ᶤᵗ'ˢ ᶰᵒᵗ ᵐʸ FAULT !!

forget the  H E A R S E ,    ----                   ----    cause i’ll   NEVER   die

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BILLY HARGROVE  of  STRANGER THINGS ,  moderate activity  -  trigger heavy with many dark elements  -  mutuals only .     est.  2018 verses in :  fear street  and   euphoria

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Tina KNEW Billy was a PLAYER. It didn’t take a genius to see. Bouncing from one girl to the next it seemed that no one really HELD his attention for long, but that suited Tina just FINE. It wasn’t as if she was searching for the ONE to settle down with yet anyways - a little FUN at their age never hurt anyone. A white picket fence was far OFF in her future. So sure, she’d bask in his attention NOW and move on when the time was RIGHT. At least, that was the PLAN. One never really KNEW where life would take you though. It was full of SURPRISES. As the car roared to life and he TORE out of the lot, Tina SQUEALED happily, the sound almost imitating that of the wheels turning on pavement and she pressed her back firmly into the leather of the passenger seat. She was all SMILES, not a trace of fear on her face. He did this DAILY, he obviously knew how to handle the road - hopefully he knew how to HANDLE other things as well. It seemed as if their minds were in sync as he offered to lend a hand AFTER everyone left her house and the girl quirks a brow before looking over at him. Amusement was written all over her face. “The keg king HIMSELF wants to be on clean up duty? How’d a girl like me get so LUCKY?”

just  like  that  it  felt  like  the  dynamic  shifted  and  the  record  scratched  and  this  was  billy  acting  out.  or  not.  maybe  he  really  did  feel  this  way  deep  down.  cassie  knows  she  made  a  mistake  the  second  date  left  her  lips  but  if  they  weren’t  exclusive  then  why  should  it  matter?  cassie  never  asked  to  be  billy’s  girlfriend,  weren’t  they  just  having  fun?  her  blue  eyes  squint  at  him  mentioning  the  marks  and  she  swallows  hard  swinging  her  feet  over  the  bed  not  looking  as  he  laughed  at  her  which  hurt  even  worse.  “  i  didn’t  say  i  was  gonna  enjoy  it.  “  cassie  replies  and  doesn’t  look  at  him  finding  her  dress  and  throwing  it  on,  putting  the  two  thin  straps  over  her  pale  shoulders  and  pausing  for  a  moment,  her  body  not  moving  from  the  bed  and  then  she  turns  to  him  so  fast  her  blonde  hair  whips  back  and  she  narrows  her  blue  eyes  at  him  suddenly  feeing  angry  at  all  his  words. “  you  know  what  why  should  it  even  matter?  i’m nothing  to  you.  “  cassie  says  in  a  loud  voice  surprised  by  her  bite  back  but  it  wasn’t  uncommon,  a  lot  of  little  things  set  her  off  that  she  doesn’t  know  why  she  continues  to  stay  here.  even  as  she  says  what  she  feels  deep  down  her  blue  eyes  are  filled  with  hurt  but  she  refuses  to  cry  because  he  was  going  to  listen  to  her  for  once.  “  and  just  so  you  know  i  don’t  do  that.  i  don’t  just…  just  run  around  with  everyone  who  gives  me  attention.  “  cassie  shakes  her  head  and  doesn’t  look  at  him  finding  her  boots  and  leaning  on  the  edge  of  the  bed  to  zip  them  up  before  finally  getting  off  the  bed  looking  at  him.  “  that’s  your  problem,  billy,  you  don’t  know  how  to  be  real.  “  cassie  stresses  and  grabs  her  bag  from  the  end  of  the  bed  looking  at  him  in  a  sad  manner  in  a  way  he  probably  hates  but  she  doesn’t  care.   “  everything’s  a  game,  isn’t  it?  this  cat  and  mouse  game  we’ve  created…  “  cassie  still  looks  at  him  not  breaking  his  gaze. “  it’s  actual  bullshit.  so  you  don’t  get  to  judge  me  for  going  on  a  date…  for  wanting  to  be  more  than  a  best  kept  secret.  “ 

surprisingly she didn’t  WANT  this  shift ,  he was very comfortable with her just on his chest.  they could have fallen asleep and  worried  about the consequences later.  but cassie  had to  RUIN  it.  anger that could  only  be described as  jealousy  bubbles up from his stomach and billy will sit up more ,  brows knitting together as his cigarette is brought to his lips again.  maybe the  only thing  that might calm him down now.  a  cruel chuckle  comes ,  smoke following hearing her words and his head  shakes.  eyes  look away  letting her  get it all out  as his anger  only grows ,  and it  mostly  wasn’t even  towards  cassie.  it was to  whoever  thought it was a  good idea  to take her on a date.  whoever thought it was a  good idea  to rip her from his room tonight.  no he would  never  voice that he wanted her to stay ,  or that  maybe  all of their problems were  rooted  in  his own problems ,  he would just be  ANGERY. 

People STARING and TALKING were nothing really NEW to the girl. She had been POPULAR for years now, gaining quite the reputation as bash thrower, so she didn’t even pay any attention to those watching as the pair walked towards his car, all but WRAPPED around each other. Sure she knew the other GIRLS would see and get jealous, but honestly? That only made her want to do it more. Press against his side tighter, smile wider, giggle louder - might as well put on a show huh? Once at the CAMARO in question, Tina dipped her head into a silent thank you as he opened the door, and slid in with a graceful flourish. Hands ran ALONG the dashboard almost tenderly after placing her things at her feet and at the boys question she laughs with a NOD. “Oh yeah, show me what this baby can do.”

@flayedboy· asked: ❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

cassie  feels  the  way  her  cheeks  flush  at  such  a  statement  and  she  bends  down  to  push  his  jaw  away  from  her  and  she  laughs  softly.   “  shut  up,  hargrove.  “  but  her  tone  is  teasing  silently  begging  for  him  to  say  more.  it  amazes  her  how  they  only  get  along  fully  when  he  is  between  her  thighs.  but  cassie  elects  to  ignore  all  that,  her  blue  eyes  sparkling  and  she  scoots  closer  to  him.  obviously  he  is  the  reason  why  her  heart  is  beating  so  hard. “  do  you  always  have  to  state  the  obvious,  billy?  “  hooks  her  finger  into  his  chin  and  lifts  his  lips  for  a  tender  but  heartfelt  kiss.

@flayedboy· asked: 🧸  !!  definitely one of those ones you win at the games at the fair !!

blue  eyes  glance  up  at  the  teddy  bear  that  billy  hargrove  is  holding  out  to  her  and  she  narrows  her  blues  before  taking  it  in  her  arms,  smiling  to  herself.  she  didn’t  want  to  admit  how  cute  this  was,  but  it  was  pretty  damn  cute.  he  got  a  stroke  to  his  ego  again  and  she  got  a  free  stuffed  animal.  there  was  something  so….  domestic  about  it.  the  smile  becomes  more  present  on  her  lips  and  she  hums  softly,  trying  not  to  show  him  it  means  the  WOLRD  to  her.  though  it  was  a  cheap  and  easy  gift,  cassie  didn’t  care,  she  also  found  sentiment  in  the  smallest  of  gestures.  “  next  time…  you  should  win  me  a  monkey..  “  her  tone  teasing  and  she  grabs  his  hand  holding  the  teddy  bear  in  her  free  one  and  dragging  him  to  the  next  game  in  the  county  fair.

she  should  have  left  hours  ago  but  knows  she  was  glued  to  the  same  spot  now  and  that  his  warmth  had  grown  into  something  she  needed.  she  didn’t  want  to  go  back  to  her  cold  and  empty  bed,  her  empty  bedroom,  her  house  that  doesn’t  feel  like  home.  she  misses  california  and  her  mom  and  her  sister  and  she  would  give  anything  to  go  back.  billy  somehow  reminds  her  of  california  with  his  curly  hair  and  sun  kissed  skin,  the  blues  of  his  eyes  reminding  her  of  the  ocean  and  she  doesn’t  want  to  leave  him  just  yet.  something  tells  her  that  he  doesn’t  want  her  to  go  either.  cassie  opens  her  eyes  when  she’s  told  to  stay  there  and  she  looks  up  at  him  heading  out  and  closing  the  door.  the  noise  was  loud  and  sounded  bad,  the  more  cassie  listened  the  more  of  a  clearer  picture  she  was  receiving  into  what  it  looked  like  at  the  hargrove  residence.   when  billy  slips  back  into  the  room  it’s  clear  to  her  that  he  doesn’t  want  to  be  noticed  and  cassie’s  blue  eyes  are  rather  processing  what  just  had  happened.  the  red  mark  clear  on  his  cheek  and  she  feels  her  heart  beat  faster.  out  of  anger?  because  that  isn’t  how  you  treat  your  child?  or  fear?  knowing  billy  also  came  from  a  household  of  abuse. cassie  wasn’t  a  stranger  to  loud  noises  or  things  being  thrown  or  parents  yelling  and  fighting  but  it  had  never  been  directed  at  her  physically.   cassie  watches  in  the  present  as  billy’s  eyes  close  and  tears  start  to  leak  from  his  eyes  and  she  breathes  in  softly  hoping  he  wouldn’t  hear  that,  the  last  thing  she  wanted  was  thinking  she  pitted   him.  she  didn’t  but  she  is  concerned,  more  so  now  more  than  ever  and  now  it  was  crystal  clear  why  he  kicked  her  out  that  night. it  hurt  him  and  it  was  written  across  his  features  and  cassie  stands  up,  billy’s  long  black  shirt  swims  on  her  but  she  doesn’t  say  anything  moves  close  and  swiftly  hopes  he  doesn’t   mind,  fearful  he  might  lash  out  at  her  but  she  doesn’t  care.  her  small  arms  wrap  around  his  taller  frame,  head  pressed  slightly  into  his  chest  and  holding  him  tighter.  compassion  apparent  in  her  actions  before  she  could  stop  them,  cassie  had  always  been  kind  and  compassionate  and  she’s  glad  that  hadn’t  changed  going  to  hawkins  though  life  hadn’t  always  been  kind  to  her.  “  you  don’t  have  to  talk…  or  anything,  okay,  just…  “  cassie’s  voice  is  tender  not  looking  up  at  him  scared  what  she’ll  see,  it’ll break  her  heart  even  more  but  she  tries  to  stay  calm,  not  freak  out  and  make  the  situation  worse  on  him.  standing  up  on  the  tips  of  her  toes  she  gently  wraps  her  arms  around  his  torso  higher  and  closes  her  eyes  listening  to  his  breaths.  the  broken  boy  crumbles  right  in  front  of  her  arms  and  all  she  can  do  is  hold  on  tight  with  mercy. 

there’s a small voice in billy’s head  screaming  at him to tell cassie to leave but he just  couldn’t  he was stuck in that one spot pressed against the door and he  couldn’t move.  the thought of looking at her ,  acknowledging her after what she just witnessed was  worse  than what neil had done.  no one besides his family knew this part of his life ,  no one had any  thought  that this happened in the hargrove household ,  no one suspected it.  and billy wasn’t sure he  liked  someone  now knowing  what he went through at home.  the thought only made more tears slip from his closed eyes ,  no matter how hard he tried to  hold it in  or  suck it up  he just  couldn’t  not this time. 

the feeling of her hands on his body makes him  jump some  not expecting  touch  right now but he won’t push her away ,  not yet.  he just needed this moment to  pretend  this wasn’t happening.  deep breaths are taken trying to calm himself down now ,  trying to push down these emotions he  hated.  but feeling cassie resting her head back on his chest where it  once was  when everything was  fine  brings him back to this moment.  part of him  knows  she’s just trying to be comforting but another part is  yelling  about how she must think he’s  weak.  the mark on his cheek stung ,  but not that bad so  why was he crying ?  he should be  use to this. 

feeling her stand higher and arms wrap tighter around his body another big breath is let out and her words only pull   more tears  from his eyes.  he wished she  wasn’t here  he wished her hugging him didn’t  feel so good ,  or so comforting.  he just wants to  SCREAM.  after a moment that feels like  forever ,  billy’s hand  finally  moves from his side ,  coming up to wipe his wet face and his eyes open.  puffy red eyes look down to cassie for a second and before he can think to  stop himself  his hand is on her chin ,  forcing her to look up to him.  to look at his  weak and broken  face before he’s suddenly leaning down to her and pressing his lips to hers.  something they  never did.  billy wasn’t even sure  why  he did it..  maybe he just needed  more comfort  than he even knew.

It wasn’t as if Tina couldn’t DRIVE. She had her license, she even had her own CUTE little car parked in the garage back home - but there was just something so much BETTER about getting different boys to drive you to and from school each day. Even if they were just FRIENDS, it was easier than doing it herself. Cheeks TINT at Billy’s offer and suddenly the BOY currently waiting for her by HIS car was forgotten all about. Who had it been to agree to her today? Jacob? Justin? Something with a J name for sure - but she couldn’t put her finger on it. Not while Billy was right there anyways. She perked up quickly and nodded her head without an ounce of hesitation. “I’d love that! – I think I have a few CANS still tucked away under my bed too if you wanted to HELP me clear them out?” Tina could FEEL eyes upon them now as they exited the building and the sensation only caused her to PRESS herself closer towards his side. “Sound good?”