can we go see tomori. can we be kind. she did the best she could.
Maeda, narrating - ā¦Jesus, Tomori.
Maeda - I mean- the whole trial.
Maeda - While we were laying into Tsurugi and Uehara- she just stood there, and said nothing. And she knew.
Maeda - Butā¦ for her friends? Seriously? I mean- I know how hard this has to have been on herā¦ all for them?
//She startles, but doesnāt look at Maeda- actually, she turns away from him.
Maeda - Iā¦ donāt actually think sheāll talk to me.
Maeda - But I donāt know when else Iāll get to talk with them.
Maeda - You and Tsurugi woke up together, right?
Maeda - ā¦Did he remind you of someone you knew back home, orā¦?
//One faint sob chokes out.
Tomori - ā¦It was so stupid.
Tomori - He felt safe. I didnāt know what was happening, and he didnāt either, but he didnāt seem scared at all.
Tomori - Usually, I take charge, and I felt fine to do that here, too- so it was nice.
Tomori - I didnāt feel like I had to drag him along, or anything. No- assuaging his fears.Ā
Maeda - ā¦Right. Youāre captain of your hometownās cheer squad, right?
Tomori - Co-captain. But yeah, the others all listened to me, mostly.
//Her voice catches, as she finally turns her head- though she stays angled away from him, looking back over her shoulder.
Tomori - ā¦I donāt feel bad.
Tomori - I donātā¦ I didnāt like what Hatano was saying.
Tomori - I can make my own choices. And I stand with Tsurugi and Uehara.
Tomori - ā¦I want the group to stay together. But Iām not going to compromise my morals for that.
Tomori - Iām choosing my friends. I was right to choose Tsurugi and Uehara to be closest to. Iā¦ honestly?
Tomori - If I was in the situation they were in, Iād have done the exact same thing.Ā
Maeda - Are you saying this because you think Iām upset with them?
Tomori - ā¦I think youāre upset with them, yeah- and me.
Tomori - Iāll let them decide what they want to share. It isnāt my- my problem to deal with.
Tomori - But I want to make it clear.Ā
Tomori - Iām here for a reason. I was scouted for a reason. I recruited half of my teammates. I came up with the idea to hang out in the rec room.Ā
Tomori - Honestly, I reallyā¦ donāt care that Uehara killed Higa.Ā
Tomori - You kind of felt the same, right? You didnāt disagree when people made the point about how we should try to solve Iranamiās death.Ā
Tomori - Youāre upset because of the trial, and how it played out.
Tomori - But Ueharaās- about to die, Maeda.
Tomori - Do you- do you remember, when the three of us were in Tsurugiās dorm room?
Maeda - I donāt like this conversation.
Tomori - ā¦When I got upset, and started to cry. Because I was thinking about the execution.
Tomori - The difference between me and Tsurugi is that I didnāt believe Tsurugi could find a way out of this- do not tell him I said that.
Tomori - Maeda, I was thinking about Uehara. I was upset over his execution.
Tomori - And Uehara was the one who comforted me. Uehara told me not to be scared.
Tomori - He told me- that I was safe, that he didnāt think anything would happen to me, and he- he talked about the choices that we make, and how to cope when things were decided for us.Ā
Tomori - And we talked about inevitability, and- and being powerless.Ā
Tomori - He acted like everything was okay, because we made good choices where we could.
Tomori - But what does that matter, Maeda. Heās still going to die.
Tomori - If Tsurugi hadnāt played, if heād let Uehara confess- would things have been different? Would Uehara not be about to die?
Tomori - No. Theyād be exactly the same.
Tomori - Maeda, whatā¦ what does it matter?
Tomori - Uehara is going to die.Ā
Tomori - He has two sisters, and two brothers. Heās in the middle of his siblings. Heās homeless, and he has a rosary, and a bible.Ā
Tomori - When we were at the pool, he mentioned that heās worried his made to fade tattoos are going to scar. Thereās flowers on his boots that he painted on himself.Ā
Tomori - Uehara has a really good singing voice. He has stretch marks all over, but theyāre the worst behind his knees, and at the joints between his arms and his torso.
Tomori - He had plans for when he was an adult. He had hobbies, and interests. He brought Tsurugi an apple this morning, and cut pieces off for everyone. He wanted to be friends with you, and heās had a headache all day.
//For a moment, it seemed like Tomori was going to cry. But before she finished speaking, the tears in her eyes went away.Ā
Tomori, firmly - I donāt care about the other deaths. I cared about those people, and about everyone living- but oh my god.Ā
Tomori - I kind of hope they donāt tell you what happened. I donāt think you need to know.
Tomori - Nobody needs to know. It doesnāt matter.
Tomori - Ueharaās going to die. Iāll have Tsurugi, and heāll have me, and weāll be stuck in here together.
Tomori - We could escape tomorrow. Someone could explode the school open.
Tomori - I donāt care.Ā
Maeda - ā¦Sorryā¦ whatās the point of all this?
Maeda - Iām not- Iām not upset youā¦ told me.. Uhmā¦
Maeda - What am I supposed to do with this information? I donāt- I donāt think Tomoriās going to kill anyone, but-
Tomori - ā¦There isnāt a point, Maeda.
Tomori - I hope youāre doing well.
Tomori - I hope you didnāt get- especially traumatized. I hope youāre holding on okay.
Tomori - I canāt say anything thatād make you feel better, if not. You arenāt going to see me the same.
//She never turned to face him.
Tomori - ā¦I shouldnāt act like I have any power here.
Tomori - If I had the ability to save us all, Iād have done that by now. But I canāt. So why act like it? Why try to help?
Tomori - And, I hope this isnāt affecting you. Really.
Tomori - Come to your own conclusions. You didnāt get close to Uehara. If you can stay happy, then thatās great. If you donāt care about what Iāve had to say, then thatās great.
Tomori - ā¦Really. It doesnāt matter.
Maeda - ā¦Iām sorry, Tomori.
Tomori - Thereās nothing you could say.
Tomori - ā¦A situation like this is unnatural. Life shouldnātā¦ be like this.Ā
Tomori - I donāt think humans are meant to understand a world where this could happen. I mean-
Tomori - All I really care about is Tsurugi and Uehara.
Tomori - And, likeā¦ I want to go home. I want to see my mom, and my sister again. I would do anything.
Tomori - But this is soā¦ directly cruel. I canāt even wrap my head around it. Kidnapping us? Torturing us? Taking fifteen people, and treating them like this?
Tomori - Who even cares what happens. Life shouldnāt ever be like this.Ā
Tomori - Soā¦ I guess the things that happen here just donāt matter.
Maeda - How do you feelā¦ about what Uehara said? Do you thinkā¦ you could get out of here okay?
//She turns, facing him. Her head is tilted down, but her gaze meets his eye, as she looks out from under her bangs.
Tomori - Honestly, Maeda. I donāt think either of us are going to.Ā
Tomori - I could make my guesses about the others, but I donāt think my thoughts on them matter, at all. Weāre the only two in this conversation, so itās only about our fates.
Tomori - You and I are both going to die.Ā
Tomori - Hey- could you do something for me though?
Maeda - Please. Donāt ask me to kill someone donāt ask me to kill you donāt ask me to kill myself. Please.
Tomori - ā¦If Iām wrongā¦ letās act like this didnāt happen.
Tomori - Donāt keep me from going home. Let me be like this here, and let me be someone else outside.
Tomori - ā¦Maybe thatās why I feel so hopeless. Maybeā¦ I canāt feel like this, and be outside. If I escaped, Iād feel differentlyā¦
Tomori - Do you think youāve grown, Maeda? As a person- since you got here?
Maeda - Iā¦ I donāt know, Iā¦-
Tomori - I think Iāve been changed for the better.
Tomori - I think Iāve grown a lot.
Tomori - Iām just never gonna get the chance to show it.
Tomori - I wanna go sit with my friends now.
Tomori - Maybe Iāll talk with you later, Maeda. Iā¦ kind of donāt want to talk with you if Tsurugiās around, though. And I donāt know if Iāll want to be away from him.Ā
Tomori - So, weāll see.
Maeda, narrating - Holy fuckkkkk.
Maeda - I donāt. ā¦Okay.
Maeda - Iād really rather remember the- the conversation with Uehara and Tomori. The one she mentionedā¦
Maeda - Actually, thinking back to investigation makes me feel really sick.
Maeda - Ueharaāsā¦ changed so much, hasnāt he?
Maeda - Iā¦donāt think thereās anything else for me to do now, actuallyā¦
{Talk with Tsurugi and Uehara}
