#bpharm

hai guys 👋 yesterday marked the start of year 2 for me! it didn't really hit me that i'm not a freshman anymore until i started getting asked by freshmen for directions HAHAHAH the good old days of being a lost freshman :')

it also felt so different that lessons are now fully in person. i've never seen the shuttle buses this full T_T the buses are literally completely full every 2 hours from 8am (since that is how majority of the lessons run) study spots are a lot easier to find though, since no one is camping at one spot for the whole day to attend all their zoom lessons.

on the other hand, i had a lecture on anatomy for my gastrointestinal system module yesterday andddd i'm already lost on the first day :') doing some catch up on that lecture today since its a public holiday today o(*^＠^*)o

this semester is already starting to look crazy even though i'm taking less credits this semester compared to the last :/ year 2 life i guess...

to more posts this semester maybe? since i'm going to be spending more time in random spots in school studying ◉_◉ see y'all then!

here's a pic from me trying to get a grip on work in between lessons in the meantime HAHAHAHAH

hi guys!! it's been long :D my finals ended at the beginning of may and well, post-finals has been a mess :/ from ongoing school activities, to changing jobs, to sorting out the mess i left behind during final, there's been a lot of things that i've been attending to so big oops right there

my results are coming out next monday and well, as much as i already can estimate how well i'll do, i can't help but dread it all the same. hopefully i won't be too upset about it, and well let's see if there'll be an update then! hahaha

i've been taking on some self-directed modules to clear some credits - been planning to clear the non-pharmacy mods before year 3 since i'll be doing my research project then, but overloading during year 2 didn't seem too great. right now, i'm taking modules on big data/data analytics. i took R and Rcmdr during semester for one of my mods so i was curious to learn more. fast forward to now, i'm now learning Rstudio and Java. my friends do think i'm a bit nuts for liking R but o wells HAHAHAHAH to each their own

hi again! back in school to settle some stuff and thought i might as well study the stuff i need to in between, so back at the same location we go!

semester results came out today and i honestly don't know how to feel :/ i scored straight B+s for all my pharmacy modules, with some As scattered around in my non-pharmacy modules. i somehow feel like i don't have a grasp of what is a good grade and what isn't. on one hand, i've seen on the school reddit that B+ is a good grade because its above average. on the other hand, i've heard from seniors that the average for the pharmacy cohort is B+ due to some technicalities. it also doesn't help that there's is no way for me to see grade distributions (obviously), so i don't know where i stand within the cohort as well.

i really don't want to sound like im being ungrateful for my grades because i know these grades are still quite okay. rather, im confused about what to do going forward - how to use my pass/fail credits when they all have the same grade, and how i should pace myself for subsequent semesters. hopefully, talking to some seniors will help me sort this mess in my head out (。﹏。*)

moving on from results release, this week is going to be really happening for me ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ i'm going on a 3 day hospital pharmacy attachment, settling school activities, and starting out in a new dental clinic! (for context since i don't really talk about it here: i also work as a dental assistant/dental nurse while studying pharmacy - in fact i have more dental experience than pharmacy experience rn oops) revising some dental assisting stuff today as a refresher, and i got a new notebook to summarize my past assisting stuff in, hence the notebook. hopefully i won't end up like the otter on the notebook this week heh

bright and early in the morning, i got to school and wasn't able to connect to the campus wifi. usually i wouldn't complain about it since its strength really varies by location BUT THEN

MY LAPTOP COMPLETELY CRASHED O-O

yes indeed this laptop of one year died on me T_T all i did was to press the retry button on the error message my antivirus software gave (because it couldn't connect to the internet)

i restarted the computer so many times and it didn't work, until i resorted to completely reinstalling windows .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·. thank goodness that

after one hour of trying to reinstall windows, the laptop came back to life, albeit wiped of all the apps i had installed

it was able to keep all my files and i wouldn't have to download them all back from my google drive and onedrive *phew*

after that fiasco in the morning, i had a "conflict resolution" workshop, attended by medicine and pharmacy students. my group had to submit a report beforehand, and then was required to send someone up in front of the class for a roleplay which was supposed to include improvements to prevent conflict.

my group was supposed to send a pharmacy student, so my friend and i (we were the only two pharmacy students in the group of 7 lmao) decided i would go for this one, while my friend represented our pharmacy group in another roleplay assignment for our clinical care module. i was so stressed leading up to the workshop, because me being me, i was getting all worried about not doing well.

it then came around to my turn and

I BLANKED

i had expected the standardized patient to act exactly as in the video sent to us (the one that we were supposed to improve upon) but of course, he didn't. (i mean, this is a healthcare course, not an acting class, what was i thinking) LUCKILY, i managed to sort of recover after blanking for about a minute or so. though the conversation was mainly steered by the standardized patient, i somehow managed to keep my composure and do as i usually would *phew*

it then came to the end of my roleplay and I GOT ACTUAL APPLAUSE WOW (in comparison to the courtesy applause uk) my teammates from my pharmacy group who were in the same room were also cheering me on and i'll tell you it felt great (●ˇ∀ˇ●)

it then got even better when the pharmacist attending the session was debriefing us for that scene on behalf of the pharmacy faculty AND SHE SAID SHE COULD ALREADY IMAGINE ME AS A PHARMACIST (p≧w≦q) omg it made my anxiety filled day so much better

in other news today, my dinner looks very sad (pictured above) HAHAHAHAH definitely feeling great today at the end of the day (tbh im still on a high even a lecture later) but my goodness it was such a mess today

to more days with these sort of highs (✿◕‿◕✿) (and hopefully less of the lows ._.)

haiiiii its been long heheh been juggling work + school projects so i am ngl quite swamped in work rn

had a bit of time to sort out my admin work for a volunteer project the other day so here's that :D this place is one of my favorite places to study in around my faculty because its quiet, has tables w dividers (to help me focus on my stuff) and has a nice view out the window (for destressing *_*)

lowkey scared i won't be able to finish my self-directed module :') i feel like ive taken on too much work this break, especially with work and one of my projects being very time consuming since i have to physically be there multiple times a week. im starting to decrease my number of work days as the sem starts so yay for my sanity :D

lessons haven't started but I already have homework to clear D: its a chemistry refresher that while I am very grateful for, has also fried my brain cells HAHAHAHAHAH (its been 8-9 months since I last touched chemistry maybe??)

lil story time: while doing this I felt so brain empty that I texted my high school chemistry teacher that I had returned all the organic chemistry to her HAHAHAHAHA I miss her so much seriously like she pretty much was my mother figure in school and it wouldn't be an overstatement to say that she is one of those who greatly contributed to me being where I am right now 🥺 sadly I can't go back and visit her due to the current covid situation :/