I sit here and think about my life and what I want. Right now I'm currently battling myself everyday. ( it's actually been 5 years.) My anxiety of panic attacks has brought me to the point where I am home bound. I can't leave without a safe person ( my boyfriend particularly.) And driving is a task. It's exhausting to keep explaining why I can't go somewhere by myself. My thoughts go like this:
" we will have a severe panic attack if u go alone and who will drive u home?"
" you can't escape this or your panic and you're going to make a fool of yourself"
" there is no escape. You will live like this forever. There is no fix"
It's hard for me to go get a job ( other than with my mom) or go to the store alone. If someone knows how I can help myself ( I'm on meds) ir would be greatly appreciated.
