#catlovers09

Go-to music genre: rock music, hands down. I'm not too picky about the subgenre and im not a snob about these things, my only firm NO are those songs that are just a dude growling and screaming incoherently into the mic for 5 minutes straight lmao but favourite bands off the top of my head would be Three Days Grace (also my fave band ever, I saw them in concert twice already and ill see them again this June 🥰), Evanescence, Breaking Benjamin (seeing them for the first time a day before I see TDG lol), Bad Omens, Starset, System of a Down, Bring Me The Horizon, Maneskin before Damiano sold out etc.

But I generally like most everything as long as it sounds good? I used to be very elitist about music genres when I was like 13 and only listened to rock and rap bc those were the 'smart' genres with a message in my eyes 🫣 I grew up since then tho. The Weeknd has been in my top 5 on Spotify wrapped for the past 4 years ever since I started listening to his music for example 🤣 and I love Ariana Grande, I grew up with Lady Gaga and still love her music, won't even say no to a cheeky Justin Bieber song from when I was young and #different and hated him (no Taylor Swift tho. I have my issues with her as an artist and her music 🤐)

Favourite colour, flower, or food: cliche and ik it's not a colour technically but my go-to colour is black, always. Lipstick, eyeliner, pants, shirts, you name it.

My favourite flowers are roses, again, cliche, but it's bc I'm not actually picky about flowers and I picked roses when I was little bc my mom liked them. Even tho we haven't talked in 7 years they're still my favourite.

And favourite food? Does tiramisu count even if it's a dessert? If not ill choose fries with cow cheese grated on top, a fried egg on the side, and tomato, cucumber, and onion salad ❤️ Romanian staple and a childhood favourite.

Study or work: I work! Been employed since I was 21 after I dropped out of university the year before. (TW suicide mention ahead) My mental health took a dive for the worst (and it was already pretty bad during high school) bc my best friend committed suicide after we graduated so I couldn't cut it at uni unfortunately. Never went back despite considering it multiple times bc it lost its appeal and I didn't want to go back to depending financially on my dad

Biggest passions: writing, hands down. English as a subject in school used to come first but now since I'm an adult with a job, it's writing lmao. I like other things like listening to music, reading (which I do for recreation as well as an add-on to writing ig), occasionally drawing or painting although im shit at it

My first and only canvas painting 🫣💀

But these are just things I do to pass the time, writing is the thing that sustains me, i think.

General likes/dislikes: I like the smell of freshly ground coffee (it reminds me of my mom. She used to get coffee sold by the 100g from the corner store when I was a kid and they ground it there before selling it), peach flavoured soda/juice, strawberries, and when I find a new favourite song that I replay for a hundred times until I get sick of it.

I dislike strangers bumping into me in public bc it's their first day on earth, cilantro (it tastes like soap to me), when people text "hey" and dont follow up with what they want until you respond, and when nail polish smudges the second you do anything with your fingers even though you cosplayed a Greek statue for 20 minutes.

What inspired me to start writing: I couldn't say, honestly. I used to hate writing when I was a kid even though, funnily enough, I was very creative. I guess the chore of coming up with the billionth "how did you spend your summer" composition for school took any joy out of it. But around when I was 11, I think, I discovered the wonder of descriptions instead of "recount an event with stupid flowery words from this sheet the teacher gave us". I loved coming up with creative comparisons to describe the sky, or the sun, or the trees.

I was a very lonely kid and I grew up with insecurities and social anxiety so I was stuck in my head a lot. I felt a lot. But I wasnt allowed to externalise it. I was berated for crying too much and nobody really listened to what I had to say anyway. So writing was my escape. I didnt start writing properly until I was about 14 or 15, when I began with x readers after discovering fanfiction on tumblr around the same time 🫣🤣

I've begun and abandoned about a thousand novels. I wrote many original short pieces (think poetic prose) during a period of about a year when I gave up fanfic writing after I had a depressive episode and deleted all my works. It was honestly very healing. I dealt with my best friend's death the only way I knew how, a little with my own traumas from childhood, and learned to write for myself and for the sake of writing instead of for an audience. I gained so much confidence in my writing during that time and now I can confidently say, without tooting my own horn, that while I still have a lot to learn, I'm a pretty damn good writer 🥰 especially since English isn't my first language!

What's my process like: I don't really have one? I'm very spontaneous about my writing because when I force it, it doesn't work or I often don't like the result. I think about writing almost all the time (ideas, random plots. I pick up and discard things a lot, and i end up not writing ideas I have even more. I talk to myself out loud about characterisations in canon vs fanon of characters I like, or analysing things from movies/tv shows/books.) I take literature and storytelling very seriously so I like talking to myself about things I like or dislike in media. Last week I spent half an hour or more arguing to an invisible audience why Wesker could never be a sub so long as you take canon into consideration because it doesn't work even when you're trying to be subversive about it, bc he could never be humble, trusting, and vulnerable enough to let someone else boss him around and have control over him 😩

So i guess that my process is: I open Google docs on my phone and start to write. And when it feels off/the words won't come/I get frustrated, I just close it back up and try again later 🤣

Music for the vibe or silence: depends. Sometimes I can listen to music while writing without a problem, others I need complete silence bc the music distracts me and I just start singing instead of writing. Or I type the lyrics instead 🤣 sometimes I start off by listening to music and halfway through i go "ENOUGH" and turn it off cause it starts to sound too much like annoying noise. I'm not a very consistent person bc I lack motivation so it's always "im going to do this now or it never gets done" and that has kind of bled into a lot of the things I do 💔