#chrindiaa

India

**Wednesday**

“I hope we don’t be in here all day. We have a meeting with the realtor in like 2 hours.” Chris said as we sat in the waiting room of the clinic. He was always like this when it came to waiting. He never likes to just sit and wait.

“My appointment is scheduled for 4:00 and it’s only 3:48. Chill out.” I said annoyed at his impatience. We arrived 3 minutes ago and he was already getting on my nerves. I was just as nervous as he was so by him being fidgety and annoying was not helping at all.

“Ms. Brown?” The nurse called as she stepped through the door leading to the doctor’s working areas. Chris and I stood as she smiled at us. I smiled back as she motion us toward her. She led us to a room where I was instructed to sit on the bed and Chris in the chair.

“It’s freezing in here.” I said rubbing my hands over my arms. I was only wearing a sundress with no bra since I didn’t need one.

“You should be cold. You’re nearly naked in here. I don’t see how you can wear a sundress in the middle of November.” Chris said as he walked over to me and wrapped his jacket around me. A male doctor walked in and smiled brightly as us.

“Hello, I’m Dr. Jonathan Bryant.” He said walking over to me shaking my hand and then Chris’. He was about 6'3 , caramel colored skin , wonderfully bright smile and warm eyes to match. He was a looker if I do say so myself.

“I’m India and of course you should know my boyfriend and the father Chris Brown.” I said introducing us. He smiled and walked over to a machine and pressed a few buttons.

“Of course I know him. My daughter loves you man. She never shuts up about you.” He chuckled while Chris and I did the same. Chris loved hearing about his fans.

“How old is she?” Chris asked.

“14 going on 40. She’ll faint when I tell her you were here.” He said walking over to me and strapping a brace around my arm. He pressed a button and the brace slowly began to squeeze my arm until I could barely feel it.

“That’s cute. I give her and autographed photo later.” He said back.

“Thanks man.” Dr. Bryant said. Seconds later a female nurse walked in and smiled as she greeted us as well.

“Hi , I’m Nurse Gabrielle Coleman.” She said with a warm smile shaking our hands.

“Sorry I’m late doctor. A little boy was kicking and screaming in room 1264. He wouldn’t sit still so that Dr. Morris could give him his vaccination.”  She explained to the doctor.

“It quite alright nurse. The papers are over there and I’ll let you get started.” He said as he exited the room, not before telling us he’d be back shortly.

“So how far are you love?” She asked me while putting gloves over her hands.

“I actually don’t know yet.” I said.

“I’m going to need you to urinate in this cup and I will take it down to the lab to determine how far along you are.” She said handing me a plastic bag that held a plastic cup and then she handed me some wipes.

“Okay.” I said getting up to go to the bathroom.

Once I got back, Chris and the nurse were having a small conversation. I handed the plastic cup to her and she gave it to another nurse in the hall and told her to bring it back as soon as the results came in.

“Have you been showing any signs?” She asked as she motioned for me to lay back on the bed.

“I throw up every now and then, I’m always tired, I eat a lot,my body feels sluggish sometimes and I also have hot flashes. That would be the cause of the dress.” I said as she nodded and wrote down everything I said.

“And how long has this been going on?” She asked next.

“For about a week or so.” I replied.

“Have you had sexual intercourse after you had discovered your symptoms?” She asked.

“Yes.” I replied again.

“When did the sexual intercourse take place?” She asked looking up from the clipboard.

“Two days ago.” I said. She wrote more on her paper and asked more questions.

“Have you experienced bleeding since the sexual intercourse?” She asked next. I paused.

“Only a little.” I said. I saw Chris clench his jaw from the corner of my eye.

“When did you experience the bleeding?” She asked.

“Yesterday , while I was using the bathroom I saw a little blood.” I replied.

“Have you experienced any pain since then?” She asked. She lifted up my dress as a knock on the door became present. Good thing I was wearing shorts.

A female nurse smiled at us as she handed the other nurse a piece of paper. The nurse looked over it and sat it on a nearby table.

“No.” I replied.

“Okay. This is gonna be a little cold.” She said as she set the clipboard down and turned on the monitor behind her. She then applied some jelly-like substance to my stomach that made me shiver a little. She took a scanner thing and told Chris and I to watch the monitor. We looked closely , anxiously awaiting the image of our baby to show up.

“And there it is.” The nurse said as she pointed to a small ball in the middle of the screen. I saw tiny feet and and a pretty big head and I could almost make out the hands. It was the most beautiful ball I had ever seen. It was my baby.

“It’s beautiful.” Chris whispered to e as he kissed my temple. The nurse smiled at us then printed 2 copies of the ultrasound for us.

“It says here from the urine sample we took that you’re 4 almost 5 months pregnant. The sex of your baby won’t be able to be determined until you are at least 5 months so we should be able to tell you when you come back in about 2 weeks.” She said as she wiped the jelly off of my stomach and handed us the ultrasounds.

“Your next appointment is set for November 21st at 3:00.” The nurse said as she walked us to the front lobby.

“Thank you.” I said as she smiled back at us.

****Later On That Day****

 “The house is simple beautiful. It has 4 bathrooms , 2 half-bathrooms , 6 bedrooms including the master bedroom. The kitchen has marble counter tops and a beautiful island centered in the middle with bar stools. It also contains double ovens for more cooking. The appliances are all made of stainless steel and the laundry room a state of the art washer and dryer set. The bathrooms all contain marble floors as well. The staircase and the floors of the bedrooms , family room , dining room , laundry room , and the basement are all made of smooth cherry wood.”The sales lady said to us after we viewed the house for the 10th time. Out of all the houses we’ve looked at today, this one was indeed the best. I was really just tired of looking at houses and talking to people. I wanted to go home and sleep.

“So what do you think babe?” Chris asked as if it were really up to me. He was gonna buy what he thought was best anyways.

“I love it.” I said smiling at him.

“We’ll take it.” He told the lady whom name I have forgotten.

“Great!” She exclaimed as she and Chris walked over to the counter top to get the paperwork done. Once they were finished , they both walked over to me smiling.

“Here are your keys and enjoy your new home!” She smiled as she shook both of our hands and we all made our way out of the house.

“I really like this house babe. Thank you.” I said once we got into the car.

“I like it too. But what are you thanking me for?” He asked before he started the engine.

“For being the most perfect man on the planet.” I said as I interlocked our hands together. He leaned down to kiss me and smiled once he pulled back.

“You’re the main reason why I am the man I am. You make me a better person everyday and for that , I’ll do anything for you. I love you baby.” He said looking me in my eyes.

“I love you more Chris.” I said as I kissed him deeply. We smiled at each other before he started the car and we headed home.

Things were finally going good for us.  I wish this moment would never end.

 ********************

 Chris and I have been laying in bed every since we got home from looking at the houses. We were watching a recording of the basketball game he missed. Well , he was watching it. I was pretty much just laying under him , thinking. Thinking about how drastically our lives will change when our baby arrives. Which means we have to talk. We have to really decide on how we are gonna do this because parenting doesn’t come with a manual. We haven’t even clarified if we were even together or not.

“Chris , can we talk?” I asked as I sat up next to him. He was leaning against the headboard playing a game on his phone.

“Yea babe , wassup?” He asked not looking at me. I needed his full on attention because this is a very important discussion. I took his  phone from his hands and he gave me a shocked expression but I ignored it,

“I need your undivided attention. We need to talk about how we are going to do this.” I said once I put his phone on the nightstand.

“Do what?” He asked sitting up some more.

“Co-parenting. We need to figure out a way we can both spend time with the baby so -” He cut me off.

“What do you mean ‘co-parenting’? I thought we were together.” He said confused.

“Chris I never said we were together. I am willing to work with you for our child’s sake but as far as our relationship , I’m still thinking about it.” I said folding my arms.

“Are you serious? So what are we doing?” He asked me next.

“What are you talking about? We are trying to raise a child.”  I said back.

“We can’t do that and be together?” He asked

"Are you and Ro's mom together? No but you guys are raising a child together. So why are you fussing with me? I’m not saying that we can’t it’s just that I’m not prepared for another heartbreak. You can still be in our child’s life we just won’t be together.” I semi-yelled.

“This is NOT about Royalty and Treasure. This is about US. Why can’t we? I thought I made it clear that I was trying. I apologized , I even bought a brand new house for us and this is how you act? It’s just plain ungratefulness.” He said back harshly. I looked at the ceiling to prevent the angry tears from streaming down my face. I was tired of crying over stupid shit with him.

“I never asked you to buy a new house! I never ask you for a mothafuckin thing! I don’t ever ask you for shit! All I want you to do is be in your child’s life but you’re really close to ruining that experience!” I yelled at him. I was infuriated. How could he ever say that I wanted anything but time and attention from him?

Deciding that I couldn’t stay here any longer or we would end up seriously hurting one another , I hopped off of the bed and slipped on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. He was too busy looking at me angrily to ask any more questions. Just as I slipped on my sandals , he came and stood directly in front of me. I looked up at him and his nostrils were flared and he was breathing hard. But I didn’t care. What he said to me was pure disrespect and I was not gonna sit here while he down talked me.

“Don’t you dare take my fucking child from me India.” He gritted through a clenched jaw.

“I never said I was gonna do that. But I won’t do is listen to you disrespect me. All I'm asking why our baby can't be as important to you as Royalty is? You live and breathe Royalty. You can do right by her and her mother but can't do the same for me and mines. Fuck up with that?” I said with back with just as much force.

“All I’m asking you is why we can’t be together? What am I not doing to make you happy?” He asked stressfully as he moved back a few steps. I stood and watched him as he glared at me waiting for an answer.

“This is not about us Chris. This is about our child and the life we have awaiting us. I didn’t say that I wasn’t happy. All I’m saying is that we can’t focus on us right now. If we are going to bring a baby into this world , we need to have things figured out, at least for our sanity. Can’t you just be happy with the way we are?” I breathed stressfully. It was stressful to me to be stressful to him. I didn’t want us to be fighting like this. We were supposed to be talking about our baby and making plans and stuff. Like choosing names and buying a crib and other baby necessities. Not this.

“I will never be happy without you. I can’t function without you , it’s like something I can’t control and it frustrates me that I can’t have the way I want. You are all I think about and all I ever need. I’m really trying so hard to be a good father and the main person in your life. I know I’m not perfect but I’m willing to give my life up for you. I know I’ve messed up in the past but damn , haven’t you? I’ve never held anything against you so why are you pointing me out to be the bad guy?” He vented. I listened to every word he said and seriously thought about us. I knew he was right , thought I didn’t want him to be.

“Look Chris. You’ve gotta know that I love you with every bone in my body and wouldn’t trade you for the world but you have seriously hurt me. It has been taking me so long to bounce back from this hurt that nests in my heart like a disease. I’ve given you chance after chance and time and time again you keep fucking me over and I’m tired of it. I have to start doing what’s best for me and my baby. I can’t put myself or my child through this situation. I’m sorry Chris , but I think it’s best if we just stayed apart.” I said as tears surfaced my eyes. I didn’t want to hurt him but I also didn’t want to put myself in another situation where I would end up being hurt again.

“So that’s it? No more you and me?” He asked as his voice cracked. It killed me to hear him like that.

“At least not right now.” I said , my voice trembling. I was trying so hard not to cry but I couldn’t help it. My tears defeated me and spilled over my eyelids and down my face.

“I get that I hurt you and no amount of sorries could ever replace the hurt I’ve put in you. But baby , I promise I’m gonna be better I just need to show you that I can be a good man. Just please give me one more chance.” He pleaded as he got on his knees and looked up at me.

“I’m sorry Chris. I really am. But I can’t right now. Plus you have other responsibilities to worry about. Ro needs her father in her life.” I said wiping the never-ending tears from my face. My heart hurt to see the look on his face when I told him that. I knew it hurt him. He put his head in his hands and kneeled on the floor. I heard him sniffle and then he looked up at me.

“Baby Please. Don’t leave me.” He pleaded , tears streaming down his face. I slowly backed away from him , towards the door.

“I’m sorry Chris.” I said as I walked out of the room and down the stairs. I walked out of the front door and out to my car. I sat in my car and cried helplessly. I cried my heart until I couldn’t breathe.

I was pulled up pretty close to the door and I could hear things smashing and him yelling and screaming obscenities. Minutes later , I saw a chair come flying out of the bedroom window. I screamed and quickly started my car and sped off into the night. I didn’t know where I was going , but I couldn’t stay there. I knew just who to turn to for the right advice.

  Heather

I hopped up quickly once I heard someone banging non-stop on it. I was eating some chocolate cake and since Trell wasn’t here , I was left to get around on my own. Once I opened the door , I was face to face with a broken down India. Her hair was everywhere , her face was red , her eyes were puffy and she just looked exhausted. I guided her into the house and closed the door as she sat on the sofa. I grabbed the box of tissues from the coffee table and handed her some. She wiped her nose and eyes and tried to breathe. Her breathing was staggered and she couldn’t catch it. Fearing she would hyperventilate , I rushed to the kitchen to get her a bottle of water. Once she drank some of it , she began to breath better. I rubbed her back smoothly as she wiped her eyes again.

“What’s wrong baby?” I asked gently. She looked at me and started bawling tears again. She rested her head on my chest and cried into my shirt. I rubbed her back and kept telling her it was gonna be okay.

“No it isn’t.” She whined as she finally sat up.

“It’s that bad?” I asked. She nodded and wiped her face with another tissue.

“What happened?” I asked again once she had somewhat calmed down.

She tells me. Everything.

“Am I wrong for trying to do what’s best for my child? I want to be with Chris as well but I worry that were gonna end up fighting all the time and I don’t want my child to grow up in that kind of environment. I know he has another kid and I love Royalty , I do , but I don't want to end up like Chris and his baby momma. Am I the bad guy?” She asked. She was really hurt by the situation. I knew that she and Chris belonged together , just not now.

"Who is his baby momma , by the way?" I asked.

"All I know is her name is Treasure. He keeps telling me we'll meet when the time is right. He doesn't want us to fightor something" She huffed.

"But why would you guys fight?" I asked confusingly.

I don't even know Heather." She said wiping her eyes.

“I could never blame you for doing right by your child , that’s what you are supposed to do as a mother. But I do think you should at least give him another chance to do right. Maybe he’ll actually commit to fatherhood.” I explained to her.

“But I don’t won’t him to end up hurting me ,more so hurting my child. I don’t wanna play the fool anymore , letting him get away with everything he knows isn’t right. I won’t standby and be the stupid ass who lets him treat her the way he wants. I don’t deserve that.” She said back. I nodded.

“I understand , but is it really worth not seeing your child happy? Don’t you think they’ll ever question why mommy and daddy aren’t together? You have to put your hurt and your broken heart aside for the sake of your child’s happiness.” I said.

“But does that mean I have to deal with being hurt all the time?” She asked back.

“Unfortunately , yes you do. If you and Chris being together makes your child happy , then that’s what has to be. I highly doubt that it’ll kill you to be with him , I mean , you guys are having a baby. Which means no more bullshit. This baby needs happy , loving and nurturing parents to come home to. You’ve gotta stick it out the best way possible.” I told her. She nodded in understandment.

“I understand where you’re coming from. If being with Chris will make my child happy , then so be it. I want to be with Chris , I just wanted to wait until I felt the time was right for us.

"And there wouldn’t be anything wrong with that if you only had you to think about.” I said to her.

“Thanks Heather , really. I needed this talk. I can’t go back there tonight though. Is it cool if I stay here tonight?” She asked.

“You don’t even have to ask. BUt what happened to your place?” I asked

“I sold it when I moved back in with Chris. We just bought a house yesterday though. Chris said he wanted to start fresh and be ready for our baby.” She said smiling a little. She had a little bump , but it was barely noticeable.

“See , he’s already improving. I can tell you guys are gonna be just fine. I can’t believe you’re pregnant though.” I said smiling back at her.

“I know! I can say that I’m so estatic to be a mom.” She beamed. I was happy for her. I knew how if felt when I found out I was pregnant.

“I know the feeling.” I said back.

“When are you having?” She asked

“We decided to keep it unknown. More mystery.” I said rubbing my belly. I'm already 8 months

“When are you due?” She asked next

“Next month.” I beamed

“Awwww , how sweet.” She said smiling.

“I know , Trell is trying to name our baby Valentino or Valerie for a girl.” I said laughing.

“Eww , those names aren't very flattering.” She said laughing.

“It’s good to hear you laugh again. It’s gonna be alright.” I said holding her hand. She smiled and nodded.

“It’s good to laugh , and I hope you’re right.” She said back. I reached over and hugged her tightly wile she did the same. India was like a little sister to me and I’d do just about anything for her.

“What time is it?” I asked once we pulled back.

“6:09 pm.” She said looking her phone.

“Trell isn’t coming back til late tonight so let’s have a Girls Night.” I suggested.

“That’s cool but I need to swing by Chris’ place to get more clothes cause I know I look raggedy as hell right now.” She said examining herself.

“That’s cool , by the time you get back , everyone will be here.” I said getting up to walk her to the door. We hugged for a few minutes and she pulled away.

“Be careful , If he’s there, come right back don’t even get anything. I'l figure something out.” I said hesitently.

“Chris will never lay  hand on me and I have no doubt in my mind.” She said confidently.

“I know , but you never know his head space right now.” I said to her , she nodded and left. I went back to the couch and pulled out my phone to text the girls about linking up.

Crystal , Sevyn , and Jaslene texted back saying that they’ll be here in about half an hour. I texted Trell and told him to stay the night at Tyga’s cause I was having my girls over and he said okay. Asia said she wasn’t gonna make it cause she had to work tonight. Shaunie , Porchia , Amberlynn and Roselynn said they’ll be here as well. I even called and ordered pizza , wings , and chinese food because I know how cravings are.

This night was well needed.

Chris

I sat at the Rooftop Bar , and gulped my 3rd  bottle of Hennessy. I can’t believe she just gave up on me. On us. I know in the past I’ve done some shitty things to her but I love her, and believe it of not , I’m trying to change. I want to change for the benefit of my family. I was willing to do anything to have India back into my life. She was my other half , my best friend , my lover , my everything. All I want is her.

“Chris?” I heard someone say. I was way too drunk to recognize the voice. They must have known me really well though , because fans usually just say my first and last name. I turned around and I saw a female.

“Kayla?” I asked once my vision came to.

“Wassup? I haven’t seem you in like … ages.” She said smiling once she hugged me.

“I know it’s been a lil minute.” I said once she sat down on a bar stool next to me.

“Why are you all over here alone? Where’s India?” She asked and I almost broke down. She saw the pain in my face and immediately regretted what she had said.

“I’m sorry. Did you guys break up?” She questioned. I nodded and looked down at my bottle. I could barely see it but still.

“Chris you can’t be out here drinking your life away/ I know you’re hurt but getting sloppy drunk isn’t gonna help your situation.” She said taking the bottle from my hands.

“I understand that but it’s just about the only way I can cope with the pain. She didn’t have to leave my Kay. Especially given our circumstances.” I said facing her.

“What circumstances?” She asked.

“She’s pregnant. almost 5 months.” I said smiling.

“Another kid , how cute. Congratulations , Chris.” She said beaming.

“Thanks. I just want her to understand that I love her and I would do anything for her. I know I’ve fucked up in the past but I’m willing to change for her and my child. I don’t wanna go another day without waking up to her beautiful face. I love her so much.” I said , my speech slurred. I reached over and grabbed Kayla’s hand. I caressed the back of it and she just looked at what I was doing.

“Chris I-”

“Come to my place with me.” I blurted out.

“Um , are you sure that’s a good idea? I don’t wanna br-”

“She’s not there. She left earlier and I really don’t wanna sleep alone. Please Kay?” I asked

“Okay , just tonight though. I gotta go by my place first and I’ll meet you there.” She said getting up from the stool.

I nodded and hugged her. Some slow , R&B song came on and I began to sway our bodies from side to side. I placed my head into her neck and breathed softly. She had on a short black dress and a leather jacket , but I could tell I mad her feel some type of way by me being so close to her. She lifted her head to look at me and I just looked back. As long as I’ve been friends with her , I never noticed how attractive she is.

“Chris … what are you doing?” She asked , her voice just above a whisper.

“Dancing.” I said simply.

“I’ll meet you at your house in about 30 minutes.” She said moving away from me and exiting the club.

I sat back down on the bar stool and finished my drink. After about 10 minutes I got up , stretched and made my way to the parking lot. On my way out , dozens of cameras flashed in my face as a million questions were thrown at me.

“Chris are you planning to get back with Karrueche?” “Are you and Kayla Phillips dating?” “Is her child also your child?”

These damn paps is crazy. I started my car and and sped off almost hitting one of them. I drove , fairly intoxicated and hungry as hell. I stopped by Burger King and got Kayla and I something to eat. The cashier at the window blushed when she saw me and damn near spilled my drink. I chuckled at her face when I asked for her number. She wrote it down along with her name. I wasn’t planning on calling her , I just wanted to fuck with her for my entertainment. I drove off and headed to the house.

When I got there , Kayla’s car was already there and she was sitting in her car waiting for me. I went up to her and knocked on her window , making her jump a little. I stepped back and watched her grab her bag from the back seat and walk up to the front door. Following her , I unlocked the door and saw that my house that had once been torn apart by my rage , had been cleaned spotless. I blinked to make sure what I was seeing was real. Kayla went over to the couch and sat down. I placed the bag of food in her lap and took her night bag up to my room. Once I stepped in my room , I heard the shower running.

Approaching the door , I heard singing. India sang an Aaliyah song , almost too low to hear. I gently twisted the knob and it opened. Steam hitting me in the face , I slowly entered the bathroom and saw her figure standing under the shower head. I didn’t want to scare her so I decided to wait until she came out. Moments and terrible vocal ranges later , she shower turned off and she grabbed her towel from the shower rack. She wrapped it around herself and emerged from the shower only to see me leaning on the counter in front of the mirror. She froze and just looked at me as I looked back. I began to walk towards her and she moved in the opposite direction. The look on her face screamed fear and I didn’t know why. I’ve never hit or hurt her physically so I didn’t know why she would be afraid of me.

“India , I’m not gonna hurt you.” I said moving slower that I initially was.

“How do I know that?” She asked cautiously.

“Have I ever physically hurt you?” I asked becoming angry. She shook her head and stopped moving because she was in a corner. She looked at me as if she wanted to run away.

“I was just coming to get some stuff , and I was gonna leave.” She said.

“You don’t have to leave if you don’t want to. But I’m not making you stay.” I said back to her. I moved away from her and after a few seconds she quickly walked into the closet and shut the door.

I sat on the bed and sighed , rubbing my hand over my face. I can’t believe she thought I would harm her or my child. I would never make the mistake again for hitting a female. Brushing the thoughts away I waited for her to leave the closet. Once I felt like I couldn’t wait anymore, I went downstairs to check on Kayla. She was laying on the sofa completely asleep. Before India could see her here, I lifted her body and brought her upstairs to the guest room.

I went back to my room and saw India in the closet , with the door open , sitting at her vanity. I sat in the chair a couple feet away from it and admired her. She was always beautiful but her glow made her even more gorgeous than ever. I didn’t say anything , and neither did she , she just kept looking at me , only staring for a few seconds then she would look away. I never looked away , I just wanted to take mental pictures of her before she left.

“Chris. Can I ask you something?” She asked looking down at her hands that were in her lap.

“Anything.” I said softly.

“Are you mad at me?” She asked.

“No. I can’t be mad at you for how you feel. I just want you to know that I respect your decision even if it means hurting me , I understand that this isn’t about us , it’s about our child. I’m willing to do whatever you want until you’re satisfied. I am only mad at myself for treating you the way I have.” I said sitting up. She nodded and finally looked at me. He face looked as if she wanted to tell me something but didn’t know how I would react to it.

“You can tell me baby.” I said grabbing her hands and looking into her eyes.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it when I said I didn’t want to be with you , I just didn’t want you to hurt me anymore. I wanted you to feel how I did when you hurt me. I’ve always wanted you Chris, you’re all I’ve ever wanted. I can’t imagine raising a child without you with me. I’m sorry I made you wreck your house and I’m sorry I made you hurt like that I just wanted you to feel what I did.” She cried as she spilled every emotion she had bottled up inside of her. I hugged her as she cried , fearing that I was gonna lose her again.

“We both have flaws , but there isn’t anything we can’t get through together.” I said once her tears slowed down. She nodded and kissed me long and passionately. I picked her up and carried her over to the dresser and sat her on it. She unbuttoned my shirt and started to kiss on my neck.

“Baby, didn’t you say we should be apart?” I asked making her stop abruptly. She looked at me with an almost annoyed expression and just nodded. I knew I had pissed her off cause I wouldn’t fuck her.

“I’ll be at Heather’s.” She said hopping off of the dresser and walking back to the closet. I chuckled at how mad she was but didn’t want me to know.

“Okay. See you Wednesday babe.” I said once she came out fully clothed and had a bag of stuff with her.

“Yea , okay.” She said as she pushed pass me and walked down the stairs. 

I followed her and walked her to her car. Once she was seated and ready to pull off , I leaned my head into the car and gave her a long , lingering kiss before she drove off.

“Be safe. I love you.” I said standing to my full height , peering at her through her window.

“I love you too.” She said. I stepped back a little as she drove off. Minutes later , my phone went off in my pocket and I pulled it out to see a text.

 Baby Momma:

Karma’s a bitch … remember that Maurice.

I laughed loudly in my driveway at how bitter she was. I walked back into the house and sat back down to watch a movie. 

  India

The next morning , I woke up to my phone ringing non-stop. I ignored it the first few times but the the 5th time it rang I snatched it off of the nightstand and answered it.

“Hello?” I answered angrily.

“Afternoon sunshine.” Chris said as I groaned. He was always playing with someone’s sleep.

“What is it that you need Christopher I’m sleeping.” I said laying back down.

“I need a lot of things , but why are you still asleep?” He asked.

“Because I’m muhfuckin tired.” I said like Young Thug’s daughter. He chuckled at me but I was deadass.

“You do know it’s already going on 2 o’clock right?” He asked

“Yea , so?” I said closing my eyes preparing to sleep on his ass.

“The appointment is at 3 o’ clock baby.” He said knowingly. I shot back up and looked and the digital alarm clock that read “1:48 PM , Wed Nov.13 , 2016″

“Chris my appointment is Nov. 21 , not today.” I said as the fear of being late vanished from my mind.

“Oh , I thought it was today. Sorry.” He said nonchalantly.

“You knew that , what did you really want Chris?” I asked laying back down.

“I wanna take you out today.” He said.

“Okay.” I said sitting up.

“I know this new place and I think you’ll love it. Plus we gotta meet with the moving guys and shop for some furniture.” He said sounding as if he was moving.

“Sure , gimme like an hour.” I said getting out of the bed and walking over to the guest bathroom that was in my room.

“Okay, see you soon then.” He said.

“Mhm.” I hummed into the phone. 

“Royalty ,don’t touch that!” I heard him semi-yell followed by her laughter. Chris is an amazing father and I regret even thinking that he wouldn’t be to our baby. I guess I was just to busy seeing the bad side of him that I forgot what the good looked like.

 I placed the phone on the sink and walked over to the shower and turned it on.

Before I could hang up, he said something.

“Oh and remember , no matter what happens I’ll always love you and I’m so sorry for hurting you.” He said genuinely. 

“I love you too Chris.” I said then he hung up.

 *******

 Looking at my baby bump through my summer dress, I rubbed it. I couldn’t wait to find out what I was having. I was gonna be happy with whatever God blesses me with , especially given my circumstances. Being raped so many times almost guarantees no children. Being in this moment , is the best moment of my life.

“Ooooo , look at you. I told you that dress would be cute on you.” Heather said as she came in and stood behind me along with Crystal and Sevyn. 

“Your glow is amazing. And those sandals are bomb.” Crystal said smiling.

“You should dye your hair.” Sevyn said playing with my curls.

“I had been thinking about it. I want to dye it red.” I said doing the same.

“Red would be sexy on you. It’ll bring so much more fierceness to your demeanor.” Sev said as we all laughed.

“Where you bout to go , anyways?” Crys asked as we all gathered downstairs.

“Chris wanted me to meet him at the house. He wanted to talk about something.” I said nervously. I had a bad feeling about this.

“Talk about what?” Heather asked drinking some orange juice.

“I don’t know , but from the sound of his voice , it isn’t good at all.” I said looking at my hands.

“It’ll be okay , everything’s fine.” Crystal said hugging me and we were all hugging soon after. I got up and we all walked to my car. They helped me in and I was soon off to Chris’ house.

 When I pulled in the driveway , Mike’s car was here , along with Mijo’s and another car I hadn’t recognized. I parked and made my way into the house. I didn’t knock , I just walked in. I saw Mijo , Mike , and Desirae on the couch. I waved to everyone and Mike looked at me with pleading eyes. I was going to ask him what was wrong but Chris cut me off by kissing me.

“Hey babe, I missed you.” He said pulling me into him.

“Hey Ro.” I smiled and she came over and hugged my leg.

“And I missed you too daddy’s baby.” He said to my stomach as he kissed it. He picked Royalty up and we all walked out to the balcony. I saw a woman sitting out there and once he put Ro on her feet, she ran to the woman and sat in her lap as they began to interact.

“Who’s that Chris?” I asked before we got close enough to her.

“You’ll see.” He said almost pulling me over to where she was. I sat on the couch opposite from her while Chris stood in front of the chair that was centered between them. I looked at the woman and she looked at Chris.

“Treasure this is my girlfriend India , India this is Treasure.” He said as she smiled at me and held her hand out.

"So I finally get to meet the baby momma? The one who loves to write letters." I said sarcastically.

“I’ve heard many good things about you. Congratulations on the baby.” She said as she admired my baby bump.

“Thank you.” I said as nicely as I could.

“Well , um, I’m gonna get going I have things to do. So I’ll pick her up in about a week or so?” She asked looking at Chris.

“I’ll bring her by next Sunday.” He said as he tied Ro’s shoe.

“Okay. It was really nice meeting you India. Bye Chris.” She said as she bent down and picked Royalty up.

“I love you babygirl.” She said as she kissed all over her face and Ro giggled uncontrollably. I smiled at the sight.

“Nice meeting you Treasure.” I called to her as she walked away. 

“See that wasn’t so bad , was it?” Chris asked as he pulled me into him.

“No. She’s actually very nice.” I said playing with Royalty’s hair.

“Come on , I’m hungry.” He said as we both grabbed her hands and walked into the house.

Chris

  After India told me she was pregnant , it became an eye-opener. I’ve realized that I can’t do the same shit anymore. 2 kids is alot to handle. I can’t be out all late and ass around with my boys anymore. I have a kid on the way and I need to step up and do what I gotta do to be the best father I can possibly be to my children. Royalty is my life and my 2nd child is gonna mean just as much to me. I don't want to ever make my kids feel like they have to compete for daddy's love because it's unconditionally for the both of them. Royalty was a blessing in disguise. I don't regret her for the world.

Knowing that my father was abusive and shit to my mom, burns the hell outta me. It hurts me to know that my dad could give a fuck less about me and would rather leave a permanent scar in my brain for the rest of my life. I wouldn’t dare let my son/daughter go through the same things I had too as a child. I vow to never leave my child or make them feel sad or unloved.

“You got another one on the way?" Mijo asked

“I know man. I'm not gonna say I regret Royalty , but she was not exactly planned.

“Heather’s been pregnant for 8 months now and I still don’t know what to do. I’m just as nervous as you are. I have no clue on how to be a dad. My pops left when I was 7 , and my mom died when I was 12. So Passion took me in since Mike and I were boys.” Trell said.

“Damn yo, that’s sad.” I said to him.

“I’m learning to deal with it. Heather’s mom is just as good. But nothing is like having my mom. She was the best.” He said next.

“When did you and Heather meet?” I asked out of curiosity. I was really just trying to stop talking about babies.

“When I was 14 and she was 12. I knew from when I first saw her , that she would be the girl of my dreams. I was selling back then for a nigga named Spade , so my money was kinda lit. When she turned 16 I bought us an apartment and we moved in together. Her moms had a fit but Heather wouldn’t talk to her so she finally gave in. Her pops for damn sure wasn’t happy about it but Heather told him how important I was to her and he eventually gave in but not before giving me the speech. About 2 years after that I went down for some drug shit and had to spend 3 years in the cell. I thought Heather would move on but she didn’t. She wrote me every day and came to every visitation listed. She held me down to the fullest. When I got out, she was the first face I saw. I had some money saved up so I was good. My nigga Tyga had made it big so I knew we was gonna eat regardless.” He said as he and Mike dapped up.

“I ain’t lazy though. I put together just about everything Mike does. I didn’t get much of a high school edu , so there ain’t much I can do. But I’m not dumb.

 Listening to what he said about Heather made me think. Was India really gonna hold me down through whatever? I love India with everything in me and the thought of her having my child is amazing. I just don’t want us to grow apart. I want us to spend the rest of our lives together happily and madly in love. It would hurt me for us to share custody of our child. I don’t want to wake up one day hating her. I want to cherish her and her beauty forever.

“I gotta bounce. Imma hit y'all up later though.” I said as I dapped everybody and left.

  India

 I was awakened by the sound of the front door closing and I heard his feet clashing with the sound of the wooden stairs. I sat up in the bed and looked at the time: ‘6:37 pm’. I must have been asleep for a while because it was still morning when I went to sleep. I grabbed my phone to see if anyone had called/texted me. I had 5 missed calls and 12 unread messages.

From: Crystal

We missed you at work today boss.

From: Mikey

Congrats Lil bit. You’ll be the perfect mom!

From: Baby Daddy

I’m on my way home babe. I’ll see you soon.

From: Asia

Remember what I said.

 What did she say? ... I dunno.

 From: Crystal

I miss you baby. We need to have another girls night. A safe one!

And the list continues.

 I was about to start replying to messages when I hear the bedroom door open and Chris walked in with a McDonald’s bag and a cup in his hand. He smiled at me then handed me the bag and took a sip from the straw before doing the same with the cup.

“Thanks babe.” I said eating the fries hungrily. I love McDonald’s fries.

“So how was your day?” He asked as he came from the closet with nothing but bb shorts and socks on. Looking at his chest , I forgot how to speak. He chuckled and came over to me, taking the bag of food and the cup from my hand.

“My day was …. tiring. I slept all day.” I said once we were face to face. I looked into his eyes and felt the same feeling I get whenever I look at him. Love. His love for me is so obvious that I can’t deny it. I grabbed his face and pulled him closer to me. I could feel his warm breath just inches away from my lips.

“How was your day?” I asked looking at his lips.

“Just fine. I gotta get Ro for the weekend though.” He said as we both smiled. I let go of his face and we both got up. I strolled into the living room and sat on the couch. He sat down as well and put his head in my lap.

“I wonder if were having a boy or a girl.” He said.

“I want a girl. I wanna dress her up in cute little dresses and play in her hair.” I gushed.

“I already have a girl , I want a boy. Girls are too much to handle. They cry too much and they are way to sensitive. Plus the whole puberty thing would kill me.” He said as I laughed.

“Periods aren-” I was cut off my him covering my mouth with his hand.

“Don’t say that word!” He exclaimed and I laughed even more.

“Why do men act like periods are the end of the world? If it weren’t for them, none of us would be here.” I said to him once my laughter died down.

“They aren’t but it’s just a lot to think about. I know Ro is gonna have one someday but that's for her momma to deal with .Bleeding once a month for 12 months? That’s 12 times a year. Isn’t it painful?” He asked once we were both facing one another.

“Very. In fact, painful doesn’t even describe the feeling. It’s unbearable. Sometimes I can’t sleep and I can’t move. It’s just awful.” I said.

“I’m glad to be a dude. Only cramps we get are muscle cramps and those aren’t that bad.” He said to me.

“I made an appointment for Wednesday at 4.” I said changing the subject.

“I’ll be there. We need a new place.” He said looking around.

“What makes you say that?” I asked playing with the drawstring of his shorts.

“It’s so …. not baby ready. We can’t raise a child here. I know Ro has been kickin it ere but she deserves more, all of yall do. This place just screams bachelor pad.” He said gesturing with his hands. He uses his hands a lot now that I think about it.

“I guess you’re right. But when do you want to start looking for houses?” I asked.

“I’ll start looking tomorrow. We can probably start packing next week.” He said playing with the ends of my hair.

*Comfortable silence*

“How come you never cut your hair?” He asked after a while.

“Cut it for what?” I asked.

“You know , try something different.” He said.

“So you’re tired of the way I wear my hair?” I asked next.

“What?! No! I just … nevermind.” He said leaning back on the couch. I started giggling and he looked at me with a sour expression which made me laugh even more. I crawled over to him and straddled his lap. I took his face in my hand and pecked his lips multiple times since he wanted to keep the salty face.

“That ain’t funny.” He pushed out.

“It was though.” I said smiling. I kissed his lips slowly and he immediately kissed me back. He held on to my waist as I moved slowly on top of him. I could feel his wood poking me from down under.

“Oh Chris…” I moaned as he began to kiss my neck teasingly.

He flipped us over so that my back was on the cushions of the couch.  He slowly licked from my jawline to my neck in one motion. I grabbed the back on his neck as he came back up to kiss me deeply. I only had on one of his shirts and a thong. He lifted up the shirt and tossed it over my head and onto the floor. He then licked and sucked on my right nipple while I moaned his name continuously.  He moved to the left and did the same action but this time he looked in my eyes as he did it, adding more pleasure to the feeling.

He dragged his tongue from my chest , down my stomach and to my belly button swirling around it. He bit the elastic on my thong and slid it down my legs and it soon ended right where my shirt was. He separated my legs and blew gently on my dripping wet opening. I squirmed and tremble at his touch as he kissed my inner thighs teasing me even more. He kissed my pearl making me arch my back. He then licked , sucked , nibbled , and tongued my clit for what seemed like forever. I was moving so much and such a euphoric feeling ripped through my body , I just couldn’t keep still.

“Right there Chris!” I exclaimed while I grabbed the back of his head. He sucked on my clit harder than before causing me to yell out in pleasure.

“OOHHHH GOOOD YEESSSS CHRISSSSSS!” I screamed as my body shook tremendously. I could no longer control my body. I was under his spell.

My juices flowed rapidly from my vagina and into his warm mouth. I rolled my hips on his tongue as my orgasm began to cease. He lifted his head up and kissed me so that I could taste myself. He then pulled off his shorts and boxers and kicked them some place. He rubbed the head of his member against my throbbing entrance. He slowly slid into me while we both let out a long moan of utter bliss.

“That feels so good baby.” I moaned as he stroked me long and deeply. I have longed for this feeling for about 3 months. Just feeling his body on mine gave me all the certainty I needed for the moment. He caressed my breasts as he closed his eyes and held his bottom lip tight between his teeth.

He began to add speed to his strokes which resulted in my moans increasing in volume. He looked down and focus on demolishing my bottom half. His strokes became pounds and he rammed into me hard and fast.

“YESSSSSSSSSSS! FUCK ME CHRISSSSSS!” I yelled while clutching onto his arm for dear life. He was working me over and I felt everything.

Once I came, he flipped us over and we were now on the floor. He tossed me a pillow and pushed my back down to the floor making my head collide with the pillow. He rammed into my small opening again and grabbed my waist as he tumultuously entered me repeatedly. I screamed as loud as I could while trying to stop him from going so deep. I used the tiniest bit of strength I had left in my arms to push his abdomen away from the back of my thighs.

“Why you pushing me baby? Am I too deep for you?” He asked teasingly. I threw my head up and balanced my top half on one of my weakling arms. I nodded expeditiously but didn’t seem to phase him. He only continued as I whimpered and pleaded for him to slow down.

“Please daddy. You’re so deep.” I whimpered as my stomach began to ache.

“Whose pussy is this?” He yelled as he smacked my as hard. A tear fell from my eye as I answered him.

“Yours daddy! It’s all yours!” I wailed loudly.

“You been giving my shit away?” He asked next after digging me so deep , I had to close my eyes just to digest the pain.

“Oh Chris!! You’re too deep!” I exclaimed as I pushed my arms against his torso. He wrapped my hair around his hand making my head jerk upward as he pounded into me showing no remorse. I scratched at the wooden floors as if I were trying to break my nails. The pain felt so good but yet still hurt so badly. He was trying to push my stomach through my mouth.

“That’s not answering my question sweetheart.” He said to me as he went even harder if it were possible.

“NO DADDY!!!! I PROMISE!!!” I screamed at him. He was doing this on purpose. He knew I could only take so much and I was way past my maximum.

“That’s what I like to hear.” He said. I could hear the smile in his voice.

“OHHHHHH MYYYYYY GGGGGGOOOOODDDDDDD!!!!! CCHHRRRIIIISSSSTTTTOOOPPHHERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!” I screamed at the top of my lungs helplessly. I was sure the neighbors heard me by now.

“Wassup?” He asked teasingly.

“I'MMM ABBOOUUTT TOOO CCCUUMMMM! FFFUUUUCCCKKKKKK!” I yelled gripping his forearms as he smacked my ass as hard as he could. I knew this was gonna leave marks on my entire body.

“Shit , cum on then.” He pushed out as his voice shook. He was at his climax as well. We came together and he slowly let go of my hair that was embedded between his knuckles. I rolled over on my back as we both laid on the living room floor for about 15 minutes.

Finally looking at each other , we smiled foolishly like idiots. He brushed my wild hair out of my face and kissed my forehead. I wiped some sweat from his head and kissed his lips. We laid there and stared at each other for what seemed like days.

“I love you India.” He said looking deeply into my eyes. I smiled widely and leaned into him. He wrapped his arm around my waist and I kissed his chest , then his shoulder and finally his lips. He slid his tongue into my mouth and I moaned at the taste of his tongue.

“I love you too Christopher.” I said back.

And with that we both laid in silence until we fell asleep.

Naked on the cold living room floor.

    Angela/Chyna

  I was determined to see Crystal again. That bitch thought she was winning but little did she know I have the ultimate prize. I had Michael.

 Michael would forever be entitled to me whether he wanted to be or not. I love my son to the moon and back and I can't stand the fact that Michael and I are apart. I hate seeing my sons face when he comes over to get him. He keeps asking me when was I gonna come with them or when will I spend some time with them. I don't want us to be that way. I know I seem like I want a lot from Michael but in reality, I don't. I just want him to see that I do love him and I do want to be with him.

 “Will you open the damn door Angela?” Michael yelled on the other side of the door. I was sitting on the couch daydreaming , well becoming lost in my thoughts. He was standing in front of the window looking dead at me. I hopped up and quickly opened the door and let him in.

 “Where's your key?” I asked once he sat down.

 “I lost it. I'll get another one though.” He said.

 I sat on the couch as well but with space between us. I didn't want him to say I was too close or anything. I could feel his eyes on me while I channel surfed. I wasn't gonna pounce all over him like I usually would because I'm slowing starting to realize that the more I do ,the less it attracts him. He has this hateful idea of me and I don't like that so I'll just give him space. I was gonna continue with what I was doing before he got here.

 “So wassup with you? I haven't heard from you in a while.” He asked once the silence became too awkward for him.

 “Lies. You just talked to me yesterday Michael.” I said not bothering to look at him.

 “No you only called me to talk to King. We exchanged maybe 4 words.”

 “That's all I wanted from you.” I muttered.

 “What's wrong with you?” He asked. I rolled my eyes at his question. Every time I didn't give him the answer he was looking for , he flips and thinks something is wrong with me. I just don't have time to let him play with my emotions anymore. I need to focus on my son and my career.

 “Nothing Michael.” I sighed.

 “Something is obviously wrong. You ain't calling me no more, you stopped texting me, and we stopped hanging out.” He said and I couldn't help but to laugh.

 “Do you hear yourself? You sound like a female Mike. Just because I haven't been all about you and what you want , something is wrong? You must be fucking crazy.” I said to him.

 “What happened to us Angela? We used to be so in love.” He said coming closer to me.

 “Life happened Michael. I wanted to be with you but you didn't want that. I've tried to get you to see that I want to be with you I always have. But I refuse to let you play with my mind and my emotions any longer. I moved on Mike. Once I saw you all happy with Crystal , I realized then , that I had lost you. All we ever do is fight. It's affecting King and I don't want that. I want him to see me cry anymore. You're content with who you have and I have accepted that.” I released to him. I have wanted to tell him this for a while. I was not gonna continue falling head over heels for him and he just dust me to the side.

 “We can still work on us Angela. I never told you I didn't wanna be with you. I just don't like the way you use my son as a reason to be forever entitled to me. The only thing that ties us together is our son Ang. You can't keep doing this to him. He wants his mom and dad together. I know I haven't been the easiest to get along with but neither have you. You're always being so insecure and popping up in randoms places where I am. You gotta learn to trust me.” He said as we were  both now standing.

 “I trust you as a father.” Was all I could muster up to say.

 “So you don't trust me in any other way?” He asked stepping closer to me. I backed away and shook my head as I felt tears form in my eyes.

 “No Michael. You keep playing with me and I'm so sick of it. I tried to be what you wanted for 5 years now. You have taken control on my life for the longest. Now it's time to be Angela for once.” I said harshly wiping the tears from my cheeks.

 “You have changed, I agree. I guess that ass whooping from Crystal helped you recollect yourself.” He said getting in my face. Those words stung the shit outta me. How dare he.

 “I guess it did.” I replied smartly. He cut his eyes at me then darted out of the door not before slamming it.

 I sat on the couch and bawled my eyes out. I cried for what seemed like hours. Michael knew what he was doing. He knew that he was the only that could get me to do stupid shit over him and that was the problem. I didn't want to be his little show dog or circus clown. It just hit me that Michael doesn't love or respect me enough to see as a worthy girlfriend or even a wife. I gave him 8 years and that obviously means nothing.

 Looking through Instagram , I saw a post from Crystals page.

 crystalclear Crystal does it betta than ya baby momma … #teamcrystal

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  I went upstairs and found a bathing suit. I brushed my hair and snapped a photo then uploaded it to Instagram.

blaccchyna  I am the original. I will NEVER be replaced. #teamangela

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 I saw India post a picture and instantly liked it. I was cool with India , Heather and Sevyn , just not Crystal.

  Illy.il  I'm gonna miss my flat tummy. #preggo

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 chrisbrown  you still sexy baby @illy.il

illy.il shut up Chris @chrisbrown 

  I laughed at them arguing on the post then scrolled down to see Heather's post. I'll have to go see India tomorrow.

heathersanders  I cherish each day as if it were my last. @kingtrell

Six months later ...

  Sevyn

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I was wondering why all of a sudden India has just up and disappeared. She hadn’t said anything to any of us, except Chris of course. I asked him what happened to her, and he wouldn’t talk about anything dealing with the situation. I tried calling and texting her. No answer. I even tried going to her house but when I arrived all I saw was a huge ‘FOR LEASE’ sign. I also tried to talk to the girls but none of them knew anything, not Crystal, not Heather, not even her own sister. I love India with all my heart. She is a real friend and a sweetheart. I don't understand how she could not care this much about us to let us know something. I hope that wherever she is that she is safe and happy.

Heather

-

I missed Indie so much. She was literally my little sister. I trusted her with my everything. I could be totally open with her and it hurt me that she would just up and leave like this. She had everyone depressed. Especially Chris. He was dealing with this emotional stress really hard. He talked about her and how he loved and missed her. When I was going through with my weight problem, she helped me get into shape and lose the weight. I had a bond with her but Chris’s personality changed after she left. He told me that she told him that she would maybe never come back. He also told us that Rih was pregnant. I hated the fact that she knew that Chris and Indie were together but as always she fucks everything up for him. I believe – No, I KNOW she got pregnant on purpose just to make his life a living hell hole. They’re together now but Chris isn’t as happy as he once was with Indie. Chyna even missed her and King always cries when he hears her name. She left us all so fucked up.

I was scrolling through my phone and found some pictures of us and uploaded it to instagram;

     @Hotyella @IndiaLove

I miss my little bitch soo much :’(              

I never thought that she would’ve left us like that. No calls, no texts, nothing. We all tried to reach her but to no avail, we failed each time. She doesn’t even live in the same place. Knowing her she probably isn’t even in the same state. I just want to see her again and know that she is safe.

Jayla

-

I wanted to die. I couldn’t believe that India would run off like this. She knew that if she needed anything that she could come to me. We been bestfriends for almost our whole lives and this is what she does?, runs off with no warning or pieces left behind. I tried everything; calling, texting, visiting her house, Asia’s house, Chris’s house, Heather’s house, Sevyn’s house, even Chyna’s house but I got nothing. The girls were just as confused as I was. I love India with everything in me. She was literally my half, I was nothing without her. I hate the fact that she just ran from me … from US. I know I may sound like her man and all but me and her are inseparable. Nothing was gonna break us apart. So I thought.

I looked on Instagram to see that Heather had put pictures of her and India up, so I decided to do the same;

  @ShutupJayla @Hotyella @IndiaLove

I miss my other half, my sister, damn near my blood. Through the years we spent with each other, we were made inseparable. But I guess I was wrong.

I just wish that she hadn't left ... US.

  Trell

-

Every since lil bit left, everybody been down. Chris especially. He knows that he fucked up with Rih, but we had already told him to stop fucking with her. Rihanna aint shit but trouble, When she comes up, bad things happen. She a cool chick when she aint tryna be evil and shit. I'm not gonna say I don’t like her because I do, she just evil as hell. She walking around here like she aint did nothing wrong, but deep down she feels guilty and she should. Its been six months since we heard from Lil Bit but I know this wont be the end.

I saw that Heather and Jayla had posted on IG so I figured why not;

                    @KingTrell @ShutupJayla @Hotyella @IndiaLove

Fugly asses but I miss my lil niglet. She literally was my homie. Come back Lil Bit.

I hope that she comes back. Everyone will be pissed at her but we’ll get over it.

  Chris

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I fucked up. I know I should be happy because I have a child on the way, but it doesn’t feel right. I should have a family with INDIA not Rih. I love Robyn with my heart but India has my heart even though she has vanished from my life. I cant let her go, she’s all I ever think about. I cant think straight, I don’t tweet anymore, nothing. I haven’t even talked to my mother. She had been calling me everyday for 2 months now. I'm surprised she didn’t come out here. I was gonna call her eventually, but not now. I have to get my head straight before I could hold a conversation with her. Robyn was carrying my child, but for some reason, I didn’t want her to be. I refuse to make her get an abortion, that’s what pussy niggas do, I want my seed, no matter who its coming from. I just miss her so much. I cant sleep, eat, I haven’t been anywhere besides the bathroom.

I saw on IG that the crew were posting pictures of their memories of India so I posted some;

  @Fuckyopictures @KingTrell @ShutupJayla @Hotyella @IndiaLove

I miss my baby. She’s my breath that I breathe, my life, my love, my everything, my ride or die and I was stupid enough to left her go.

Working on part two of chapter 14....Its juicy but can't spill any valuable details!!!!