This is for @longknj , I was your BTS Secret Santa from @bts-secret-santa . I hope you enjoy the story and that you had a wonderful Christmas and very Happy New Year. Also, I apologies for it being late, I got sick over Christmas, it took all my energy and I wanted this to be perfect!Â
Dread filled him as he saw the text message sent from his manager. This couldnât be happening, he thought to himself. He had already given his promise and now he would be forced to break it. Granted this wasnât really his fault, he had no control over when the company decided to add an extra show or interview to BTSâ already busy schedule. With their popularity rising, they had to do all they could right now to satisfy the fans hunger for them at the moment. There was no way to know when it would subside and a new group would take their place.
 Still, this sucked and he had no other way to describe it.
 âHoseok? Hey, are you paying attention?â
 With a quick shake of his head, he looked over at Namjoon. âIâm sorry, what?â he asked.
 âI was asking if you got the text message about the new dates.â Namjoon said. âBut you kind of looked like youâd seen a ghost. Are you okay?â
 âI thought we were promised to have Christmas time off.â Came the slightly annoyed response.
 A bit surprised at the tone, Namjoon gave a small shrug. âWell with all the recognition the group is getting, more shows are wanting us to perform.â He gave a smile. âThatâs a good thing, though. All our hard work is paying off.â
 âI made plans for this time already.â
 âIâm sure your family will understand. I have to tell mine the same thing, that I wonât be able to see them for Christmas. As will the other guys, not just you.â
 âIt isnât my family I have to tell.â
 A frown touched Namjoonâs face. âWho else would youâŚ. Oh.â His eyes widened at the realization. âOh! I didnât know it had gotten that serious with her. Is it really?â
 âKind ofâŚâ Hoseok said as he rubbed his forehead. âThis time off, I was going to find out for sure. Now I doubt that will even happen. She probably wonât want to see me after this.â
 âThen she isnâtâŚâ
 He waved his hands at Namjoon. âNo, no, it isnât like that. Sheâs been very understanding with me and my career. More so then I have ever seen. Itâs just⌠she asked me to never make a promise I couldnât keep. I havenât made her any promises because I couldnât count on keeping them for sure. And the one time I was so sure Iâd be able to keep it, I made the promise with all my heart.â
 Namjoon noticed the way Hoseok lit up as he spoke only to grow sad once again. While some only saw him as JHope, Armyâs Hope and BTSâ eternal sunshine, Namjoon knew better. He knew that Hoseok was just really good with his feelings and kept them hidden well. And when heâd met this girl, he thought that maybe his friend would be able to relax a little, not have to always be on so to speak.
 âTalk to her.â
 âEasy for you to say,â he muttered as he stared at the text message again.
 ~Later~
âJagi, I am really sorry,â Hoseok said into the phone.
 âItâs fine.â Her voice was soft and calm.
 That should have comforted him, but instead it made him panic.
 âI honestly had no idea theyâd do this,â he said in a rush. âThey just told us all today!â
 âYou donât have to shout, Hobi,â she said softly.
 He sighed heavily, his shoulders slumped forward as he sat in the chair. He was alone in the living room; the rest of the members had left to give him some time alone for this call. Tears filled his eyes as he heard her say she understood.
 How could she? Heâd broken the first promise heâd ever given to her! This wasnât right, he was horrible at these things called relationships. He should just accept the fact sheâd never want to see him again and be done with it. Heâd grow old with Yoongi and thatâd be that. Well, heâd probably have to deal with Jin at some point, but at least heâd always eat well.
 âHobi? Are you still there?â
 âYes, yes Iâm sorry. I know I messed up, but I will make it up to you.â He said. âPlease give me a second chance at least.â
 âThere is no need, this wasnât your fault,â she said in an attempt to placate him. âThis was out of your control. I know that. We can plan something together next week.â
 âReally?â he said, his emotions shot right up with happiness. âThat would be amazing. I do want to see you as soon as possible. Maybe we can take a day trip somewhere.â
 Her soft chuckle made him feel calmer then heâd felt all afternoon. âYeah, that sounds like fun.â
 Hoseok grinned as he pulled his cell from his hear, hitting the speaker button as he did. âY/n, I have you on speaker. I'm going to put your name on in my calendar. That way if anyone asks, I know it is a no.â
 âYou are so silly sometimes, Hobi,â she said with a chuckle again.
 He smiled again, even though she couldnât see it. She had this way to make him feel so calm, nervous and happy all at once. This was all new for him, so naturally, he was terrified of screwing something up. With his career, relationships in general were tough. Even more so when they have to remain secret. Yet she had been a trooper through all this. She didnât complain when he couldnât come see her or when he was out of the country on tour had limited time to talk.
 He didnât want to lose this one. He had a feel she was the one!
 As he thought all this, he looked through his calendar. His heart sank as he saw that once again, he was booked solid. The end of the year, why did he think he could have some time alone with her when it was the end of the year?
 âJagi?â
 âYes?â
 A heavy sigh slipped out. âMaybe we can see each other the weekend after next?â he whispered, his tone a mixture of sadness and hopefulness.
 âOhâŚâ she said softly, the first sign of sadness sheâd expressed during the conversation. âYeah, sure. Just let me know. Um⌠I have to go now; my lunch time is almost over.â
 âI understand,â he replied. Boy did he ever.
 As they said their goodbyes and hung up, he leaned his head back against the wall. Why did things have to be so tough sometimes, he wondered. He was a young man; did he really have to choose between his career and his happiness? Was that how life was going to be? Couldnât he have both? Heâd worked so hard for this, but did that mean this would be his only love in life?
 Christmas Eve
 Hoseok was sitting on stage, his bright smile slapped onto his face. Here he was JHope and he represented BTS with the other guys to perfection. No one saw the war going on inside. No one caught the fleeting sadness that passed through his eyes. No one could tell he felt a horrible, gut wrenching sadness as he spoke about the amazing year the group had or what hopes they had for the new year.
 Well, no one expect his brothers in the group. Suga had been passing him things all morning; a bottle of water, a cookie, a piece of candy that he had no idea what kind it was. Jin had almost tried to force feed him breakfast this morning when heâd only picked at it. Jimin, the worrier he was, had teamed up with Taehyung and both were constantly giving him hugs or pats of affections. Around the time they were getting their hair and makeup done for the show, Jungkook had realized he hadnât been his normal upbeat self, thatâs when he tried to make him laugh with some sort of new expressions heâd been practicing on.
 Hoseok couldnât help but to be thankful for each and everyone of them. They had done their best, however it still hurt not to see her when he had wanted nothing more.
 âThe guys are starting to worry,â Namjoon said as they walked off stage to get ready for their performance.
 âI know, I heard Jin say heâd tie me to a chair at lunch if I refused to eat like this morning,â he muttered to the leader. âIâm doing my best though.â
 Namjoon nodded his head. âI know you are. Come on, letâs get through this performance and we can go back home.â
 With a nod, he headed with him to the dressing room. As he entered ahead of Namjoon, he noticed the strange way the other members suddenly turned to them, huddled together. A look of surprise filled their eyes, as if they hadnât expected to see him. He had to get ready for the performance just like themâŚ
 âWhatâs going on?â Hoseok asked confused.
âNothing, Hyung,â Jimin said a little too quickly.
 âWhy do you think somethings going on?â Jin asked at the same time, that windshield style laugh of nervousness slipped out.
 âBecause you guys are standing together, facing me, with surprised looks on your face,â he pointed out then watched as they all started to smile. âAnd now you all have strange smiles on your face.â
 âCanât fool you, Hoseok-hyung,â Jungkook said with a chuckle. He glanced at the others for help, as if he had no idea what to actually say to him.
 Yet the others seemed as lost as the youngest member. That really made him wonder. What could possibly be going on? He hadnât been that much out of it, had he? No way, Namjoon would have said it was worse earlier and not just the guys were starting to worry.
 With his brows brought together in confusion, he looked at each one of them. âAre you not going to tell me whatâs going on?â
 âWe know youâve been sad because you canât see Y/N,â Taehyung said, a soft smile on his face. âSo, we thought weâd give you a little surprise.â
 Hoseok look confused until the members stepped aside to see a giant bear behind them. He was just like any teddy bear, but with a red bow tie around his neck. It might have seemed strange, but for the fact he had gotten a smaller version of the same bear for Y/N for their⌠was it their anniversary? Could he call it that? They had known each other at least for six months when he gave it to her. That could be an anniversary⌠right?
 âWe helped her get this sent to you for Christmas,â Jin explained. âNot easy lugging this giant around.â His thumb pointed at the bear.
 âYeah,â Jimin said with a laugh. âY/N told us it had to be this one. She sent every single one of us photos too. She said it had to match the one you got her a few months back. We thought this one should have a blue bow instead, you know to be a little different, but she insisted that it have a red one like hers.â
 A small smile touched his face, âThanks guys. Thatâs really sweet of you all.â
 âDid they already give you the bear? I told them to wait for me.â
 With a snap of his head, Hoseok turned to the door behind him to see Y/N there. She smiled brightly as she saw him. He blinked, quite certain he that he was in a dream. He hadnât heard her walk up, though from the grin on Namjoonâs face, he had known. But she hadnât told him she would be here! They talked last night and he would have remembered that part of the conversation.
 âI guess they just canât keep a secret, huh?â she asked, while the guys chuckled.
 âWhat⌠HowâŚ. WhenâŚâ he stuttered about confused.
 âYou were sad we couldnât see each other like you promised, so Joonie thought it would be a great for me to come surprise you today. Since I thought it was brilliant idea, here I am. Surprise!â
 With a grin, he rushed to pull her into his arms and hugged her tightly. With a laugh, she wrapped her arms around his neck to hug him back, all the while the others made awws and laughed.
 âOkay⌠okay⌠I know you missed her, but we do still have a performance to do,â Namjoon spoke up, the voice of reason once more.
 Hoseok pulled back. âRight, I do. But youâre not going anywhere right? Youâll be here once I finish on stage?â
 Y/N gave a shake of her head. âNope, I am here to celebrate Christmas with you. Youâre stuck with me.â The smile he loved settled on her lips as they stared into each otherâs eyes.
 âI can live with that,â he said, his own bright smile came out for real, unlike the interview.
 âGood,â she said giving him a gentle kiss. âMerry Christmas, Hoseok-oppa.â
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(This is kinda awkward coming off of anon Iâm nervous) Hiya Iâm your btsecretsanta! My name is Tanya and it was really fun being your secret Santa. Itâs kinda awkward because I know things about you but Iâm like a complete stranger. So Iâll tell you a nickname of mine itâs TaTa. Itâs Christmas where I am (u.k.) so Merry Christmas!!!! And Iâm gonna post your gift now so you might see the gift first before this message. So I hope you like it and I tried to make it match the convos with tae! đđđ
omg there is no need to be nervous haha itâs nice to finally put a name to the face that made me blush all the damn time!! and itâs finally christmas here (u.s) so merry christmas đđđ(also i just replied to your other msg like two seconds ago lol)
Enjoy your break and your vacation and your holidays Teejae, I hope you have a really good and relaxing holiday season. I'm excited for the reveal, I hope you like me. Merry Christmas! -hlnss
you are literally the sweetest omg!! i hope the rest of 2017 is great to you; and of course i will like you ;) (also Iâm on mobile so i canât tag this)
Hey tomorrowâs Christmas which means today is this last day. But donât worry youâll always be in my memories and most importantly in my heart. Make sure you travel safely today and enjoy your vacation. Iâll speak soon sunshine- You Tae đđđ (I hope youâre excited to find out who I am!)
merry christmas eve đđđ ; this went by so fast though?? but i am curious to know who you are !! i have had a great time talking to you. aww you remembered :)) and we will travel safely and I will do my hardest to enjoy my vacation.
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Youâre one smooth talker Teejae but shouldnât you be on top of the Christmas tree, Angel! ;) No but seriously can I take a picture of you so I can show Santa exactly what I want this year. Haha Iâm blushing at myself. Also your vacation sounds lovely. Make sure you rest and take care of yourself. Sending you warm hugs- Your Taeđ
I am making this stuff up as I go but I am glad that you like what iâm saying ;) but that line was super cheesy and I will not let you forget it lol and I havenât seen my dad in a while, so it will be nice to see him and my little brother; and I will take care of myself for you :))
Hi, I hope you are well. A vacation that sounds nice. Are you going somewhere nice? If youâre leaving on Sunday and Christmas is on Monday will you see my present that I have made for you? Itâs something really special. And even though Hobi hyung is my sunshine you are as well. Iâll talk soon sunshine-Your Tae đ
well i have been lucky because the weather where i live has been pretty nice, but where i am going (atlanta, georgia) has like great weather all year round so yea you can say itâs nice haha. and youâre giving me a present, but your existence itself is a gift. *finger guns* (ďžâăŽâ)ďž*â§đâ¨đâ§t
I would never forget about you! I was just getting some rest but you were always in my mind. I think I will write a song actually maybe it could be about a beautiful girl called Teejae? The title could be âMy sunshineâ. Are you excited for Christmas? I can hear the sleigh bells ringing! And what are you designing on photoshop? Iâm intrigued. Till next time- Your Taeđ
well i canât tell you what i am working on,,,, it is a surprise :)) and i am glad that you are getting rest; your health and the health of the other members is important to me. my sunshine?? o mg i am pretty sure people would think that song would be about jhope and not me haha and I am going on a vacation actually !! i leave sunday and come back a few days after new years. it is nice spending time with family but it would be just as nice to spend it with someone special.