#christining

Is he taking a picture? Is he drunkenly swigging from a chalice? Removing his gas mask? Cleansing his face with a cordless power buffer? Checking the manufactures label on the bottom of a large chess piece? Demonstrating a Fleshlight? Or . . .?

So yesterday was fun… Felt like I was going to sacrificed at church which I normally don’t go to because I’m not religious (though I was kind of brought up to be)… And well I was kinda scared anyway cause some very religious people still have something against queer people, thou it might have been more that the family are all there, and I was scared how they’d react if they found out, I mean one the cousins is also queer, but that side of the family has been horrible to some of us especially grandad so they don’t paticularly like ‘em (but it makes me think does them being queer have anything to do with it… Like only ma knows and she took it hard although she seems to be accepting it bit by bit…hopefully it will be fully accepted in the future)

But hey that was fun, the first part was like one of those horror films/games where you get murdered in by a super creepy priest guy that mutters strange incantations and it’s dark and lit by candle light and some creepy music (curtsey of the quior??? Is that how you spell it, idk) And people loomed in the shadows, with only faces lit by candle light, so cult like, even the family scared me like that… Although I may have been watching too many horror games/movies… Bonus ma kept talking about zombies, vampires because of all the holy water and she said garlic? I said they needed to be invited in, but why would they when their weaknesses are right there… Also about weeping angels (not nice I nearly freaked out and decided I’m going to stare at jesus instead of these angels that may try to murder me)

But the thing I thought most about was the fact that one lines of the prayer board wasn’t in line with rest and my twitchy ass wanted to get up and move it… And respect to anyone who can sit 2 or more hours and have their ocd screaming at them, but ignore it cause they are concentrating cause that is super hard, I don’t think I could do that again… Also to anyone who just freaks out when people touch them cause there was a lot of hand shaking that made me feel really uncomfortable and cornered in the space I was in.