â° the end of all things âŽ{ 1st tl }
[ tw: death, depression ? ]
all she hears is screaming. maybe itâs in her head or maybe itâs in her throat or maybe itâs in her heart; maybe she doesnât know whatâs real anymore. everything feels like suffocating. itâs a haze and all she sees is red and betrayal and grief and her parents dying behind her eyelids again. too late. always too late. life is always slipping through her fingers again. she is always holding the knife even when she isnât. even when jongin is holding the knife, itâs still hers to carry. itâs still her blood and her burden and how dare he. how could he do this to her? how could he leave her here with this?
and itâs still her that has to end it. itâs kanaâs whip that finally rips out the remainder of taeyongâs heart after what feels like hours. she wants so badly to surrender and let his familiar consume her; sheâs wanted to from the moment she saw jonginâs spear through his chest but she canât let anyone else do this. they are all traitors and she canât stand it-- canât allow taeyongâs last moments to be spent looking into the face of someone that claimed to love him while being willing to sacrifice his life for nothing.
in the end kana is the last one standing by taeyongâs side as always; even kenâs loyalty isnât enough to save him. maybe itâs his downfall. maybe kana is only here because she has a soul the universe refuses to take down with everyone sheâs ever loved. (why is she still here? why, why, why?)
maybe this is what she deserves for always wanting this: someone, anyone to notice sheâs been here all along. she didnât want it like this. she doesnât.
the sobs wonât stop. she canât breathe; her chest feels like splitting open, but when she sees taeyongâs body emerge from his monsterâs defeat, her vision only blurs more. she canât see anything. two minutes isnât enough. her heart is so heavy with iâll never see him again. itâs over.
âtaeyong,â she cries. âitâs me.â did you see me? did you know i was here? but she doesnât have a right to wonder because she was too late to save him. (sheâs always too late.)
â° @ccxtaeyong âŻ











