#breaking him

The first night had passed. Not getting enough sleep at all, Roman was up early making some coffee and something to eat when he felt someone staring a hole in his back. He didn't bother to turn around, he could feel Dean's presence clearly.

„Hi...“

A hoarse voice was breaking the silence.

„Hi...” he answered and flipped the toast over.

“You want some breakfast?“

„No.“

Dean limped to the chair and sat down. He didn't know what to say and instead scratched the skin under his left collar bone nervously.

“I... I'm sorry for yesterday...”

Dean's voice was low and he wasn't sure if Roman heard it but was relieved when he heard him finally answer:

“I know.”

Roman grabbed a plate and his coffee and sat down in front of Dean and started eating. Dean had a good look of Roman's nose which was slightly swollen with a hint of blue. He bit his lip as he watched him eating, a frown on his face. This must have hurt. But what hurt him more was the feeling, that Roman tried to ignore him. He looked at anything but the person in front of him.

“Are you mad?” he asked finally.

“No.” he took another bite from his toast.

“Sure?”

“Yeah...”

“Well, you look angry, I-”

“What do you expect, Dean? Tell me! You were gone for nearly two months! Two month without a single word from you while you were talking to everyone else BUT ME. I called you a thousand times but you never called back!”

Roman knew he shouldn't say all that but it just felt right to get it out of his system. He looked at Dean but Dean only could look away. The frustration from the past two month and his suspension just got the best of him. Roman finally got up and put his dishes in the dishwasher and rambled ahead.

“It seems like, by the look of you, you've given up your career and your relationship with me to have one hell-of-a-time with some of your old friends from CZW. And you know what? That's awesome! But I cared about you, Dean! I fucking cared about you! I didn't know where you were and I was dying to hear from you. You vacated your title and I am the last to know. And now that I got you back, you punch me in the face and tell me I should leave you alone.”

“Fuck. Hey, it's me. It's me, Dean. I don't want to harm you, I-”

“Go away!” Dean screamed again.

Roman couldn't process what's happening, still holding his bleeding nose.

“Leave me alone.”

“I'm not leaving you alone.”

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I have to remind myself to breathe—almost remind my heart to beat! Emily Brontë ― R.K. Lilley, Breaking Him

In case you missed it, here are this week’s blog posts:

Reading Challenge: February’s Monthly Motif

Review: Breaking Him by Sherilee Gray

Top Ten Tuesday: Insta-Buy Tropes

Review: Bossypants by Tina Fey

Page Count: February 2018

Review: You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost) by Felicia Day

This week, I’ve been reading:

Frat Girl by Kiley Roache

Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them by Newt Scamander

Before Daylight by Andie J. Christopher

Neil Patrick Harris by Neil Patrick Harris

Fly by Molly McLain

Recently acquired:

I have a temporary book ban going on right now! I’m a little overwhelmed with my next-up pile so the only book here is an old ARC request that came in! (Which is one of my most anticipated books of the year!)

The Raging Ones by Krista & Becca Ritchie

3 things this week:

I applied online for a library card from my new neighborhood and honestly, I should have just gone there. It’s been so long and I still don’t have it! I just look longingly at their collection online (not like I have any time anyway, my TBR is 18 miles long right now) since it’s so much better than my current library’s.

Alana:¿Cómo lo sabes?

Genevieve: Él fue la persona con la que estuviste durante el temblor