#caskett ff

Authors note: I wrote this in November of last year and I don't think I've ever posted it. These are supposed to be Kate's vows I guess (it turned out a bit longer than I intended). It was my first attempt at writing anything that even resembles fan fiction (I wouldn't call it that) and I wasn't sure about it then and I'm not sure about it now, but after 7x01 I remembered it and thought I'd put it out there. I hope you guys enjoy it and any kind of feedback would be awesome.

After my mother’s murder I lost a part of myself. I was so weary and so tired and the only reason I kept my head up was because I needed to find her killer, I needed to get closure.

You know, people think that just because I’m a cop I’m unbreakable, but the truth is I was wearing a mask, I was hiding my feelings, because I though they would make me vulnerable. So I put up these walls to protect myself. I was broken beyond repair. Until you came along.

You tore those walls down and you made me realize that I could be more than who I had been for all those years. Inch by inch you got under my skin and you carved yourself into my heart. And even though I refused to let you in, you stood by my side and you never let go. You picked up the pieces and you made me whole again.

They say that before you die your life flashes through your eyes. When I was hanging from that building all those memories were of you. And even though I forced myself to believe that I wasn’t in love with you, the only thing that came out of my mouth was your name.

And I’m so grateful that you came into my life. You made me do what I feared the most: let go of the past. You made me look forward to the future. To our future. And that’s all I could ever ask from you. I was broken for a long time, but it’s over now. Because of you.

So thank you. Thank you so much for believing in me even when I didn’t. Thank you for standing by my side through everything, for being my solid ground. Thank you for making me feel like I belonged again, for giving me back the part of me that thought I’d lost so long ago. And most of all, thank you for loving me.

I finally updated it, huzzah!!