#boy 31

We’re both recently out of relationships but the real trick is that he reminds me so much of boy 15 (aka the asshole who dumped me after he finally coerced me into losing my virginity) in his mannerisms. At first I thought I was being ridiculous but it got stronger. The good thing is that, eventually, I stopped seeing them as 15′s mannerisms and just started to see them as something I didn’t mind. 

I asked him what the most horrible thing he had ever done to someone else was to measure how much of a douche he was but also to compare it to my secret.

He got drunk and I got tipsy and I confessed I had lied about my worst thing. I told him I had cheated on my ex-boyfriend and he confessed that he had done the exact same thing this past semester.

I don’t know.

I know I did it too but I don’t think I would do it again. The girl he cheated with is in another state now but she’ll come back to this university and I’ll go back to mine and I just don’t want to get hurt again because I really do believe in our compatibility. 

We had sex and well, just that, we had sex. I was finally able to have sex without tears of pain and honestly I’m so proud of myself but also I’m assigning so much meaning to this and the fact that it feels so good and what if we break up and I never find someone like this? You can’t really prescreen guys for dick size. I know this isn’t everything but sex is very much a huge part of why my relationship with 29 was so unsuccessful.