#caitsimply

I apologize to the thousands, and thousands of people who read my blog. I know you have been angry with my absence . . .  HA HA HA.

      Alright, all kidding aside I am sorry (of course more for myself) that my regular writing fell short there for a moment. BUT I AM BACK! AND IT IS SUMMER!*  The temperature is climbing and the necessity for clothes is becoming nearly obsolete in the blistering heat. Which brings me to today’s topic, or thought really: SCANDOLOUS CLOTHING.        Ever since I started to mature, and pick out my own clothing, I have found that I am always in favor of a deep plunging neck line. This is actually pretty silly, because even though I have a phenomenal rack my ladies aren’t actually that  large. In fact in proportion with the rest of my curves, and I do have quite a few of those, my girls are actually not that large. Despite my very average tits, I love scandalous clothing. I love the way they makes me feel, the way they make me look. I feel confident, sexy, and unstoppable.        So when summer roles around and shorts get shorter, and skirts, and shirts, I personally don’t mind. It really irks me when people tell women to dress “appropriately.” I can’t stand others blaming our bodies for the distraction of others, even going so far to blame abuse on the length of a skirt rather than the abuser. It’s wrong and more, so sickening to limit humans a way of expression.        Don’t get me wrong, there is a time and place for everything. It is ok to give places and events dress codes, I’m cool with that, so long as they are fair. I also understand that even though I LOVE my little black dress with the plunge neck line, I probably wouldn’t wear it to see a priest. After all wearing what you want should be a reflection of who you are, but just like anything context is important. Let’s be honest, I probably wouldn’t go to meet a priest anyway.        Your clothing should reflect yourself. So if it is fucking hot out there and you want to wear that skimpy little dress, wear your fucking dress. If you feel sexy in that lacy little top, by all means go for it. It is your actions, your words that reflect whether or not you respect yourself. Not your clothes.  Respect yo self ladies, and wear what ever the fuck you want. That is all for today. It is almost to hot to write...

Love Always, 

-Cait

       Ah, summer. I can almost taste it. The last chapters are being read and studied for classes, finals are practically here, and reservations are being made for our vacations. (HAHAHAHA JK NONE OF US CAN AFFORD VACATIONS.) Though my summer is not as boring as thought it was going to be, I am realizing that I will have an odd amount of free time on my hands.       I fully intend on taking advantage of this. So I am going to share with you my SUMMER READING LIST, because I know that you are just dying to hear about it. Here are my goals:

Read between 15 and 30 books. 

Read just as many classics, as YA. 

Read at LEAST one non- fiction book (Flower encyclopedias and cool table top books about the Clash and dreams don’t count.)

  Write a review for every book I read.

      I used to spend so much time reading books, no, I would devour them in a day or two at the most. I loved nothing more then jumping into a story and being someone else for a while. I find that I spend so much time on homework, and writing and THE INTERNET, that I never take the time to read a book. I make time for everything else, why not reading? So this summer will be different! And I cannot wait. Wanna read some more too? FORCE YOURSELF. We make time for the things we really want. If you really want to read more put your money where your mouth is, make an attainable goal and work towards it! 

BOOKS TO READ YO  (list currently under construction, will be posted soon)

The Great Gatsby

The Bell Jar

Me,  Earl, and the Dying Girl

If I Stay

Our Tragic Universe

The Diviners

Shadow and Bone

Room

Elanor and Park

The Program

Revenge of the Girl with the Great Personality

17 and Gone

Brideshead Revisited

Lord Of the Flies

As I lay dying ----- Maybe not now but eventually

Fahrenheit 451

Anna Karenina

Tender Is the Night

Catch 22

Madame Bovary

The Phantom Toll booth

Harriet the Spy

Matilda

The Golden Compass

A series of unfortunate events

Into the wild

Swoon Great Seducers

Challenging Casanova

Free to Learn: Why Unleashing the Instinct to Play Will Make Our Children Happier, More Self-Reliant, and Better Students for Life

Present Life

Miss  Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children 

For those of us in school, the end is near. Finals are weeks away projects and papers are ready to be finished… or started.

      Focus is getting increasingly difficult as the days pass, and I find myself less and less willing to put in the work and effort necessary for me to succeed. This is no good. It is really easy to put off things that are important to us and spend the day outside.  With weather like this who wouldn’t want to? Now, if you are a senior in high school, and going to graduate no matter what, this DOES NOT APPLY TO YOU. I am a firm believer in senioritis, it is a necessary and fun part of the high school experience. BUT, those of you who are not graduating you are in a bit of a pickle. Today’s meditation is to help you maintain focus as we near the end of this hellish semester. 

Why are you in school? What is it that you want?

Is this slacking harmful to your grades?

You can do it, there is time for everything.

      It is hard to ignore the beginnings of summer, but it may be necessary for you to accomplish what it is that you want. Shift a few minutes of your time to focus on what it is you want. Evaluate what it is you are doing, and attack it head on. ALSO, remember you can do it, dedicated people can make time for everything that they need and want, sometimes we just have to reevaluate what it is we actually need and want. Have no fear. No matter what you will survive. 

Love always, 

      So this April is thankfully filled with lots of showers, however, sometimes rainy days can be hard as you can see from my April 10th post. When the weather is gloomy and doomy keeping your mood up can prove to be difficult. My friends, this is where I come in, I am going to do my best to help you. However, in order for this to work, you have to try it.  STEP 1: No matter HOW busy your schedule is you must clear at least 30 minutes, preferably an hour, but I understand. Set a timer. Don’t cheat. You can spare 30 minutes. I swear.  STEP 2: Breath. Like seriously, take a deep breath. This next hour or 30 minutes should be relaxing. NOT stressful. STEP 3: Get comfy. Bring on the fuzzy slippers, your favorite worn out sweat shirt, pajama bottoms, what ever. Don’t matter, as long as you are comfortable. STEP 4: Do something that makes you smile. It can be anything. Take a bath, call a friend, watch the latest [Insert Favorite Show] episode, paint your nails, watch a movie, read a book, flip through a magazine, make some tea, draw, paint, do a puzzle. GET OFF THE COMPUTER. CALM YOUR MIND BY DOING ONE TASK.        Life gets busy and it can be really easy to get down when the weather is not agreeable. Take this time to remember that nothing is worth sacrificing your own happiness. Absolutely nothing. Either you have to think differently, or live differently. At the very least, if none of this works, remember: April showers bring May flowers.

Love always,

      I have this weird habit of watching certain movies during certain times of the year. It’s like, it cannot be fall unless I have watched When Harry Met Sally, You’ve Got Mail, or Harry Potter.  And even though the weather isn’t exactly quite spring yet, I am itching to watch those movies that help me welcome the season with open arms.       So, because I have nothing useful to say this week, I am going to share with you a few of my favorite movies that I love to watch during spring. For some reason, a lot of my spring movies are also interchangeable with fall, in case you were wondering. If you have not seen any of these, I suggest you change that very quickly. They are funny, and sweet, and lovely. 

Amelie

The Brothers Bloom 

Stranger Than Fiction

Dan in Real Life

Romeo + Juliet

A Little Princess 

Harriet the Spy

Love always, 

       I wish I came up with the title all by myself, but alas I did not. This title is actually also the title to a wonderful movie I saw recently, one that I recommend everyone try and see if they can.        In the movie this woman talks about advice that was given to her from a cab driver. The cab driver tells her she needs to be more grateful. But not just that, he tells her that she should not only express gratitude but also ask the universe for more. This is where the ‘thank you more please’ comes from.         It is okay to want things. You should want to be happy, not only that but you should be able to ask for more.  If you are able to see all the great things before you, no matter how absolutely shitty things may be, then you are allowed to ask for more.         Sometimes I get so afraid that things are going well, it means that they are bound to fall apart. I fool myself into thinking that I am doomed to have something awful happen to me. And it’s true, things are bound to fall apart, something awful will happen at one point or another. This does not mean that good things cannot also happen.  This whole philosophy is the act of focusing on the good in your life, instead of the bad. If you can be aware enough to say thank you for all the wonderful things in your life, instead of cursing the awful, then you deserve to ask for more.         Everyone deserves all the happiness they can obtain. Happiness is like love, in the sense that if you are doing it right then there is no limit to how much you deserve. So let’s do something, let’s say THANK YOU. And not the typical, “Thank you for my house, my family, my life, blah blah blah” try and think of at least five different things every night for a week. After you give thanks to God, or the Universe ask for more, because whether you think so or not, you always deserve more.

 Love always, 

They are a beautiful, beautiful waste of time. And I am about to make it a whole lot worse. 

       For the past few months I have been day dreaming about redecorating my room. Of course first I should probably clean it... but that is besides the point. Amidst my daydreams of the perfect room renovation I came across the most wonderful website known to man: http://www.apartmenttherapy.com         You may be perfectly content with your living situation as of this moment, but I guarantee the moment you enter this website you will be overcome with the sudden urge to redecorate. The need to tackle a DIY project will consume you. Within days you will be dreaming of the perfect color for your bedroom/bathroom/kitchen walls.         Of course I may be crazy, and you may find nothing addicting about this website. However, I urge you, perhaps out of malice, to give this site a try. So at the very least I will not be the only one who has accomplished nothing. 

Now for your viewing pleasure, some lovely photos from the site:

"Take the weakest thing in you, and then beat the bastards with it. And always hold on when you get love. So you can let go when you give it."

I am not only madly in love with this song, but this line in particular. It makes me feel strong even at my weakest, and leads me to ask these questions: “What are my weaknesses?” -Too many to write.... “Can I over come it?” - Some of them yes!  “Can I use my weakness to in fact make me stronger?”- hell fucking yes. 

     What I love about this lyric is that it is undeniably true. We all have weaknesses, many of them in fact, but the truth of the matter is, that doesn’t make us weak. Just by moving on, getting up when we fall, we prove to all of those who don’t believe in us, we are able. We are strong.

Last year was a hard year, but I survived. Hell today was a hard day, but I am still here. 

      Sometimes we are too low to pick ourselves up, that much is true. I have been there. But I challenge you to always try. You will be amazed at your strength! There is so much more I could write about this lyric, so don’t be surprised if it comes up again. But for now, remember “always hold on when you get love, so you can let go when you give it.” It makes things hella easier. 

Love always,