I don't even really mean the flattening affect because of course that's gender affirming if I want a flat chest (which I do) I mean just like. How it looks. I love my trans identity, I love my queer identity. And this just makes me REALLY feel trans. It makes me feel completely and truly connected with my community and the people before me. I don't know. I love it.

Because also I've never really hated my overall body shape, I quite like it. I often feel more affirmed looking at my naked torso than with a binder or bra because I genuinely like my shape and it's gender affirming for me, it's just that my chest looks a teeny bit off. It just looks like it shouldn't be there, while a bra or binder feels even more off putting to me because wearing something to cover it feels weird, it feels like it should just be bare.

And taping feels that way. Yes technically it's covering a part of my chest but it's also out and open. I feel like I can have my shirt off and be comfortable and I WANT to look at myself. I feel sexy and I feel desirable.

I wanted to share a little experience today

Tonight I'll try putting on kinesiologic tape to bind my chest (I'm genderqueer)

Yes, I know I'll make a mess. Yes, I know it'll hurt a lot. My friends warned me multiple times, but I gotta learn how to put it on because there's no way I'm wearing binders again for the whole summer and die of HOT.

I'll update you by reblogging this tonight.

Unfortunately, as a minor, I can't share pictures, so I'll try my best to explain what I feel, how it looks, and if I regret it or not.