#by ames

I am being dragged, coughing, to the center of a field that sprouts my mother’s favorite flower. Each of them comes out of the ground dying. Do you get it now? No matter how beautiful a child illustrates it, the actual heart is an ugly machine. A hideous chorus of chambers. It gets what it deserves.

Hanif Abdurraqib - "Lights Out Tonight, Trouble in the Heartland"

"you know you’ve been on tour too long when your phone just automatically connects to the wifi, and you look around, and there’s tags on the walls from multiple bands you’ve been in."

i knew you in another life; you had that same look in your eyes.

we're not alone. they can see us.

anxiously provoked by my ambition for greater potential i left the dream in a song as elements suddenly coated the aesthetic with crystals representing the elegance of this new composition

"Had I understood the message, then I think I would have thought about it, reflected on what it means, what the team wants me to do, to leave Mark [Webber] in first place and me finishing second. And I think I would have thought about it and probably done the same thing because Mark doesn't deserve [the victory]," [Sebastian Vettel] said. Pressed by Reuters on why he felt Webber, who had obeyed instructions to turn down the engine and look after the tyres, had not deserved to win, Vettel replied bluntly: "I don't like to talk ill of other people. It's not my style. I think I said enough. The bottom line is that I was racing, I was faster, I passed him, I won." The tone of the encounter was set from the first question enquiring of Vettel how he felt to be the 'bad guy' after previously being the 'good guy'. "I don't consider myself the bad guy," replied the 25-year-old, who said on Wednesday that he had apologised to the team after the race for his act of disobedience but not for winning. "I don't think I did something that was particularly bad."

(transitive, intransitive) to win; (transitive) to vanquish, to conquer, to defeat; (transitive) to overcome; (transitive) to control, to dominate.