#br33xo

A dear friend before all else I love your heart, eat your heart out.

Keep the bad, promote the good. Find balance this is just how things run.

Your smile stops people in their tracks to admire. Your voice ranges from soft and delicate to rough and cracking from pain. You bleed for everyone even thouse who don't deserve it. You have a kind heart and pretty face even if your body is stuck in a 2 year depression where you are and slept away every feeling. Men admire you as you are but you never see why. Every chance you've taken you've failed to keep steady. You hold so tightly to a dream you aren't even sure you can obtain. It's very hard to have a marriage and a family when you aren't worthy of such a life. You stay up each night over thinking everything because it's hard to trust when you have been betrayed so deeply. Compliments flow to your head but fall short of anything but deaf for these are words and actions are harder to express when you don't truly love a person. How is it you can have so many people care yet nobody expresses it towards you the way you let it pour out? You are a fighter, a dreamer and a late night thinker..... Over thinker.. never can pin point a issue but you ramble on and on about these feelings in your head but no body had that kind of time.. no body has that kind of understanding so you settle for a man that less worthy of you and even he finds better things to do besides be true for you and what y'all built. Broken you search and trust again someone who is truly trustworthy but after all all the trust existing before hand was washed away and you were the one who failed and ruined everyone else involved after all why else would it happen if not by your own flaws? Night becomes very scary inside your own head you begin to doubt everything you've felt and known but threw the pain you see hazel eyes looking into your soul and like before you are rushed into a panic because once again you've been caught in your weakest... Uncertain if you are able to be loved or if you just fit the style for now but never being the one for later or forever... Once again a pair of eyes sink deep below your skin, rips the flesh from your bones strips your body naked in it's core where the coldest most undesirable flaws hide. Letters that once spelt out beautiful conversations become painful reminders that this just can't be true and one day it's all gonna fade. Sweet gestures are now just prolonging the end that will follow. He used to play with my hair until I fell asleep, then he play games with my head til I hated myself. So don't be surprised that even after all that time I still weep when I think about love it always seems to die before you can save yourself or prepare... This is what's it's like to be the girl everyone falls out of love with. There's just "so much amazing things about you" yet noone ever stays long enough to prove it. This women is me, I am the women everyone falls out of love with. These thing never come with a warning so instead you just try to enjoy it while it last for it will surely end and another nail is hammered into your chest. At this rate you'll end up alone too broken to look into another eyes. Give up while your ahead nobody wants damaged goods.

Why is he so resistant? Why am I trying so hard? Why am I here? Why does it hurt sometimes? Why does it scare me? Why do you dismiss the wrong? Why do you stay? Why are you this way? Who is this person? Why is he here? What are his intentions? Where is this going? What makes your smile? What are your dreams? Do you like these flowers? Will you accept my ring? Who are you? Where'd you go? What do you mean? Why did you leave? -Br33xo