#brightnessnavani

gavilarkholin Yes. I just wanted to clear everything up. While it is slightly scandalous, I think it’s good that you’re with my brother. He does seem to make you happy.

brightnessnavani I see. About what? Ah. That. Yes. He does.

brightnessnavani Although I fear that this may cause Dalinar to be..a little self conscious now.

gavilarkholin That’s good. You deserve better than what I gave you. Hopefully not. I’ll try and see to it that things remain as they are.

brightnessnavani As far as he’s concerned, we had a happy marriage

gavilarkholin That was when he had his youthful ignorance. Though that idea won’t change unless we tell him the truth.

brightnessnavani And we had ours. Ah yes. I will be talking to him about it. Gavilar. We didn’t even sleep in the same room.

gavilarkholin I think that’s a good idea. …I’m aware. That is information he deserves, being your husband now.

brightnessnavani Yes. He does.

gavilarkholin I’m truly sorry, Navani. I didn’t treat you well.

brightnessnavani We didn’t treat each other well. I became indifferent to you.

gavilarkholin And I never communicated well with you. I shut you off to things and left you confused and hurt. That is not how a husband should be.

brightnessnavani I’m not sure we could call ourselves husband and wife. We were really more like political acquaintances

gavilarkholin You’re right. That’s precisely what it was. I’m just happy that things have improved for you.

brightnessnavani Yes. Are you hurt at all by this Gavilar? Do you care at all?

gavilarkholin At first I was shocked. But I considered it, and I think that’s it’s a good thing. Don’t get me wrong, Navani. I love you dearly. I just don’t think that it’s the same way my brother does.

brightnessnavani No. It’s very much different. I could never love you the way I love Dalinar. I shouldn’t have married you.

gavilarkholin And I can’t love you the way I should have. But I /do/ care for you. I always will. You’re very dear to me, and so is my brother.

brightnessnavani You’re very dear to me also. You are the father of my children. I told you things I never told Dalinar

gavilarkholin I hope that we’ll be able to remain that close. It should be easier now that we don’t have the stress of marriage.

brightnessnavani Truly. I want you to be happy also. Which means being honest with yourself.

gavilarkholin I think… that I am now. Finally. It took me a very long time.

brightnessnavani I knew the entire time. You realize that? But please realize, that there are much more attractive men around here than Sadeas.

gavilarkholin Well… he /was/ quite attractive when he was younger.

brightnessnavani Gavilar. He’s awful now. You don’t understand. He almost killed Dalinar.

gavilarkholin I… I know. We discussed that yesterday. That is something I will never forgive him for. And I’m attempting to keep my distance. I’ll be trying to forget my feelings for him. I have to face that things are not the same anymore.

brightnessnavani That would be wise, love. Have you ever…looked into Hrathen?

gavilarkholin I… have not heard of him, no.

brightnessnavani Hm.

gavilarkholin My scribe seems to know him.

brightnessnavani Oh darling, I should warn you. Amaram is married now Your scribe? Darling, we are going to have to teach you how to read.

gavilarkholin Yes. She’s … an excitable young lady. But she’s transferring what I want to say accurately, I hope, so it’s all I have. I see. And it isn’t Jasnah, if I’m seeing your implication correctly.

brightnessnavani No. It’s a rather disgusting young woman. Jasnah was never really one for relationships. Oh. We have a grandson.

gavilarkholin … Sometimes I forget how old that I am.

brightnessnavani Please don’t bring it up. My hair is graying thinking about it Gavilar. We need to stop this.

gavilarkholin Stop what?

brightnessnavani We are doing it again. Brushing off our relationship. We need to talk. Not hesitantly touch the beast then run away. We are not cowards.

gavilarkholin …Ah. What I said was truthful though, Navani. This is for the best.

brightnessnavani We can’t do this anymore. It is. But we need to talk about how none of it was real. Except for the parenting part.

gavilarkholin We were more political allies than a couple, as you said. What is there to discuss?

brightnessnavani The fact that you couldn’t talk to me? The affairs. The different rooms. Gavilar you didn’t even cry once in our friendship

gavilarkholin I tend to have a problem with communication. Which caused issues for us, and I’m sorry about that.

brightnessnavani I hate that you didn’t feel like you could talk to me.

gavilarkholin There were things that I couldn’t even admit to myself back then, dear. I think if I was willing to do that then I would’ve been able to relay more to you.

brightnessnavani You should have comfortable around me, love. Been comfortable*

gavilarkholin I was. For the most part. But it was impossible for me to be when I wasn’t even comfortable with myself.

brightnessnavani That saddens me. You were one of the most confident people I knew. Well.. you still /are/.

gavilarkholin I am. And I’ve finally faced things about myself now. It will be different.

brightnessnavani I love how blue your eyes are.

brightlordkholin I love how sweet your smile is.

brightnessnavani It is hardly as sweet as yours.

brightlordkholin My men have had no luck locating Sadeas.

brightnessnavani You would think that they would have by now, considering how he literally smells like he was the test subject for a perfume factory.

brightlordkholin He must have outside help.

brightnessnavani Oh. I’m sure of it. I’m not sure what to do, other than going to find him myself. He is probably in his summer house he built in Kholinar.

brightlordkholin Possibly.

brightnessnavani Can I borrow your shardblade?

brightlordkholin You’ll have to ask him.

brightnessnavani Ah yes. Perhaps I will just borrow Elhokar’s.

brightnessnavani I believe this is an act of treason on Sadeas’ part. Which could be punishable by death.

brightlordkholin I agree.

brightnessnavani I am more disgusted than saddened by this. Does that make me an awful person?

brightlordkholin I don’t believe so. Gavilar has moved on; the only thing Sadeas has insulted is our honor as a royal house. If anything, then I am an awful person because I and Renarin are hoping that we will be able to carry out the punishment for a charge of treason.

brightnessnavani If you don’t, I will.

Today at 4:32 PM

brightlordkholin I love you.

brightnessnavani Good! Our plane leaves in an hour. I think you and I could use some bonding time.

adoniskholin Definitely… This will be good for me, youre pretty much the only support i have left My girlfriends dumped me, renarins completely obsessed with kaladin and has forgotten about me, and dads gone insane… Ive never been this alone in my life, auntie

brightnessnavani Now. I heard about the Shallan incident. Have you learned your lesson from it?

adoniskholin Ahh…what did you hear?

brightnessnavani You were unfaithful. I didn’t ask for details.

adoniskholin Technically not… Who told you?

brightnessnavani Renarin. Now…I feel as though there was a series of things that led up to this. A lack of attention. I know with Renarin being with Kaladin and your father acting like a rambunctious hooligan, you haven’t been getting very much affection from people you trust. I feel as though I played a small part in this. I’m sorry I haven’t been around much, Darling.

adoniskholin Dont worry about it auntie, it absolutely isnt your fault,

brightnessnavani I really should be around for you more.

adoniskholin But just to set things straight i was not technically unfaithful, shallan and i /had/ broken up for that one month You are around plenty, and im grateful for that

brightnessnavani Did you have intentions to continue that courtship?

brightnessnavani Mh. Well regardless. We are going to spend this week together. I have a few items of business I need to take care of, but other than that we can do whatever you’d like.

adoniskholin Shallans and mine? I have no idea, for a while it seemed great, we moved in together and loved each other, but we just stopped interacting after a while…and not for a lack of /me/ trying What do you have to do in kholinar?? I’m just gonna relax, do the things i used to do there, i miss our old dueling ring

brightnessnavani How odd. I thought you two were getting along well. Now however I see her and…the Thaylen woman walking around campus together.  I have to go to the Shard registry for Renarin to look information on Brightlord Amaram for the Almighty knows why.

brightnessnavani Well we I have a spa day planned for us when we get off the plane. Do you want to go to it our should I cancel it?

adoniskholin Renarins making you go all the way to kholinar? Wait is this about kaladin And YES OF COURSE I WANT A SPA DAY WITH YOU!!!🙌🏽🙌🏽💆🏻💆🏻

brightnessnavani I was told it was for ‘Justice’. Which is a very vague reason. When they said 'Justice’ I felt like I was thrown into one of Elhokar’s comic books.

brightnessnavani Oh good!! I have a two hour massage lined up for us along with facials.

adoniskholin I am so lucky to have an aunt like you 🙏🏽

brightnessnavani Oh darling. I’m lucky to have you as my nephew. <3

[After this post]

brightnessnavani You need to figure out how to talk to Renarin.

adoniskholin I have TRIED I have tried to be a good brother but renarin has pushed my patience to the breaking point!

brightnessnavani I am so tired of hearing “tried”. That implies failure and knowing you, you do not fail. Now. Are you brothers or are you going to just give up on that relationship completely.

adoniskholin …we’re brothers

brightnessnavani Then figure it out.

adoniskholin We’ve figured it out, thankfully

brightnessnavani Really?

adoniskholin Yes, we talked last night

brightnessnavani Oh good. I’m proud of you

[After the Daleas situation]

adoniskholin Auntie… Are you okay?

brightnessnavani As okay as I can be in this situation. Don’t worry about me, dear.

adoniskholin Im sorry this happened to you, auntie Dad isnt in his right mind

brightnessnavani He isn’t. I thought I would be able to be around him as he is, I was mistaken.

adoniskholin We’ll fix him soon, dont worry What about we go to a nice restaurant for dinner tonight?

brightnessnavani I am afraid I am someone you would want to be around currently.

adoniskholin Why not? I love spending time with you, auntie

brightnessnavani Ah. I just can’t stop crying.

adoniskholin Please dont cry over him He’s being his stupid young self and my real dad is nothing like that

adoniskholin If you’d rather not go in public i can cook dinner at home (im getting better) And we can watch a funny movie

brightnessnavani If you would like. I would love to see how you have improved.

brightnessnavani Then I will say it again. I love you Dalinar Kholin with my entire being

brightlordkholin I love you, Navani, with everything I am

brightnessnavani Oh, my sweet Dalinar.

brightlordkholin Do you miss the old me? The one that can remember everything? Quote man? I guess it’s presumptuous to assume you wouldn’t, I should ask how much do you miss him

brightnessnavani I miss him. But you are my Dalinar regardless which one you are.

brightlordkholin I miss Gavilar. And Sadeas, for what we used to be, anyway

brightnessnavani I know. I’m sorry…I can’t make up for either of those relationships.

Yesterday

brightnessnavani You are with Sadeas aren’t you?

brightlordkholin Not right now

brightnessnavani But you were? Hm. Well I can’t control you Dalinar. Do what you want.

brightlordkholin Navani, I love you. You know I love you But I feel like a caged animal around here lately. I’m not used to all these rules and whatever, I haven’t seen battle in weeks I’m getting antsy

brightnessnavani Do what you want Dalinar. I am sorry you feel as if I have caged you.

brightlordkholin Not you, just this whole… thing Peacetime is boring

brightnessnavani Peacetime is necessary.

brightlordkholin I’ll trust you that that’s true but that doesn’t mean it isn’t boring

brightnessnavani That’s life, Dalinar.

Today

brightnessnavani You slept with Sadeas?

brightlordkholin I… did

brightnessnavani I see. Well, congratulations Dalinar Kholin. You have broken my heart and damaged my trust. You said you weren’t going to go near him, yet here we are.

brightlordkholin I get that he killed all those people but when it’s just us, it’s hard to see him that way. it’s just like it was before

brightnessnavani He’s different. He’s manipulating this opportunity, /that he does not deserve/, to try and fix his mistakes. He almost killed you!

brightlordkholin He’s not manipulating me

brightnessnavani Yes he is!!

brightlordkholin People don’t manipulate me. I’m a warrior, I stay out of all that

brightnessnavani He’s been trying to get you to talk to him for months! Now that you actually want to talk with him, he’s taken advantage of it.

brightlordkholin Or maybe he just missed me

brightlordkholin I can’t deny that quote-man probably has a lot going for him, I’ve seen how well-respected future-me has become around here, and I hope somewhere near as much as you do that the silver kid figures out how to fix me and all that, but I’m just saying he was definitely no friend of Sadeas I don’t think anyone is these days

brightnessnavani Well then he should have thought about that before he sent you to your death! He doesn’t deserve all this attention from you. He’s changed Dalinar. He is not the man he was once was. All of us changed.

brightlordkholin Yeah, I’m seeing that

brightnessnavani I’m tired Dalinar. I asked for one thing. Hoping that you would trust me. What’s worse you did it while I was gone. I’m tired and am reminded why I chose Gavilar over you.

brightnessnavani Atleast when Gavilar slept with other people, he told me to my face.

brightlordkholin I never claimed to be better than Gavilar

brightnessnavani Yet you are! Atleast the you I have been dating is. A man of honor!

brightlordkholin What does that mean? What is honor to an Alethi?

brightnessnavani Everything! Something you’ve been trying to get people to understand.

brightlordkholin Well, I don’t understand it

brightnessnavani Well I don’t understand you. So looks like we’re riding the same chull.

brightlordkholin I guess.

brightnessnavani I love you Dalinar. Always have, and I always will. But I can not be with someone who does not think about the consequences of his choices.

brightlordkholin Are you breaking up with me?

brightnessnavani Sorrowfully, I am.