#brahh

no one's ever gonna love me like that again

I don't wanna get over you

I wanna sit with you in bed

I don't wanna feel better

I'd give anything to miss you again

I don't wanna get over it

I wanna get under it instead

a book sits on top of clean and messy blankets

on a bed that fuckin' creaks at night when I get in it late

and late at night, I'm chugging Gatorade

and someone's breaking up when I crack up

because I know I'll never know just what to say

I'm a "communist", a "terrorist", an MPDG thot

or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room, living out the shady Christian plot of

Twilight or The Bible or The Lover by Duras

or I'm just really fuckin' selfish and really fuckin' lost

But someone loved me, someone fucking loved me

someone fucking loved me and I fuckin' loved them too

goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something

I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, god, no)

I don't wanna feel better

we kept our "liquor" in a suitcase underneath my bed

and we "drank" it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad

But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again

The sun has began to set

I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut

I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed

But other times, I cry or don't make noise at all

I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small

'Cause someone loved me, someone fucking loved me

Someone fucking loved me, I loved them too

Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' earned something

I have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too

And God, no!

Of course I don't wanna feel better!

Can you fucking imagine?!

No one's ever gonna love me like that again

I don't wanna get over it

I wanna rip the stars to shreds

I don't wanna feel better

Of course it hurt, of course it fuckin' hurt

It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes

that I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck

And also somehow making it

I think I might've died there twice, and I would do it all again

I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine

Or I'm a healthy baby-girl who traded sunshine for disease

but when my head hit my cheap pillow, I could tell I had a heart

And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart

'Cause someone loved me, someone fuckin' loved me

All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew

Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something

and it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food

I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you

all my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew

and now you're over there, and I'm way over here

What am I gonna do?

I don't wanna feel better

no one's ever gonna love me like that again

I don't wanna get over you

I wanna sit with you in bed