#cedreamge

when you care about someone

you're there for them

at the airport

whether you receive them

or dispatch them

is of no importance.

i should have known

you'd never be

at the airport

I'm scared to use the word 'friend',

'cause even though I'm selective of them,

they always seem to hurt me in the end.

Now, after betrayal, I make no amends.

Yet who would have thought

that having no friends

It was not my hair on your couch

Because I pulled all my hairs out

So they couldn't fall off

And they couldn't be found

I did not fill your laundry basket

Because I reused the clothes twice or thrice

Afraid you would complain

I could do nothing right

I could not have cleaned my room

Because those weren't my toys

Those weren't my walls

That wasn't my home

I did not waste your shampoo

Because I had my hair short

Hard from all the mistreat

Hard from all the abuse

But my birthday gift to myself

Was conditioner and fresh fruit

You got the money I was too scared to use

While I lied, lied awake, lied asleep

Just lied, lied depressed, wasting time

Say goodbye

I was taught love meant pain

When she cut me open

Begged for forgiveness

Then did it all over again

I was taught love meant treason

When she pushed me far

Played the victim

Just to sell me off for her own reasons

I was taught love meant nothing

When she dragged me down

Demanded respect

Unsure why I'd take off running

He taught me all of it was wrong

When he hugged me tightly

Assured me I deserved better

The rocky broccoli mountain

with cotton candy on its head.

The blue soup that surrounds them

made from all the flowers I wish I had.

As much as I would have loved

for it to have been otherwise,

blueberries are purple