This year has been such a messy fog even with everything Iβve achieved and all the progress this year I still fall into self isolation fog for weeks on end SO easily bc like literally every 3 weeks a family member and my abusers do something insane regarding my abuse or the case bc stuff has been happening so much with it, and itβs sooo triggering I just like freeze up and drift through the bare minimum and miss people, and itβs soo defeating because the case just got pushed back again until march and it seems truly endless, because I never feel stable enough to speak to most people because I worry about the impact my mind fog, switching etc will have on them like feeling just so much like a burden, sliding back on my goals and hobbies etc like just this foggy survival mode
And I just really feel defeated because it was finally almost done bc I was assured that this December date would probably happen but it will not, so I thought it could be wrapped up this year and I can move on a lot more, and now everyone is mad at me about it and acting insane, and then thereβs all this triggering stuff my abuser and his family is doing π anyways this is my big goal to work on still is being social regardless bc isolation only hurts me and I feel bad disconnecting from my friends bc thatβs unfair to them too, and if youβre my friend reading this ily
