#bun rant

Man I really do like Amar ia. I like her really because I didn’t want her to be a victim, depressed and kind, some kind of romanticized version of mental illness. Sometimes it twists your life in disgusting ways. That’s why I don’t like people telling me how great I am. I know I always mean well to others and I accept that. I am a little wise but, people who know me personally know I’m just not the best person. Amy was really kind and friendly, that’s not fake. But there are terribly toxic parts of her that she let’s fester.. Which.. i unfortunately do. people probably think less about me everytime I make these posts, even if you say you don’t. But that’s how it is.

this spring break i accomplished nothing thanks to anxiety and depressed feelings