"Please take me with you."
Billy had not been convinced that James Hopper had been killed; he had heard some details from Joyce Byers, offering to listen to her relate her woes about the chief of policeâs âdeathâ, and well. Something didnât sit right with Billy. He just had this hunch, and 7 out of 10 times, his gut wasnât wrong.
Hopper mustâa gotten away, somehow. He had to have jumped through that rift. He had to have. Billy had scoured the âupside-downâ ( Hell, far as Billy were concerned ), using a technique that El had taught him called âSpirit Walkingâ ( least, Billy called it that ). He could scour any place, so long as he had a lock on somebody. Somebody in his mind, in his heart.
He had searched that place for just a bit over a year now. And somehow, Billy had found him. He had gotten a blip on James Hopper, in Hell. Yeah. He was alive. He was alive, but barely. Hopper was trapped.
Billy was going to save him. Tâget him out of there before he died; the man was strong. Strongerân most gave him credit for. Hopper had survived in that place for over a year? Strength, far as Billy was concerned.
He had told everybody that knew, that understood: because Billy wanted them to be aware. On the off chance that Billy couldnât make it, or something, they all needed to know. So that way someone else could go in, find Hopper, help him. To hell with Billy: to hell with himself. He had probably deserved to die ages ago.
If it meant giving his life, to help Hopper? The man that should have lived? Of course Billy would. In a heartbeat. In an instant.
The day of, finally arrived. Billy felt nerves, but also oddly calm. He had accepted this, the day heâd glimpsed James Hopper for the briefest of moments in that otherworldly hellscape.
What Billy hadnât expected? Max to stop him, just before he was about to lock himself in his room. Lock himself in, to open a rift on his own and travel through. He had glanced over at her, eyebrow raised, then she spoke,
âPlease, take me with you.â
Billy just stared. Stared for what felt like ages, but only had lasted maybe 20 seconds. Stared because he could hear that fear in her voice; that worry for him. That guilt, that self-depreciation because she was worrying that she was useless. She was helpless.
Then, Billy moved and hugged her. He gently gripped at her, before that hold turned more protective, warm. When had he last held her? Had he ever held her? Had he ever thought to show affection this way?
âIâll be back before you know it, Maxie.â Billyâs voice is low, careful: trying to instil in her hope, to instil in her reassurance. To let her know that it would all be fine. Yet he was terrified. He was horrified because it was only just now hitting him what he was putting her through, by doing this.
âWhen we get back, promise ya. Weâll make those cookies, okay? From scratch.â they never had found that recipe book. Billyâs brows furrowed, tears pricking at the corners of his eyes. He cleared his throat and squeezed against Max once before letting go, hurriedly turning away.
Billy wiped at his face, before inhaling. Exhaling. Do this, for El. For Max. Be strong for them.
Do some damn good in your life, for once, Billy Hargrove.
Posture confident, head held high, Billy walked towards his bedroom. He paused in between the door frame, and glanced back towards Max,
and Billy smiled at her, held that gaze, before finally entering his room and shutting the door.