a play on words.
being 30, with a good career, savings, and a desire to settle, on the drive back from a children’s party, I’ve opened up a dialogue between my boyfriend and i about finances, home, and marriage. a lot of things sounded good... “i’ll pay for the mortgage, you want your name on the house?, i won’t let you pay for all the groceries, let’s have a joint account...want to just get married?” all of it sounded good, but it upset me... because he’s mentioned that so many times, but there’s no action put to it. i told him not to joke around because it’s not funny to me. it seems like something is holding him back from marrying me. does he love someone else? does he not think i’m the one!?? then i asked “do you not want to marry me?” then he responded “i didn’t say i didn’t want to marry you.” ...silence surrounded us... then i said “you didn’t say you wanted to either.” no response was given.


















