wooyoung but it's actually really personal and i hope no one reads this. (tw: subtle mentions of ed, sh & him inflicting pain on you. nothing bad, mostly comfort)
wooyoung that fucks you slow through the tears, doesn't shushes the cries that wreck your lips. who knows that no amount of comfort will put a halt on the torment of your heart. all he can do is make you feel alive for a while.
wooyoung that shares his cigarette with you, pushing your head down to his lap until the sleepiness hits you. who bends down and kisses your lips, trapping the sour smoke between your mouth until you swallow. 'all the way' and wait until you spit it on his face. he wants you dizzy, forgetful.
wooyoung that doesn't know what hurts you so bad. he wants to know, but he'll never ask.
wooyoung that burns you with the lighter when you ask, even if it makes him sick, even when the sound of your skin searing against the hot metal makes him squirm. because he knows your blood flows again.
wooyoung who bites down your tongue until you cry because it's better than being in pain, he rather hurt you himself. at least he can measure it.
wooyoung that watches you get violently drunk, lightheaded. who sees the tears roll down your face and all he does is place you in his lap and let you scream onto his chest.
wooyoung who understands your pain, kneels down to rub your hands. thumb caressing your ringed fingers, all his. wooyoung who kisses your palms until you are okay.
wooyoung who bites you until you say it's enough, it's enough pain to feel cloudy. who leaves his mark.
wooyoung who occasionally dances with you in the living room, swaying your body with his strength. 'it's good for you to move' even though you can't even feel your body.
wooyoung who nurses food into your mouth and makes sure you aren't looking too long in the mirror again. who stares at the way you wrap your fingers over your wrists. who can smell the sulfur in your mouth.
wooyoung who now waits outside the bathroom for you. specially after you eat.
wooyoung who cleans your body, hair and teeth without being asked to.
wooyoung who wishes one day you'll get better.
