so happy I can call you my friends.

To Lora, thank you for your bravery and your strength, I was planning on coming out "soon", but it's you coming out to your grandmother that finally made me go "okay this is it, I have to do it now". You are a force of nature, you wonderful goat lady.

To the wlw group chat , thank you for always being so kind and loving and generally insane, i cherish our chat so much.

I have so much love for these wonderful people I met. You guys make me a better person, you help me go forward in life, you make me feel happier. Until the creation of the group chat, I'd never truly realised how important it would be to have more wlws in my life, but it makes such a huge difference. I'm grateful for you, your weirdness, your support and your love. Stay golden, be gay, don't do crime.

I love you guys ❤️

I've been thinking about this a lot these past few weeks. I'm slowly starting to look for a new job, and I can't help it, my thoughts go back to photography. I would love to be a photographer, it would definitely be my dream job. Taking portraits of people makes me so happy, it would never even feel like a job.

But I don't know if I'm good enough to stand out as a photographer, and more importantly I don't know anything about the photography business.

Claire,

Here are a few words to tell you all the things I like about you because you are my softest friend and I am a woman of many emotions. 

I like that you are an excitable puppy and one of the funniest people I know. I like that you’re smart and curious, and that you read a lot on wlw culture, I’m always impressed by your knowledge.

I like that you are soft and loving even when life drags you down. You are so brave, bean. You have faced more obstacles than people should, yet here you are. I know it’s not easy every day and you are tired, but I have faith in your ability to feel like yourself again one day and I will support you every step of the way.

I like that you love your girlfriend and that she loves you just as much, I can only hope to have a relationship that grows as well as yours is growing. And I like that I can call your girlfriend my friend, too.

I like that you created the wlw group chat because it gives me constant joy and weirdness. And it brought something unexpected to my life, something new and wonderful, which is probably changing my life for the better.

The only thing getting me through this hell month is the fact that my girlfriend is coming to Paris in 4 days for a whole week and I'm meeting two friends whomst I cherish very much this weekend.