#bvbquotes

“People may hate you for being different, and not living by society’s standards, but deep down, they wish they had the courage to do the same.”

I am really tired of all these medical issues I am in. If its not one thing its the other. I have the will to fight like a lion, ox, etc but sometimes its just I don't know to much. The pain and the agony every fucking day gets to someones psyche. I may present a precious as hell sweetness to everyone who is so caring and nice to me. Which I return the mood favor. I just really HATE being in pain. Hate got me in a pickle two years ago(Damn you Black Veil Brides you make me feel all warm and fuzzy potatoes inside now more than ever :"D). Hate is a strong word. I am just emotionally, physically, and mentally burned out and I am 23 years old. 

I am too young to have so many problems. It has made me appreciate life more and made me appreciate things I have in my life more so than the average 23 year old who is out partying. 

I pictured myself graduating college by now but that NEVER happened cause I had to be medically withdrawn from college for awhile back in 2011. Its now 2015 and I want to get back into some type of college but can't because of my fucking medical issues always get in the fucking way. 

i want to do so so much with my life but I can't. I am disabled. I live with my parents which I am very very fortunate and thankful for but even that is pain in the ass sometimes. But I never take having a roof over my head for grant cause their are people who don't have any means over their head. 

I can't get a normal 9-5 job. I have to get odd jobs. Thankfully I found mine through cleaning the elderly houses. 

I have just a lot of unneeded shit going on and bills(people who don't give a fuck about me all they want is my money).

In so much pain as I type this rant. All my in real life friends seem to not want me in their lives but act like they do. It ain't high school. i am done with their bullshit. So I have 0 in real life friends to go out and do things with. 

Just tired, stressed, and WANT SOME PEACE IN 2015. 

I will never give in, never back down though. Never. I made a promise to myself that I will NEVER have on single suicidal thought or anything. I haven't had one in two years. 

So proud of myself battling my inner demons and always coming out of it all. 

Rise up and celebrate your life-BVB

End of rant