( at least if i didn't feel anything, i wouldn't be left so confused over how i feel about YOU ) the thoughts that boomed within ricks mind, but saying them out loud was merely null and void. his heart and his head were so far apart in what they wanted ; heart yearning for the man opposing him, one simple kiss and it had left him practically falling at his feet and unable to stop thinking about him, and not for the reasons of pure HATRED that he had previously. while his head SCREAMED at him, told him to slap the smirk off his face, to grab the damn bat from his hand and pummel him with his own weapon and yet ... he couldn't move, he didn't even want to. head shook ever so slightly, gaze averting to the ground since he didn't want to look at negan, not when just his very presence was making the lump rise in his throat and sent a shiver tingling down his spine ; leaving him almost wishing for another moment of abrupt intimacy, something he should have felt ashamed of and boy, he sure as hell did.
❝ feelin' nothin' ... it would be so much EASIER. but this, i ---- ❞ all it took was one glance, one mistake in looking up towards him and instantly he became the submissive puppy all over again. heart raced, words stumbled, goosebumps littering every inch of his skin ; he couldn't shake it, couldn't shake HIM. ❝ ---- i mean ... don't work that way -- I KNOW. ❞
