#c!beckyu

I've come to realise I don't like my birthday a lot. While I don't resent anyone for not remembering my birthday, I try very hard to remember everyone else's- and no I'm not perfect I do forget too. I just think I like the feeling when people make the effort to remember so this is kinda just me venting those thoughts (Like don't feel bad for me lol I just wanted an outlet)

Anyways while I was drawing this, I imagined this conversation of myself and c!beckyu and makes me wonder if anyone else ever feels this way about their birthday?

"I seem to set myself up for failure you know. I peg all my happiness on specific people I care about remembering what today is without reminding them and even though I know they'll forget, I do it anyway."

"They may have forgotten, but that doesn't mean they don't care. Big people stuff takes up a lot of your lives I've noticed. They may have just got carried away. You're so good at remembering because you know how much it means to you when someone remembers, and you don't want to be that person who lets them down because you forgot."

"How is it my own creation is smarter than me?"

"I think it's more of you find it harder to believe yourself when you know what truth lies in your heart and to hear it from someone else is what makes it feels real."

"Yeah. You're probably right."

Yeah. Brain go Brrrr.

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My Stories :D

Link to Ao3 versions here

My very first fic (name tba no spoilers hehehe and is my baby. A very very special work in progress that I’m still working on and is long....)

Don’t forget to mention that...

Mine to hold close

The Perfect Hill (Gift) Just out of Reach, but Never out of Sight (JORNOS for short) Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 , Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11 , Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15 TBA

Treat spiders the way you want to be treated. Killed without hesitation.

My monster to Slay

Can we see the fireflies?

Amongst the Kelp, I found you in Hair- I mean There...

Lies and the Thieves That Try

To Fly Once More

Red Paint and Tiny Portraits (submitted on Faeiyns blog)

One Small Gift -A Christmas Fic

And the phone keeps ringing and ringing and ringing….

Patience is a Virtue and Trust is Earned- A continuation of One Small Gift

One Small Gift- Epilogue

Three Gifts, One Heart- A JORNOS Christmas Special

Non Fandom stories (OCs etc)

Dancing in your Hands

In the Hands of my Tormentor

Tooth be Told...

If any of the above links don’t work, they are all under the beckyu writes tag tag list NOTE: All my writing is sfw and noms free. I’m not comfortable writing noms despite reading/re-blogging the odd post. I tag all my fics accordingly and have content warnings before them as well. I stand by Human creators and I will not ever post any content used/made by AI. Just wanted to add that here :>

Submissions!!!

That’s one way to keep warm :D by @. local-squishmallow  ⚠️ sw vore Just Try Not to Crash (a Jornos fanfic) by @.munchkin1156 

Tiny houses!!

Tiny Bedroom

I have finished one! but I have many more I will finish in the future someday

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