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Over-the-phone job interview. #ssamovie #peopleofssa #winter #film #lgbtq #doc #byugay #documentary

“The complaint was the answer. To have heard myself making it was to be answered. [...] When the time comes to you at which you will be forced to at last utter the speech which has lain at the center of your soul for years, which you have, all that time, idiot-like, been saying over and over, you’ll not talk about the joy of words. I say well why the gods do not speak to us openly, nor let us answer. Till that word can be dug out of us, why should they hear the babble that we think we mean? How can they meet us face to face till we have faces?” The Queen Orual, from Till We Have Faces by C. S. Lewis #byu #usga #lgbt #lgbtq #gay #byugay #gayatbyu #queer #ssa #allies #lds #usgabyu #facesofusga #byuusga #usgaatbyu #TilWeHaveFaces #answer #help #give #grow #learn #god #prayer #spirituality #conference #lds (at BYU)

“Most of my freshman year was a nightmare. I was at Helaman Halls and I was alone and felt like I was always being watched and nothing I did was ever enough to fix myself. I finally came out to myself, and was disgusted with myself to such an extent that I believed myself to be a mistake in the eyes of God. But things slowly got better. In a moment of crisis, I called my best friend from high school and told her I thought I was gay. She almost laughed, as if to say, “Actually, that kind of makes sense,” and told me I was going to be okay, but that she had to go, and then she hung up. That was it. She wasn’t Mormon, she didn’t know the pressure of BYU or Helaman Halls, but she understood that I needed to hear somebody tell me that I was OK. It wasn’t a big deal to her, other than that it was a big deal to me. She texted me later that evening and after she checked in, we had a regular conversation about intramural soccer and homework. Like she didn’t love me any less for coming out to her, because she didn’t. Years later, I still struggle with being open and vulnerable with the people closest to me, and she may never completely understand how difficult being gay in the LDS Church can be, but I’m on my way. She wouldn’t know it, but that phone call became solid ground for me to stand on. I realized there could be people out there who could love me, even with all of my faults and flaws and weaknesses. Even further, I realized that being gay wasn’t a weakness. There are good people out there who will love you for who you are, sometimes even to the point of not understanding why or how you could be unhappy with yourself, and who will help you learn to love yourself they way they love you. You are worth feeling happy. You are loved. I am worth feeling happy. I am loved.” #byu #usga #lgbt #lgbtq #gay #byugay #gayatbyu #queer #ssa #allies #lds #usgabyu #facesofusga #byuusga #usgaatbyu #TilWeHaveFaces #HelamanHalls #freshmen #freshmanyear #friends #family #friendship #loved #YouAreLoved (at BYU)

☔️ #documentary #ssamovie #byugay #doc #film #lgbtq #lgbt #gay #movies #ssa (at Provo, Utah)

Post-interview afterglow. #peopleofssa #ssamovie #documentary #lgbt #lgbtq #doc #byugay #byu #film