#can saturn just..

I feel guilty for being myself because the people around me never really appreciated me, so it taught me to think little of myself too. It makes me feel powerless; like people have a strong hold on me and that I'm not strong enough or beautiful enough or talented or smart enough to do anything I want. It feels like self-betrayal because I know this isn't right, but it also feels like I can't move and that makes me sad.