#buffyconfessions

With the 20 year BTVS reunion(my Buffy reunion-craving heart thanks EW for this!!), there are ship-wars going on: Bangel or Spuffy..while it is so blatantly clear that the cast (namely Sarah,David and James) believes that Angel is Buffy’s one, there are theories by fans everywhere on how Spike’s love is real..it is deep..their love is mature…Buffy & Angel was just puppy love..

Let’s break it down..Spike and Buffy’s relationship was unhealthy from the start (even Joss said this)..although he loves her, she used him..she just wanted to feel something..but because she’s not a soulless being,spending time with Spike and seeing his love for her naturally made her feel something for him..sadly, she knew that was it;she had feelings for him..it couldn’t be more than that..when she finally comes to her senses and see the whole Spike thing is not good,she ends it..

After that Spike tried to rape her which pisses me off!!..in my opinion,NOTHING JUSTIFIES HIM RAPING BUFFY!!…NOTHING anyone says will make it okay!..but what I felt came through in this episode was finally letting us see that this is why Buffy could never love Spike..he has a darkness in him that naturally as a demon, he will act on his violent urges..now,ppl may argue Angel has a darkness(Angelus) too but the soul allowed him control..we all know that Buffy will never let Angelus in therefore same logic applies to Spike…she knows she should not have done it with Spike and she realises this in an earlier ep when she confesses to Tara and breaks down..it devastates her because she knows it’s wrong..this is not how she should behave..

Shocked by his act of trying to rape Buffy,he went to go and get a soul..I know this is all swoon worthy that he did all that for her..he fought for his soul back so she could take him back..and Spuffy fans were all upset that in the ep ‘Beneath You’ I think,at the end,Spike asked Buffy to stay but she didn’t..look, the very last time they met,he tried to rape her people!!…it doesn’t just go away just because he got his soul back…it doesn’t make it ok!..you cannot expect her to just go la-la-la and say 'ok Spike,I’ll stay"..the attempted rape changed everything for them..

However, Buffy being the awesome,forgiving woman that she is who believes that everyone deserves a 2nd chance and that you don’t just give up on someone, opens up to Spike and mend whatever that’s left of them.Now by this time I dare say that Buffy really tried to patch things with him..She starts trusting him and she believes in him..she begins to care about him..by this time, even I felt that hey…maybe Buffy could have more than just feelings for him after all..then End of Days happened and Angel came..and I totally agree with James on this..this episode did show that Buffy was still very much in love with Angel..that even though it was 4 years after they break up,Buffy still sees him in her future..this feeling of building a life with him never left despite breaking up..

Ppl say Angel wasn’t there for all the important milestones but Spike was so Spike knows Buffy better..he knows the woman she’s become..I agree…Spike knows Buffy;the slayer…the fighter..the sister..the friend..the protector…the darkness she has in her..her pain..I attest he knew these parts of her soo well…but Angel knew Buffy the slayer…the fighter..the sister..the friend..the protector…the darkness…her pain and also the girl..he knew her dreams,her heart,her soul,her likes and dislikes,her moods,her thoughts,her insecurities..he knew Buffy Anne Summers…both slayer and just the girl..I think even we forget that although she is the Slayer,defender of human kind against forces of darkness,trusted friend and big sister,Buffy is so much more than that…and Angel has seen and felt soo many parts of her that Spike probably never could..

My take is that at the period Buffy was in,she needed a Spike..That time in her life Spike showed her a part of herself she has yet to dicover..it was like a period she had to go through..similarly with Angel and Riley…she goes through life and at that period in her life it was time for an Angel, a Spike or Riley..

Now, the irony of it all to me,it seems that Angel and Buffy’s relationship was the strongest of all..

1.Their love is unconditional. No matter what they did, their past, their flaws and shorcomings..it doesn’t matter..there is nothing the other do that will ever diminish the love they have for each other..

2.They have respect for each other.While it is so beautiful to see them together, they understand and know that they are their own person..overtime, he understands that there are parts of her life he can’t be a part of..and she knows that he has his own demons that he needs to face on his own..but at the end of the day,both know that if one needs the other,they’ll come running..

3.Sacrifice.They would kill and die for each other..this has been proven soo many times in the show…when one is in danger, they will fight to save the other..even if it means taking their own life or each others’..they know that in the grander scale of things,they are warriors and champions first..

4.True happiness.Buffy is Angel’s and I thought it was just sex that made Angel that way but soon realised that true happiness is soo rare..it is Buffy that made him that way..Buffy and Angel are so open to each other,there were no inhibitions, no walls..in the literal sense, they gave each other everything that night..their heart,body and soul..that night, there was no doubt,no halfway..they gave their all to each other..

5. It was never over between them and it never will be.After years apart,they still see want to build a life together..after its all done and they wanna settle,they see each other..theirs is a forever love..

The list could go on forever but these 5 pretty much says why Bangel rock!!…