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Day 8/April Challenge

It’s both, but, I decided to try a little brotherly, *cough* love from Saeran to Saeyoung. At least, his attempt at it.

Dear Idiot Brother,

My therapist says I need to share my “feelings” with you andothers that are close to me. Since you’re my brother, I guess, I can start withyou.

Yoosung says I shouldn’t start this with Idiot Brother, but,if that’s how I “feel” about you, then, I think it’s fair to use it.

I hate how you constantly watch me. I hate how you alwaystry to hug me. I hate how you stare and chew on your bottom lip. It’s gross. Ihate how you look at me like you’re a whipped puppy. I hate that you don’t tellme the truth sometimes. I won’t break. I’m not glass. I’m stronger than youthink.

If you’re angry with me, tell me, stop walking on egg shellsaround me. I’m better now, not so volatile and I’d prefer if you would talk tome like a brother, not like a fragile flower.

I love you. There, I said it. I have always loved you. Youare my big brother and you took care of me when I couldn’t take care of myself.You took care of me even when you should have been taken care of as well. Itshouldn’t have been your job, but you never complained. I know what you did wasalso to take care of me. You sacrificed your own future and happiness so that Icould have one. I know that now. I understand why you did what you did. But,I’m still angry that you did it. I wish you had stayed. I wish you had taken mewith you. I wish you had never separated us. You were my rock, my foundation,my only tie to this world and you tore it away.

I love you. I always have. Even when I was trying to killyou, I loved you. You’re a good brother. Stop doubting yourself. Stop beatingyourself up. Stop blaming yourself for what happened to me when you left. Youtrusted someone who should have been trustworthy. How could you have known?

I forgive you.

I forgive you.

I forgive you.

Has it sunk in yet?

And don’t get all mushy when you read this. It doesn’t meanI want you to hug me. Well, maybe one hug is ok. I’m offering that underprotest because Yoosung is making me.

Speaking of Yoosung. Thank you. Thank you for protectinghim. Thank you for coming into his life and allowing me to get to know him. Hisis the next letter I write and if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be able toadmit that I love him too. And MC. And Zen. And Jaehee. And Jumin. Love is sucha funny thing isn’t it? Don’t expect me to say it either. This is all you get,so keep it, frame it, fold it and put it in your wallet, whatever! I don’tcare.

Thank you for creating a family, a future, a home.

 The better brother,

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