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Ooooh dang, Wildfang.

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Up.IHCassis was the first song by the GazettE I have ever heard in November of 2007. I came across it quite randomly on Youtube. Since then, for the next nine and half years, the GazettE became my favorite band. Unwaveringly so. Always so.  Guren, on the other hand, came out in February of 2008. It was the first song the GazettE released after I had become their fan. Since then, it has consistently been in my top 3 favorite songs. When they announced the release date, I remember, as my 11 year old self, waiting day and night to hear new content. That specific sense of overjoy, anticipation and longing comes much rarely now when I’m 20. Yet in its rarity, the feeling still comes for the GazettE, for this Traces album. I had always been a fan of the bitter sweet feeling of nostalgia. I had saw them for the first time on their world tour last year in April. I am deeply happy that the GazettE decided to visit this feeling in their 15th anniversary. I honestly was going to wait until the entire album came out to listen to any, but alas I have very little self control when it is this tempting, as both Cassis and Guren have had extreme significance in my life. I have listened to both of these songs thousands of times over the years and have listened through every crevice of the song.

I was not sure what to expect from a ‘re-recorded’ version of their old songs, or how much they were going to change, or exactly how different it was going to sound. However, the first note of Cassis shook my heart deep deep. While I was fully expecting Aoi’s acoustic and Reita’s bass intro, I was instead hit with a soft piano with a slight change of note octaves and rhythm. Then the drums started and it was also a much more electronic sounding background. Ruki then started singing ever so softly. He ends his words and sentences in a way that slightly wavers, a sound less harsh than back in 2005. A gentle, more sensual voice. To be honest I didn’t come into this thinking I would cry like this. Maybe tear up a little here and there but instead I have large teardrops rolling down my face with furrowed brows in the utmost joy and pride and love. It got to the part in which he fixed his broken English from 2005. I laughed through my tears since Ruki’s english have become god-tier meme levels in the fandom, yet through fixing it, in a way, it seems like he had acknowledged such. I was mouthing words along up until this point when I was left absolutely dumbfounded and had no idea how to react to these new lyrics. It sounds very..strange and unfamiliar. Uruha’s guitar solo was also changed slightly, I really enjoyed these very subtle changes that results in only one or two notes being different than the original. While most people would be dismissive of these changes, as pretentious as I may be, I feel special in thinking that they’re like easter eggs for me. At the end of the song I’m tears and snots and ugly crying and theres no return in it. The moment that the song ended, it means that the first song I ever heard by the GazettE was Cassis 2005, and the last song I ever heard by the GazettE was Cassis 2017 as of that point, and thinking of how the boys and their image and sound grew over these years was astounding and mind blowing, and the fact that I was alongside the evolution every step along the way warmed me from the inside. I can’t quite tell you which version I like more. I feel like quite obviously I’m going to prefer the old version of the song because it is literally one of the OG classic GazettE songs with Ruki’s signature bad English, but the new version has its own charms.  

So then I started listening to Guren. In the first sentence when Ruki sings “Ato sukoshi”, he dragged his voice just a little bit compared to the original. Instead of “ato sukoshi--” it was like a “ato sukoshi~” and I literally had to pause the song, chill for a second, and replay it. I really am not sure why I was so crazy about that little “ii” sound change but I literally drew a short breath into a gasp when I heard it. I think Guren stayed largely the same throughout. Near the beginning, I think Aoi’s part, became a higher, single repeating noted harmony. The two separate instances of change in lyrical melody before the solo were both already heard before, one in DIM’s recording of Guren, and one in the Guren performed in Dim Scene. Up until this point I had stayed dry-eyed within Guren. The change of that short sentence near the end came as a complete shock. When the pitch started going higher, my jaw dropped and so did tears from my eyes. The longer note at the end of that sentence pierced me and I, quite literally, felt my heart clinch. I don’t quite know why I was so absolutely shocked but wow it was an addition to the song. I loved it. I truly did not think there was any room to go up in this song. I have loved it for a solid 9 years and I thought it was the pinnacle of any music literally ever and here I am being stunned time after time by the GazettE.  In their earlier days, words/things that remind me of their sound could be: experimental, fickle, a blank optimism, angst, a longing to change the world, hesitation, hope, the color light green, shielding your eyes from very bright sunlight under a blue sky, and youth. Now, things that remind me of their sound could be: experience, grounded, neon signs, a laughter that you tried to hide but failed, professionalism, maturity, fingertips through strands of hair, passion, unwavering, soft cologne, bittersweet. Im not quite sure why they remind me of what they remind me. Maybe its a reflection of myself, of the growth I see in their evolution. 

old old oldddd video I know

unfortunately I just watched this for the first time after finishing this fic (READ IT one of my fav fics actually) but I’m not going to ramble about others except for my 2jae of course honestly what do you expect from a 2jae trash ?

nothing outstanding actually except for them sitting beside each other , glancing and JB supporting Youngjae when he’s super nervous hands JB behaveee