#christ!!!!!!

I know that I fucked up when i told you I’m afraid of heights it made you wanna test my courage you made me climb a cliff at night you wanted me to jump and I declined you called me a coward I replied I don’t wanna live forever but I don’t wanna die tonight when the black water ate you up like a sugar cube in a tea cup I got the point you were making when I held my breath ‘til you came up there’s been a run of fires downtown on half-built construction sites I know you never liked a townhouse I’ve seen you climb a crane at night if they ever catch you at it I know you’d want me to be proud that that you took a rich man’s dream and took it with you on your way down cause one man’s dream is another man’s death I remember when you told me that didn’t know what to say so I just laughed but now I know it’s not funny I never rode a motorcycle I’ve never smoked a cigarette I wanna live a vibrant life but I wanna die a boring death I know I was a disappointment I know you wanted me to take a risk not everybody gets a chance to live a life that isn’t dangerous you called me a crybaby but you’re the one who got teary tellin me what you believe how we’re stuck in entropy how it hurts to hope oh it hurts to hope for more oh it hurts to hope the future will be better than before

i should start writing insane theory posts about the djmm in the style of popular dca takes. like if any of the pizzaplex cast is ACTUALLY severely neglected and disliked by corporate, it is definitely the fucking gigantic mute spider thing that commands only one segment of the arcade and who'd create endless logistical nightmares when in need of things like routine maintenance

head hurts back hurts tummy fuckered throat hurts brain fogged. throw me down a flight of stairs and send me home